📅 April 2005

How funny that like two days ago I was thinking, wow life is going really good for me. And now it is all down the tubes. Everything switched so fast. Maybe it is all my fault, maybe not, either way it sucks. I guess I just wasn't cut out for some things I thought I was. I never mean to hurt people, I guess I don't always realize what my actions say. What makes it worst of all is that today marks the less than a month point before Teres and Jill leave me forever. They are the two people I have either hung out wiht or at least talked to almost evryday for at least the last eight years. What I will do without them I do not jknow! Probably be sad a lot, I honestly have no idea how I will deal with it!!!! Of course there will be fun friends here in the b-lo to hang out with but I honestly can not imagine Teres and Jill not being here. Its just something I've never had to expeirece and I don't know how i will. I'm sure I'll write more abou tthis later but for now it is all very sad. Too many sad things hapenning righ tnow!

So the other day on the way home from school I innocently turn on to W. Delevan and then see a cop with its lights on behind me. So of course, I think what the heck have I done, and pull over to the side of the road. So the cop stops behidn me but does't get out or anyting and I don't know what to do since I have only been pulled over by the Kenmore Po before and they get out of their car pretty fast. Anywho then the cop car starts to honk at me. I have no idea what that means. So i stay pulled over and it honks again. So I begin to drive again but then it follows me again with its lights on so I pull over again. And it honks again. And I am wondering if that means like I did something really bad. Why won't it go past me I wonder? Like if it isn't pulling me over why doesn't it go around? So after it lays the horn on I start to drive again. Then I see another cop car speeding down the street towards me an dI think OMG he called for backup because I am evading them or soemthing even though I don't think I have done anything. So the second cop car goes and blocks the street on W. Delevan and Delaware and I think Holy Crap I am in so much trouble, even though I really didn't think I was being pulled over. AND THEN I REALIZE it was a funeral procession and I kept blocking it by pulling over. Like he couldn't lead the whole pakc of cars around me and was honking so I would keep driving. OOPS! But why coudn't the cop have made some kind of gesture to show or explain what was going on? Anywho I'm thaknslful that I wasn't carted off to jail but it was really a ridiculous situation. !

So I had basically my last two major projects of my college career due today and i started them of course around 9PM last night. Needless to say, my procrastination paid off once again. They both were stellar. I seriusly don't know how people do work like any earlier than they have to. If I didn't have the pressure I don't htink I would be able to come up with good ideas. I don't know I guess everyoen is different but I definetley need to wait until the last minute if I want a good final product.

So since a certain someone kept me busy all spring break I now have to read 100 pages of this boring book The Magic Mountain and write a paper about two themes in the book. HOW RIDICULOUS! I wish I would have started it before 11pm the night before it is due when I have to work at 9AM but oh well. It was definetely worth not doing work for the week I had. With @beast and @amanda in florida doing research and @jill and yosepha still in school during my spring break, luckily a nice boy came along and tolerated me for the week. Too bad he is now back in L.A. where he came from (Los Angeles not Latin America). Well at least now I can get my work done and go back to my wholesome, clean, affectionless, self-centered world until the end of April.

Is this all a terrible April Fools joke? Is that not real snow outside but just a fake show in which my parents will any minute now will tell me that it is all just a cruel joke. "APRIL FOOLS" I will hear...and a smile will return to my face!