I was really in a bad mood and tired after work and it got progressively worse and so i was pretty ready to go to bed early at like 10:30 but then i couldn't sleep and now I still can't. I was just reading through all my old journals, wowser I used to write a lot back in 2003 and 2004 and stuff. I used to seriously write every single thing that happened each day. It was kinda insane. I also forgot how many people have passed through elmwoodstirp.org, but alas I am watching golden girls now and it is the one where it is Dorothy's birthday and they go to the chuckie cheese like place. MY FAVORITE EPISODE EVER so it is great that i stayed up I guess..

Is that what they call jealousy? It is something like that? green eyed monster? i can't remember. Anyway, I am becoming such a jealous person. I was never really that way I don't think, i was always just so content in my own world and just had a very like "eh to each there own, didn't really bother with other people, or getting jealous about things kind of attitude" But lately I am so jealous of so many things, it is out of control.And when I really reason it out , i think and realize that other things are no better and I really shouldn't be jealous. Like sometimes I just cannot stop being jealous. If I really think about it I have it pretty good but sometimes I find I can't even be happy for people cuz I am so jealous. This is really not like me at all I don't think.Why shouldn't I be able to be happy for someone getting something that really doesn't take anything away from me. I just don' know. Hopefully this is gonna be a quick passing phase.

SO i have had sprint ever since I have had a cell phone, prolly around like 7 years or so. And while the service like reception and stuff is always good eveyr time I have to make a new contract they screw it up really bad, add all these things I specifically say I don't want, and then their customer service line is the worst thing ever. Seriously I have to spend around 8-10 hours to get it resolved each time I sign up for a new contract and it is extra infuriating because thye are not able to help me at all and then say, now that we have fixed that problem can i offer you this service, and i have to be like YOU HAVEN'T FIXED MY PROBLEM AT ALL , AND THEPROBLEM IS YOU GIVE ME SERVICES I DON'T WANT. It is really the worst customer service line/store service in their stores that could ever be. So now I need to sign up for a new contract and here is my dilemna....

I was all set to switch to Verizon , I vowed after the last customer service bruhaha i would never use Sprint again, I even convinced people like (e:jill) to switch to Verizon and convinced her sprint was horrible and we would all have Verizon. BUT Now that it is time to switch and my contract is up Sprint has sent me $65 dollar credit if I satay with them which is like a free month of service. Also comparing the plans online , I wasnt like 400 minutesish and unlimited texting and nothing else and it seems the sprint plan is about 10 dollars cheper per month. SO WHAT DO I DO? should i stick with Sprint which has been crap and i have vowed never to sign up again because i owuld likely save that original 65 and 10 dollars a month so that is like 200 dollars over a year or do i switch to Verizon and then save myself the hours of frustration with Sprint and feel better because thye no longer will get my money. I don't know what to do. I ugess I should go talk to the verizon person and see what they offer cuz I just compared online, i don't know, i have to decide soon though cuz my phone is real broke and I need a new one.

So I don't know if you have noticed but a lot of products such as general mills cereals, pillsbury muffins, betty crocker, pull ups, cottonelle toilet paper and many more products have little pink boxes that say box tops for education on them. Well (e:jill)'s mom teaches at a Catholic school in Kenmore, (St. Pauls) and I have been on a crusade to collect those box tops for them. My mom buys a lot of ziploc bags as anyone who has been in our basement knows, so that was a good start and she saves a lot of them. I now have (e:libertad) in on it, i have checked all his products and he better save those box tops. Seriously I have become slightly obsessed with it , I just signed up online so that I could get five extra box tops and see the progress of the school in reaching its goals. It started as a simple endeavor to help (e:jill)'s mom's class win dress down days and has blown into a full-fledged obsessive passion of mine. So if anyone wants to save their box tops I am totally willing to take them and turn them in for you. Here is the link to the website about it...

I am gonna have to be duck taped and safety pinned into my very shotty craftmanship of a costume and it comes across as more creepy than fun but I like it! Procrastination worked again!

OK ser, it is getting way to close to the party and I still have no idea what to wear. It is gonna be a huge let downthis year i tihnk. And i don't know what kinda drink to make either, i was trying to find halloweeny drinks but nothing strikes my fancy.......procrastination powers better start kicking in asap... haha i was making a list of tings to bring to the party and I just looked and realized i wrote down "lovely self" cuz that is what (e:hodown) said to bring , i wrote like i have to go to the store and get it.

I posted this last night but it dissapeared or something. So i tihnk i found the perfect job for me. I love working with people and helping them especially older people and it is at the offical estrip place of employment the one and only roswell park. Now i just need to get my butt in gear and get my resume done!

What the heck am I gonna be for halloween? I always procrastinate and then come up with something pretty awesome but this is really cutting it close, considering i work everyday til halloween. Well not friday. Me and (e:jill) had a few ideas whlie out shopping the other day but nothing concrete! What can I be? Oh by the by on the side, my boss at work her daughter who is a freshman in high school and her firends are being the people from Candy Land. I am so freakin jealous. That is waht I always wanted to be but noone would go along with it! Can't wait to see everyone dressed up!!!!!!!!!! i love halloween hardcore. Not the scary part but the fun sparkly short shorts part!

So this was so random. Me and (e:libertad) were at the mall yesterday and we were in American Eagle and I was thinking I don't really buy that much there anymore , i should prolly just cancel my credit card. I used to shop there all the time and I do get stuff every once in a whlie but not that much so it prolly isn't worth having the card anymore. This morning i was really debating about it cuz they say like good and bad things about canceling credit cards. It only has like a 500 dollar limit and i thought maybe i should just keep it cuz then you get a few extra deals but really i almost shop there never. So after debating this, I sign onto AOL and have an e-mail from American Eagle entitled Are YOu Breaking Up with Us? And it was like an e-mail ad about how they haven't had me purchase sutff in a whlie and gave me coupons to use and they want me back. How radnom? They must be stalking my thoughts!

I love this song that Adam Sandler sings in the Wedding Singer
Here's looking at ya (e:libertad)...





I wanna make you smile
whenever you are sad
carry you around when your arthritis is bad
all i wanna do is grow old with you

i'll give you medicine when your tummy aches
build you a fire if the furnace breaks
oh it could be so nice growing old with you

i'll miss you, kiss you, give you my coat when yo uare cold
need you, feed you, even let you hold the remote cnotrol

so let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
oh i'll be the man who grows old with you
i wanna grow old with you