(e:libertad) gave me The Haunting of Hill House by SHirley Jackson for my b-day and i really like it. He got it for me because I loved the Lottery from her. Anywho this passage in it really was great to me, i really love it, and made me think this is exactly how i feel. This is exactly why I will always use a small fork, sure I can use a big fork but i will always choose a small fork no matter what people say about it....
Here is the passage (some background Eleanor is a 30 year old woman on her way to Hill House after spending the last 11 years taking care of her mother and sister)

and the little girl's mother said calmly, "she wants her cup of stars"
Eleanor looked up, surprised; the little girl was sliding back in her chair, sullenly refusing her milk, while her father frowned and her brother giggled and her mother said calmly "she wants her cup of starts"
Indeed yes, Elanor thought; indeed, so do I; a cup of stars of course.
"her little cup" the mother was explaining, smiling apologetically at the waitress, who was thunderstruck at the thought that the mill's good country milk was not rich enough for the little girl, "it has stars in the bottom and she always drinks her milk from it at home. She call it her cup of starts because she can see the stars while she drinks her milk" The waitress nodded, unconvinced, and the mother told the little girl, "you'll have your milk from your cup of starts tonight when we get home. But just for now, just to be a very good little girl, will you take a little milk from this glass?"
Don't do it, Eleanor told the little girl; insist on our cup of stars; once they have trapped yo into being like everyone else you will never see your cup of stars again; don't do it; and the little girl glance at her, and smiled a little subtle, dimpling , wholly comprehending smile, and shook her head stubbornly at the glass. Brave girl , Eleanor thought; wise, brave girl

I love it!

So while (e:libertad) was at work I decided to go for a walk. I love walks on fall days like these. It really is my favorite time of year I think. ANywho, I usually walk around like Elmwood or something but decided to head towards downtown today instead cuz I never really walk around downtown, well i mean I have walked around many parts of downtown many times but id on't know not super recently and not just for the sake of walking around. SO i headed down Delaware and walked to city hall and I never read all the placards and stuff by the Mckinley monument (oddly enough i was wearing a shirt that has the lion that is on the side of that building on delaware that is based on the lions there). ANywho there was few wedidngs of people taking pics at city hall and that was neat to see.

OH i almost forgot while walking by the Statler some people came up to me and asked for directions to the TOwn Ballroom AND I WAS ACTUALLY ABLE TO PROVIDE THEM! As many of you konw I am terrible with directions , like i can get around but cannot explain it to others. OK really from Statler to TOwn Ballroom is really simple but it was still something.

ANywho then after City Hall i walked down court and then down main street towards downtown more and then around and on washington and stuff and just looked around. It is neat seeing like all the old like painted on names on buildings , like how many different things these buildings have been and many them sadly are now nothing. That leads me to the next thing, DOWNTOWN IS DEAD on the weekends. I know this, but it always shocks me a little. EVen the Tim Hortons in the LIberty BUilding is closed on Saturdays, when your downtown can't support 1 Tim HOrtons that is really sad, though to be honest the Dunkin DOnuts on CHippewa and Main Street was open so I guess there was that but still it seemed sad.

So then I was walking down Main Street back to Dave's and my favorite place in buffalo for some odd reason has always been the block of main street between Goodell and Tupperi think . SO i dawdled around there and then walked over to the CYclorama building which I have also always loved and took a picture of it to put in my phone. Then I sat on a rather comfy bench on the corner of Main and Goodell and talked to (e:mk) for a while about the sabres game she was attending tonight and what not. So then I took a peak into St.Louis church which is right there and that is where (e:Mk) is having her wedding and it was really pretty. Mass was going on so I couldn't really walk aroudn it but it looked really pretty.

Then I continued on my way down Main Street and got to the Scientologist Headquarter Building where some lady looked like she was getting brainwashed to join so I stood outside the windown and tried to mouth to her "DONT DO IT" but she looked at me like i was crazy and I"m just lady you the crazy one joining that freakin Tom Cruise cult! SO i walked on before they came out and murdered me to cleanse themselves of their alien toxins or whatever crazy thing they are doing at the moment. I have always wanted to go in and really see what it is like but i am so gullible and would definitely be pulled in for sure without a doubt!

So i continued on my walk down Main Street to Allen , then down to Elmwood and back up west ferry to Dave's apartment. Oh i forgot while walking down Main STreet I saw the people I gave the directions too again and they said they had found the Town Ballroom so I felt succesful!

Oh and I also forgot, like i was thiking while walking by the Hyatt like wow if you are a visitor to the B-lo and you walk out of that hotel onto Main Street it is so deserted and not welcoming and from the looks of things you prolly may as well be in Kabul! They should prolly work on that.

ALl in all it was an awesome walk and I am glad I did it and would liek to do it again. I am sure noone has read this far cuz this is like my journals that ramble on of old but maybe a little shorter!!

So i haven't bought much recently or ever really from ITUnes, but when i do it is always just like the top song of the moment, but I had a 15 dollar gift card so I decided to browse around and here is what I came up with and bought:

Jai Ho from Slumdog MIllionaire

Club Can't Handle Me by Flo Rida

Don't Stop Believing and Bust Your Windows from Glee

Hey Jude from Across the Universe

Take It Off Kei$ha

Mad World from Donnie Darko

Party In the USA by Miley Cyrus

Eye of the Tiger

I dreamed a dream by susan boyle

Million DOllar Bill by Whitney Houston

We No Speak Americano by Yolanda be Cool

Sorta a mix but really all movie or current hit related I suppose. I still have 5 dollars think i'll save it for now.

This is something that if Paul heard it I thought he would think I would say it (if that makes sense) like when i heard it it was something that not i thought oh that is me per se but oh paul would think that was me....

on Will and Grace , Karen (who is hilar) said "you know what else is incredibly sad. poor people with big dreams. Actually that's not so much sad as it is incredibly funny"

So we had to get a box in order to keep the Oxygen and Travel channel and like 2 other ones. It is free and everything but for Time Warner for some reason you needed it for those two channels. Well when we hooked it up all of a sudden we had like 400 channels and I was in heaven. Though I did find I still almost watched the same shows on the reg 60 or so channels we get but I think in time I would have watched more. Also like with so many channels like nothing seems good enough cuz I expect like the best thing ever to be on all the time cuz there are so many options.

Anywho that isn't the point, so it obviously was some type of mistake I thought and I figured they'd catch it evntually but I would enjoy it while I can. We had HBO for like 10 years by accident, it was super weird and like still on a channel that was not HBO for the people who actually had HBO, anywho I got home from work today and all the channels were taen away. We are back down to like 70. : ( . I"m not sure if like maybe they just give you 5 free days or something or if it was amistake but either way it is over and I miss it already!