It seems after years of daily dedication to my journal I am at some weird point in my life where I have nothing to say. Okay that is not true as I am still writing. I used to write in my journal multiple time every day for years but really who wants to see more pictures of inside roswell or at my house. Don't worry there are pictures at the end of this.

The truth is I never go anywhere or do anything interesting much anymore. I don't barely leave the 5 minute radius around my house. As soon as the weather gets warmer I am sure things will change so drastically. I remember what it was like occupying my life with housing building tasks. There is lots of stripping and building to do. I am sure I can occupy much of my time with making my house sweeter.

In the mean time everything exciting seems kind of at a standstill. I think I just might have settled or something. I have everything I ever wanted now and I am bored with it a bit. Who complains about that? I should really look on the bright side. Maybe it is just season disorder or the fact that I worked way too many hours this week. Maybe if I owned a projector. That's what I keep telling myself. I really need a projector to expand my horizons.

On the programming front I am bored too. I think I am burned out with content management. I am more interested in data mining, social networking and visualization. I am tired of other people making web design/programming decisions based on bullshit. Someone actually, I am not joking, asked me for a website with a scrolling marquee today. It felt so 1997.

I hope I am not at one of the moments where I change career paths again. I doubt it only because I am so comfortable and complacent doing what I do, I am well compensated and I have little interest in leaving the city.

Unlike everyone else, I am definately not trying to escape to a bigger city with more to do. I mean even if there were more exciting things to do, like in another larger, warmer city - I would not do them. I don't even like going out much. I frankly, just want to feel like I am part of something slightly more exiciting content management, even if it is for a good cause. I suppose working with (e:enknot) makes content management seem fun.

So here are some things going on.

1. I miss twisted. I just wish we lived together. think I might be going back to San Francisco in march for another conference. Let's hope that works out. Next time it is her turn to come here. PErhaps on the way back from italy?

2. I love linux. I am never going back to windows ever on my personal computers and seeing as they will be on vista for the next 20 years or so, it won't be that hard to just say no, if I make it past this month.

3. Tomorrow, Josephine Anstey and some students are coming by to talk about web programming and online pervasive games. This is something I am very interested in. Sometimes I am still angry that I did not become a professor. I guess there is always the future and there are many other careers I would rather have.

4. Speaking of which I miss jesse, jesse.org jesse. What ever happend to him. Did he get eaten by China? Maybe Josephine will know.

5. On closing, here are some pictures from my phone, I was cleaning it out in hopes of starting to take new pictures and going back to journaling.

Mike getting hammered, lol


Eating haddock today at Roswell. I have eaten so much fish recently, this one almost killed me. I had three isnatnces of almsot swalling a bone followed by one really sharp one stabbing through my gums. That is a really unpleasant feeling. I wonder if the fish are trying to just say no.


Here is one left over pic from the ice storm. It is not the pretty kindwith the fancy camera but the low res kind with the cell phone. It still was pretty neat.


The mice that were makign us all crazy and doing things like this seems to be gone. The "humane" traps worked really good to trap them so we could kill them. Ironic as it may be, it beats having to spray or put poison everywhere. I would rather die from the mice and the poison.


Like at this place on elmwood. Are they going to knock it down soon. It seems liek such a health hazzard and it is on some of the most prime real estate in the city. I just don't get how it exists there empty and abondoned.


Salmon tastes really good. I like it.


The wig is still out there. I saw it the other day.

They just make no sense. Now I simply have a bunch of live mice I have to dispose of. They have two options, die under my boot or freeze to death in the trash can outside. (e:matthew) suggested feeding them the poison. The reason we didn't just use the poison in the first place is because we were afraid the squirrels would get poisoned.

I thought about building some sort of mass extermination chamber but it all seems so first stage of being a serial killer - don't you think? It seems liek putting them out in the blue bin is the best option for my personal sanity, they will freeze very fast.

The actor who played Harry Potter is playing a stable boy in an upcoming play where he does a nude scene that involves a horse? I read Harry Potter fan parents are all up in arms about this.

I am at Spot on Delaware for lunch at I saw the Beast is now $2. Will anyone pay that for the Beast?

tried joining this site and it has more bugs than my garden ... keeps saying "invalid user" u prolly wont get this as the site is weak

Go fuck yourself. Don't bother joining the site, in fact do me a favor a stab yourself to death (thank you pan's labyrinth for you inspirational violence.)

I have spent years work on the site as a purely non-profit side project. It generally works amazingly considering the amount of stuff it does and the fact that there is not one employee who is paid to run it. It runs on mac, windows, and linux, plus on cell phone both in wap and xhtml flavor.

I have spent thousands of hours dealing with the server and the people on the site, their emotional problems, the server problems, the nasty swarms of attack bots, the server hackers, arranging its hosting, progamming new features and helping people who don't know how to use computers very well. You have no idea how much behind the scene work goes on, beyond the programming and server upkeep. I am the server tech, the customer service team, the networking guy, the designer, the database admin, the public relations team. I also work 40-50 hours a week at my real job.

Please give me the address of the site you run so I can have ample opportunity to rip your project the fuck apart.

Fuck you,
Paul Visco

I was trying to unrar a set of files on the mac and the progress bar said it would take 2023406814 hours to finish. I don't think anything ever said it would take that long.

I was reading about some enriched uranium that was smuggled by a fish and sausage trader out of russia and into georgia (the country) Apparently, it was 90% enriched and enough to build a nuclear bomb. 100g goes for about $1 million dollars.

I never really though about what uranium looks like. I realized that it was mined and that it had to be enriched but I never really considered what the susbtsance would be like in quantity enough to make a nuclear bomb. I somehow thought it would be fancier or liek in rods.

Here it is, simply in plastic bags, The smuggler had it under his jacket. I bet he gets a nasty case of cancer.

We have this mice problem in the house. I think part of it is from the church as I see them outside near it when it is warm out. Luckily they are little house mice and not big rats. I want to kill them more than anything. I wish I could just step on them all but it is too complicated. The real issue is they are ruining everything. Last night I had to throw out another drawer full of stuff. They ate the zip lock bags and other plastic items which is weird. Maybe nesting material.

The most important step is removing food from lying around but my roommates seem to have real trouble with that, For a while we had traps and caught a lot of them. But then we had to give the humane traps back. I am at the point where I hate them enough to step on them, so humane traps are not my utmost concern. I feel like they are invading my space now. They are even bold enough to come out during light hours. I would use poison but I am afraid that it will end up somehow killing the squirrels. In fact I am sure about it.

So I guess we will have to try the traps again. I just wish everyone would remember to not leave food out. Last night after talking about this a lot, there were crackers smashed on the floor, I found this because the mouse was trying to run out and drag them under.

Here is all the crap I found around the house the other night when i got home from work at around midnight. And it is like this every freakin' day.










On a sadder note, the baby sugar glider died. The mother is a crack whore with no parenting skills. She pretty much just threw the baby out of the nest onto the floor.

I decided to take advantage of my brithday holiday today to just say no to windows. One of the most important things was that I could natively run IE to test web sites and that the new Flash Player 9 came out for linux the other day.



It was so satisfying to just delete the windows partition. Now my vaio is much more like its running OS X without the apple crap or hardware and it is so much faster than when it was running windows. Windows is usually fast for about the first three days and then it just starts going downhill from there. I wasn't in the mood to do YAWR (Yet Another Windowds Re-install) when I saw the Suse site that compared the features of the new Suse to Windows Vista.

I have to say I really like this Suse Enterprise Linux 10

I figured what the hell, the only thing that was holding me back before was running IE and cinema 4D. I am pretty much done with Cinema 4D and I can get IE to run.

This is probably the 10th time I installed linux on a proprietary laptop and this time it went great with no hitches right out of the proverbial box. This is the first time I ran Gnome desktop with Suse but it is their default window manager now so I decided to give it a try. The last time I had used it was with Fedora back when (e:ajay) helped me install it on this same laptop.

I wish I had something important to say at the end of being a 20-something.

Flashback to January 21st, 1997: I am locked in my dorm room in Flensburg, Germany totally dissatisfied with the thought of turning 20. I somehow thought it was going to be the end of my adventurous life and that everything would change the next day. What really amazes me about the difference between then and now is the omnipresent internet which was nowhere in my life at the time. I had only began to use it the year before in 1996 and in Germany my only access was in a special computer lab once a week.

The night of my twentieth birthday I was not online chatting with my friends in the motherland but rather locked in my room tripping on mushrooms by myself.

Eventually, I ended up wandering out into the park and if I remember correctly, I had a good time.

I don't remember my 21st birthday. Does anyone else remember it. I think I might not have one single friend in my life now that was there then - or maybe I just don't remember it because it was so fun. Actually maybe chris was there. Maybe (e:hodown) but I think she was in New York. Or maybe I was in Arizona? If only I had a journal. I think I was probably in Arizona.



Back to 2007 -
My blood pressure was ridiculous the other day. Although, in fairness I was really angry at the moment.


Last night we celebrated my birthday at my parents house.







My family got me so much candy. In fact (e:mike) wrapped my gift in candy. The gift was a set of these four keychains that attach to stuff you lose. Then when you press a button o the basestation the things make an alert noise so that you can find them. What a great idea. I wrote about it a while ago when I was on the plane to San Francisco to visit (e:twisted). They had them in the skymall magazine at the time.



(e:lilho), a big part of the last ten years.


I love this vaio series. At over 4 pounds lighter than the macbook I think I will need one, once the tax returns come.