"Forever isn't always forever" written by Paul on estrip.org

Category: love

04/07/12 06:14 - ID#56331

Forever isn't always forever

Well after 10 years (e:pmt) is officially just pt. (e:matthew) moved in a few days after I met him at Mid K in 2002 and we were pretty inseparable for many years to come. Many of the best moments of my life were spent by his side. I truly thought it would go on forever.

Sadly, the last couple years didn't go so smooth and (e:matthew) made the decision to move out this weekend, although it had been discussed for a while.

It really hit me when I was moving his bed out of the bedroom. Everything in the house is so him that I am going to have to change it all or be sad all the time.

I wish him the best and I hope someday we can be as close as (e:hodown) and I are now.Its so weird because I am so used to talking with him about everything... I hope he finds someone that can make him happier than I did because I think the only thing that will make me not sad is knowing he is happy.

oda writes at 12:09:02 04/18/12 - Comment #68214: Oh, Paul, I'm so sorry. I hope that everyone can move on and know how awesome and inspiring you have been to so many of us. Lots of love to you.

metalpeter writes at 07:46:49 04/12/12 - Comment #68196: Just wanted to give my perspective again for anyone who might not get it... I'm 39 and my one cousin is a couple years older.... So I don't know how long my Aunt was married to my uncle but 30+ years and she left him not sure why... Maybe once one retires things change or what ever but if they can't last who can..... In any event I hope all 3 of you that this is what is best and that you all can be happy...

shawnr writes at 07:25:06 04/12/12 - Comment #68195: Hey Paul. So sorry to hear this. We love you all three and are wishing the best for you. Hang in there.

chico writes at 09:39:38 04/10/12 - Comment #68188: Hard to believe and tough to accept. Fundamentally changing the nature of such a long relationship is very difficult indeed. Hoping you're all okay and muddling through.

Wishing P&T, and M, all the very best going forward.

jason writes at 05:00:51 04/09/12 - Comment #68180: Sorry to hear about it, P&T.

jolene writes at 04:14:39 04/09/12 - Comment #68179: I'm so sorry to hear this...strength and good vibes to all.

uncutsaniflush writes at 08:15:42 04/08/12 - Comment #68175: Wow! Strength to all of you. Good luck.

tinypliny writes at 03:43:27 04/08/12 - Comment #68174: time heals all. And optimism on everyone's part.

mrmike writes at 03:14:24 04/08/12 - Comment #68172: To echo Lee's thoughts, so sorry to hear it all, but good vibes to you all.

leetee writes at 12:26:46 04/08/12 - Comment #68171: Wow. I don't know what to say... except i am so sorry to hear this. Good luck, love and strength to all 3 of you.

heidi writes at 11:27:07 04/08/12 - Comment #68170: Much love to you all as you go through this difficult transition.

metalpeter writes at 09:29:40 04/08/12 - Comment #68169: I hope that he is leaving to Be Happy with someone or some other couple ..... Well he must cause when you move out you need to move into some other place..... I'm sure you 3 will keep it drama free..... Seeing as there is a big group of people you all know.......

metalpeter writes at 09:27:30 04/08/12 - Comment #68168: In Terms of the house : Yeah that is so Matt I say leave it like it is and just add things you like to it........

metalpeter writes at 09:26:34 04/08/12 - Comment #68167: To Me It seems Weird .... Not shocking cause the ugly fact is that most relationships at least now a days when people live so much longer then when Marriage was started and 20 years later one of them was dead..... But that being said if any of that makes sense I think to many of us it seems odd cause we know you as (e:PMT) Kinda like how when I met Jim it was Jim & James so when that went down it was so odd cause I knew them as two.....

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Category: cancer

04/07/12 11:28 - ID#56330

The Neighbor's Funk

I can't believe our neighbors are getting those chemicals sprayed on their lawn. If the turf is not dangerous then why do we get a letter saying, "You may wish to take precautions to minimize pesticide exposure to yourself, family members, pets or family possessions." And just how are we supposed to do that exactly? Get a giant plastic barriers for our property line.

Don't we have enough toxicity in our lives that we don't need to add more for lawn vanity?

I guess it beats the neighbors behind us that spray their parking lot to prevent weeds.

metalpeter writes at 09:15:00 04/08/12 - Comment #68166: What ever company does it , I official story is that it is both toxic and not toxic..... In other words once the stuff has settled into the grass and ground (now this assumes that there is no water source for it to get into) it is safe... That is why they have the pet and kids warning.... Now I don't know enough about the science but it is dangerous to small things and to humans when you breath it in but after a couple of days no more fumes so you are ok..... Here is the true test though when you see someone spraying print up and make an Ultimate (Can't call it Frisbee legally cause that is a brand name and the sued) invite with all the friends and the sprays have to come..... Granted they don't know you but toss that out and I doubt they would come...Or maybe it is really as safe and not as they say.....

tinypliny writes at 12:43:16 04/07/12 - Comment #68164: Look at the names of some of those pesticides. Local war and associated collaterals - you.

I say you write to the city and say just notification is not enough. Lawns are exposed to everyone and all these pesticides are aerosols. Short of moving away till the aerosols are scattered and diminished in concentration, you don't have a way of protecting yourself. It is cause for worry especially because you are prone to more allergies and reactions than most people.

From: :::link:::

Volume median diameter of the suspended aerosol decreased from 14
to 2.3 Âµm during 1.5 h after application. Concentration of airborne pesticide decreased by 60% in the first hour after application and by 95% during 12 h after application.

And

Practically, the potential hazard could be mitigated through establishment of appropriate re-entry intervals and use of respiratory protection with appropriate performance criteria for workers re-entering the structure.

And of course, what about soil pollution?? How on earth will you keep this from leeching into your lawns and your gardens and finding a way into your food? This is so disturbing. I would strongly recommend talking and reasoning with your neighbours about the possible consequences of spraying on the general health of your household and persuade them to adopt more natural measures to get rid of weeds.

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Category: hiking

04/06/12 10:38 - ID#56328

Hiking at zoar

It was so beautiful out. (e:flacidness) and I sat in the sun and relaxed all day.

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Category: food

04/06/12 10:36 - ID#56327

Happy Easter

love, wendys

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Category: shoes

04/05/12 09:06 - ID#56321

New Leather Converse

(e:hodown) sent me these awesome leather and suede converse. The ones with the zipper down the middle of the laces. I can't decide if I should put in the laces that came with them or not. If I use the laces it means I need to do the laces and the zipper to get than on and off.

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Category: work

04/03/12 10:04 - ID#56319

The Techie Award

As (e:terry,56315) mentioned, I won the infotech Niagara Beta awards for Techie - Large Company. I was genuinely surprised and excited about the award. I didn't know what to say when they called me up in front of like 500+ people so very spur of the moment I said something like,

I would like to thank Roswell Park Cancer Institute for presenting me with an endless series of interesting puzzles to solve, my coworkers for making it fun to solve those puzzles and my awesome boss Del Reid for allowing me the freedom to solve the puzzles as I see fit. Here is to a world without cancer.

Then I held up the award. It was cheesy but I think it worked. All in all it was a good day. Even more exciting was going to a morning meeting I was dreading and having someone there refer to me as a wizard and say that I was able to significantly up their productivity with one of my creations. Its nice to hear some positive feedback.

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Category: mobile

04/03/12 12:06 - ID#56312

Paper in the ipad vs Note app on galaxy note

You can see the tool and color options on the note are so superior.

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Category: mobl

04/03/12 12:02 - ID#56311

Robot Bird

I bought the stupid tools for the paper app on the iPhone. I like the interface for switching between notes but I really enjoy the drawing app on the Galaxy Note so much better. One thing I really miss is the S stylus. I love how people pretend they don't want or need styli for the ipad but then there is this giant ipad stylus market.

The other things that are so much better on the Note are the much richer tool and color selection options. You know, the basics like being able to pick from more than 6 colors and having high tech fancies like variable pen size and transparency. I can't believe the paper ipad on the ipad suckered me into to purchasing the different pens for $1.99 each. I though I would use them to sketch stuff out for work but without a stylus, it's not so useful to sketch out idea.

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Category: energy

04/01/12 08:02 - ID#56308

Thoughts about Electricity

I wanted to buy a tiny, energy efficient server, but I opted for a fast, powerful one. Next one will be energy efficient just like my next car. The combination of fast and powerful but energy efficient always comes at a premium. Its why celebrities drive electric cars.

I ordered this interesting device that allows you to measure the amount of electricity in watts that a device is pulling at any particular point. The device itself is cheap and plugs in between the device and its power source. THis is not the exact device I own, but its the exact same thing

Here are some interesting facts:

The Samsung LNT4665F 46" 1080p LCD HDTValone 67w
TV with macbook pro 270 watt
TV with macbook pro but mac screen closed 250w
macbook pro 85w
mac book pro screen 20watt?
TV with wii 130w
TV with wii playing game 170w
tortoise lights 250w
tortoise heat pad 130w
tortoise heat low 600w, med 924w, high 1460w
living room heater same
Dell 1950 server with 2 dual core 5160 3.0Ghz 120w-700w depending on usage Usually it is on the really low side.
Dell 1950iii server with 2 quad core X5460 3.0Ghz 120w-700w depending on usage
mac mini server 85W with a single 2.0ghz quad core i7

We use so much electricity and our bill is around $180-200/month for 3 people. For example jan-feb of this year we used 1577 kWh and it cost us $188.36 with services and taxes, etc. Looking at the bill I think it is somewhere around $0.12 per kilowatt hour. Which is 1 hour worth of 1000 watts.

I think we could probably save so much money by unplugging things that are not being used. One way to save a lot of money is to plug everything into power strips and then just turn those off when you leave. This is especially useful for devices that draw power when not in use, which is most of them.

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Category: servers

04/01/12 06:04 - ID#56306

New Server - Oh Shit $899 later

So I leaned how ebay works today. I haven't used it in a long time. I was looking at new servers and the price was $1300 with 1 hour to go.

There was a "make an offer" button. I put in $899 and hit the button. I was under the assumption it sent an email to the auctioneer and they could get back to me. Instead it sent an immediate accept response with the bill. If I had known it worked this way, so automated, I would have tried lower. Still it is a great deal.

A new Dell 1950 III , Intel Xeon E5450 2x 3.0GHz Quad Core, with 16GB RAM and dual 1TB drives. The new drives are only 7200RPM vs the old ones which were 15K. I am curious if the tradeoff in size is worth the speed. It has 4 slots compared to the 2 on the old system, so many I will invest in a small OS SSD to fast boot.

I might have been able to built one from scratch for cheaper, like I did with the original super micro server, but it would not have been as sure to work as the Dell 1950 which I am already using.

Anyhow, this will allow to me to experiment with KVM and cents 6 virtualization.

This should also solve the running out of space for the site media. Not necessary but if anyone feels they want to contribute feel free to donate

Now if only I could afford SSDs for it

Earlier this year we bought four of the Intel SSDs to prototype them in a new Dell 1950 Poweredge Server in a RAID-0 configuration (striped data for pure performance). We have a multi-tiered slave database architecture so Iâ€™m not worried about RAID-level redundancy. The results were amazing! We tasked the Intel SSD prototype server as a database slave in our production environment to safely introduce the new technology into our operations. When we initiated synchronization from the master database server, the SSD server was about 90 minutes behind the master. Typically, when a slave is this far behind the master it would have taken a slave server about 30 minutes to re-sync. Well, with the usage of SSDs, it only took about 100 seconds to re-synchronize with the master database!