Merry Christmas everyone! I love christmas as you all know. Had a good time at my auntstonight for our big christmas celebration. It was great cuz we have lots of little kids around now who love Santa and get so excited when he comes. They are at the perfect age for it, it is so cute!!!! I also am loving having a christmas/holiday season without (e:libertad) being a secret. It makes life so much easier and more enjoyable to not be like sneaking around and trying to sneak in a phone call on a holiday while noone is around or making up trips to the store so i can give him a quck call, and then having to pretend the gifts I got I bought for myself or are from someone else. Unfortunately (e:libertad) is in Florida for the holidays visiting his mom so we still don't get to spend thme together. We are gonna celebrate sometime after he gets back when we can hopefully finally get some time to ourselves and have a nice relaxing christmas celebration for just the two of us. I can't wait!

I want to post some pictures of my christmas tree and some of my favorite ornaments but I am tired now and think i will do that tomorrow! Gotta get to bed so santa can come!!! Merry christmas!!!

So as some of you know for the last few years I have been making christmas cards and they usually feature lots of glitter and fun. This year i have been putting it off and putting it off and i finally got around to it tonight. It is so funny cuz i have been thinking about them and all the stuff i need for weeks but have not bought it and so decided to run to Target tonight (and get my car stuck in the parking lot, luckily this nice man whose car was also stuck next to me helped push me out and thne i drove away to like a place farther off where i could park withnout my car gettin gstuck again and then went back to help him and he was like totally thought i was a big jerk who drove away and was glad i came back but then he didn't tihnk i would be storng enought to push his car ( which i prolly wasn't and so he had me drive it while he pushed (and he had not cleared any of the windows so i oculd not see a thing and just plowed in reverse not knwoing if there were cars behind me (whose to blame if i hit someone, me or him) but he needed more people to push with him cuz his was really stuck and then i almost ran tme all over whne i forgot to switch from reverse to drive)))) but luckily everyone survived and we both got out. Oh i forgot why i started this story so i went to target to get a oclor ribbon for our pritner cuz of course it ran out soon as i started doding chrimstas cards and we didn't have an extra one which is freakish cuz my mom is really a stock up kinda person ( like we have like 5 extra black ones but no color ones). Anywho so while there i panicked that iw ould have no glitter or markers or glue so i bought it all and none of it was on sale and then i got home and found i had really everything i needed besides the print cartridge so i wasted a lot of money and almost killed 4 people all for a oclor ribbon. But it was worth it cuz now i am working on my cards and i hope they are fabulous. I reduced the number of poeple i am sending them to so that 1) i finsih them in time and don't get overwhlemed and 2) the freakin blank cards i like to use went up like double in prcie, so i only bought one pack. Considering i Only get like 4 chrismtas cards a year from people, i don't feel bad only sending out like 20 homemade ones.

I have to work all day tomroow which sucks cuz i am not ready for chrimstas and am runinng out of time. Hopeuflly some of you won't have to work as i hear they have a travel stoppage in buffalo right now, as i work in a pharmacy and i live like one block away i never get to not go to work for weather. Even during october storm, i was there, we were like the only pharmacy with power in the area and i could get there so i was there, I would really love a day off, grr!

I was reading this interview with Meryll Streep and she was talking about her acting and what guides her is something she learned on the first day of drama class in college, i thought it was interesting both for like acting but even like for life, here it is summarized in what i remember about it. It was like the teacher asked "how do you play the role to show you are the king" and people said things like "use a strong deep voice, have great posture, use certain facial expressions" but the teacher said they are all wrong, the way to portray that you are king is for eveyrone else to stop what they are doing and go silent when you enter the room. THAT IS SO TRUE! That is totally in movies and tv and stuff how you know when someone important has entered, eveyrone else in the scene stops what they are doing and goes silent. To show your power everyone else really has to be complacent and stay out of your way and give in to it. That is so true in life too kinda. LIke poeple only have power because in a way other people have to let them and that is the only way you can gauge someones power is by how other people readct to them!

I was really in a bad mood and tired after work and it got progressively worse and so i was pretty ready to go to bed early at like 10:30 but then i couldn't sleep and now I still can't. I was just reading through all my old journals, wowser I used to write a lot back in 2003 and 2004 and stuff. I used to seriously write every single thing that happened each day. It was kinda insane. I also forgot how many people have passed through elmwoodstirp.org, but alas I am watching golden girls now and it is the one where it is Dorothy's birthday and they go to the chuckie cheese like place. MY FAVORITE EPISODE EVER so it is great that i stayed up I guess..

Is that what they call jealousy? It is something like that? green eyed monster? i can't remember. Anyway, I am becoming such a jealous person. I was never really that way I don't think, i was always just so content in my own world and just had a very like "eh to each there own, didn't really bother with other people, or getting jealous about things kind of attitude" But lately I am so jealous of so many things, it is out of control.And when I really reason it out , i think and realize that other things are no better and I really shouldn't be jealous. Like sometimes I just cannot stop being jealous. If I really think about it I have it pretty good but sometimes I find I can't even be happy for people cuz I am so jealous. This is really not like me at all I don't think.Why shouldn't I be able to be happy for someone getting something that really doesn't take anything away from me. I just don' know. Hopefully this is gonna be a quick passing phase.

SO i have had sprint ever since I have had a cell phone, prolly around like 7 years or so. And while the service like reception and stuff is always good eveyr time I have to make a new contract they screw it up really bad, add all these things I specifically say I don't want, and then their customer service line is the worst thing ever. Seriously I have to spend around 8-10 hours to get it resolved each time I sign up for a new contract and it is extra infuriating because thye are not able to help me at all and then say, now that we have fixed that problem can i offer you this service, and i have to be like YOU HAVEN'T FIXED MY PROBLEM AT ALL , AND THEPROBLEM IS YOU GIVE ME SERVICES I DON'T WANT. It is really the worst customer service line/store service in their stores that could ever be. So now I need to sign up for a new contract and here is my dilemna....

I was all set to switch to Verizon , I vowed after the last customer service bruhaha i would never use Sprint again, I even convinced people like (e:jill) to switch to Verizon and convinced her sprint was horrible and we would all have Verizon. BUT Now that it is time to switch and my contract is up Sprint has sent me $65 dollar credit if I satay with them which is like a free month of service. Also comparing the plans online , I wasnt like 400 minutesish and unlimited texting and nothing else and it seems the sprint plan is about 10 dollars cheper per month. SO WHAT DO I DO? should i stick with Sprint which has been crap and i have vowed never to sign up again because i owuld likely save that original 65 and 10 dollars a month so that is like 200 dollars over a year or do i switch to Verizon and then save myself the hours of frustration with Sprint and feel better because thye no longer will get my money. I don't know what to do. I ugess I should go talk to the verizon person and see what they offer cuz I just compared online, i don't know, i have to decide soon though cuz my phone is real broke and I need a new one.

So I don't know if you have noticed but a lot of products such as general mills cereals, pillsbury muffins, betty crocker, pull ups, cottonelle toilet paper and many more products have little pink boxes that say box tops for education on them. Well (e:jill)'s mom teaches at a Catholic school in Kenmore, (St. Pauls) and I have been on a crusade to collect those box tops for them. My mom buys a lot of ziploc bags as anyone who has been in our basement knows, so that was a good start and she saves a lot of them. I now have (e:libertad) in on it, i have checked all his products and he better save those box tops. Seriously I have become slightly obsessed with it , I just signed up online so that I could get five extra box tops and see the progress of the school in reaching its goals. It started as a simple endeavor to help (e:jill)'s mom's class win dress down days and has blown into a full-fledged obsessive passion of mine. So if anyone wants to save their box tops I am totally willing to take them and turn them in for you. Here is the link to the website about it...

I am gonna have to be duck taped and safety pinned into my very shotty craftmanship of a costume and it comes across as more creepy than fun but I like it! Procrastination worked again!

OK ser, it is getting way to close to the party and I still have no idea what to wear. It is gonna be a huge let downthis year i tihnk. And i don't know what kinda drink to make either, i was trying to find halloweeny drinks but nothing strikes my fancy.......procrastination powers better start kicking in asap... haha i was making a list of tings to bring to the party and I just looked and realized i wrote down "lovely self" cuz that is what (e:hodown) said to bring , i wrote like i have to go to the store and get it.

I posted this last night but it dissapeared or something. So i tihnk i found the perfect job for me. I love working with people and helping them especially older people and it is at the offical estrip place of employment the one and only roswell park. Now i just need to get my butt in gear and get my resume done!