[inlink]uncutsaniflush,54[/inlink] I don't think I will ever have advertisers on (e:strip). To me that would represent the ultimate failure of the public sphere I was trying to create when I programmed it. I like to use this example. Suppose that I had accepting advertising from Pano's and then the whole controversy arose with the knocking down of the building and everyone writing about it. Then I would be in this awkward situation where I have to balance the interest of the writers with the interests of the advertisers. That would stifle talk around here, but also would end up being more work than just getting a job and paying for it.

I think I will probably just get another job and pay for it like I have for the past three years. Hopefully, I can just find a job and get a fast connection and host the site at home. (e:shawnr) asked me to work with him on his site games first!

Maybe he and I will combine efforts and we could host it altogether. I could also host some other sites to help pay for it. At least I already have the fancy ass server. Now I just need to work on the connection. It looks like a good DSL with static IP is around $105/month in Buffalo. That is not too high, but I will need to host some other stuff in order to make it possible.

If you have any sites that need hosting, switching them over to my server (currently there is plenty of space for regular sites) would be a great way to help defray the cost. I have plenty of space now.

Don't worry about me canceling the site just yet. Unless you are at Canisius. The site no longer reaches there as I can't afford bandwidth for them anymore.

If we figure it would cost $104 per month to host it locally plus $144 in set up fees. That would be $1392 to fund it for a yearly. But like I said that would not just be (e:strip) , that would be a whole server with hudnreds of gigabytes of space for other stuff. If it was on a local server I would definately be able to make it way cooler as well.

Or maybe we could have a fundraiser.

The other option is to keep it how it is far away in some other state and pay $40/month. At least until we fill up the 6GB we have. Currently, we are using 1.2GB. That should give us a while and only costs $480/year. For the last couple years I just paid for everything with additional donation money coming from (e:drchlorine) who gets the golden donor award.

Had I gotten the job at Canisius I was going to front the cost for the server myself, but now that is on hold till I figure someting out.

Better still
Does anybody do grant writing? That would be the most ideal situation and I really think we could qualify for lots of grants. I really don't think I will have time anytime soon to research and write them as I need ot finish my thesis. Maybe someone else wants to do that?

If you can think of anything else (e:uncutsaniflush) , I am totally open to lots of things accept advertising. Although, I already wrote a pretty fancy advertsing module for the site. (e:twisted) has it for the western site. Maybe she will start using it as soon as I finish her business diretcory!! ;)

I was compressing some of the structures for josephines the The Trial the Trail today. It is amazing how this tower looks even better with fewer triangles. I might still redo the texture though.

What are these crop circles. I was flying around on google maps in order to figure out a way to avoid rain and found these crazy crop circles all over the place.

Well It's all over. No more viscop@canisius. I feel very "rm -r -f" but sometimes a fresh start is nice. I was sad to say goodbye to the new server. I was so excited about teaching that class. I threw out all my old tutorials and work. At least I can look forward to vacation.

I would have never gotten my degree at UB if it wasn't for Canisius prodding me on and now I owe an additional trillion dollars. It's not that I would not have pursued a higher degreee but I definately would have applied at other schools - that probably would have advanced me further. My previous academic record probably could have even gotten me a scholarship but I stuck it around and worked so hard at that job. What a waste of time and money my life has become.

Even Tony Blair looks confused about it.

It is nice to have parents that care. I am going to add this message so that I can always remember even if I don't live in Buffalo.

::DOWNLOAD SOUND::

The internet pretty much runs most everything in my life but it is expensive and with my $500/month student loans and $300/month rent, credit card bills, and health costs, with no real insurance for the 7th year in a row - I definately need to consider my options. Especially, considering I don't really trust in anything now and tomorrow is Friday the 13th. I have really had to completely re-evaluate my life and what I have been doing for the last four years.

Internet Costs
Server for elmwoodstrip.com - $39.95 per month
Server for paulvisco.org - $7.95 per month
Server for Alamedlink.com - $9.95 per month
Wireless Internet(sidekick) - $29.95 per month
Broadband Internet at Home - $59.95 per month
Total Internet Costs - $147.75 per month

I suppose I could just halt all of my experimental projects like the google maps based history engine, the GPS tracker, the grading system (80% done) and get a regular job at bank again like when I was 18. The grading system can definately go. I am thinking at this point I would rather work in some meaningless cubicle than invest my heart and soul in anything job related ever again. At least that way I could just do my job and hate it, then come home and do the work I care about.

I really have no idea how I am going to pull off everything. I guess is really the point where my parents idea of, saving money would have came in handy. That was really hard to do making $16,000/year for the last 4 years while paying for grad school. Why did I ever believe in that place. There were like 3 years when my job was going to go full-time and never did.

Maybe it's time for a whole new everything. I could just forget about the fact that I am highly trained in really useful stuff and become a dishwasher. I could at least write a book about it.

Sitting outside freezing and locked out, the cell phone died, a cat came, I only ate icecream, and then all of a sudden at 1:15am a taxi arrives, care of Jesse. It was to take me to North campus. Unfortunately, this cost me about $23 which is more money than I care to spend with my not so secure future. At 4am his girlfriend gave me a ride home.

I've decided that today has to in fact be a better day. Or at least a day where I put very little effort into anything. I have a bunch of 3D models to complete for a Virtual Reality piece and nothing could make me more unmotivated than yesterday.

I broke a mirror last night. Honestly, in the shower. I then had nightmares all night followed by losing my job.

So after hearing about the job I kind of wanted to hang out with someone. (E:terry) is at work, (e:matthew) at work, cassie no response, lisa in CA, (e:mike) at work and I have no car and $100,000 in student loans.

Anyways, so jesse sends his girlfriend to get me but she instead brings me ice-cream which is great but it turns out I'm locked out of the hose and its freezing. One more hour to go. Terry gets out of work at the galleria at 1:30am. It is so dark outside, it like camping.

Do I really have to wait through seven more years of this? I hope not.

It is so weird to look at your co-workers and bosses, etc after you no longer are attached to that paradigm. They just become people, maybe even only a portion of the structure itself. It's all so silly really how titles become power, and power becomes money. It's not like anyone is really better or more worthy than the others and least not by title alone. That seems like a lame attempt to make myself feel better but really if you think about it -it all means nothing. I would challenge any titled person to a Digital Media Dual, ;)

[hide]xboxerboix: it sux that you put your life on hold only to be told you worked too hard and mediocrity won out[/hide]