How random? As you all know I do not partake in the 4/20 activities as I was the DARE poster child at one point in my life. But randomly my mom bought me the book Puff the Magic Dragon yesterday at a book sale. She was like I remember you used to have this book and loved it and so she bought it yesterdray. And isn't it all about smoking pot. Do you think it is a secret signal that she thinks I am a pot smoker because I am not!

Anywho, Why do I always have to take a situation that I have made super weird over the years and then take it to that next weird level. just the other day I was talking to someone about how I don't think I could make it any weirder but guess what...I FOUND A WAY. A few of you might know what I am talking about....why do I hav to get so creepy sometimes....

They are having an open casting call in Buffalo for the Real World. They are looking for people who want to live in a big city and work in the entertainment industry such as fashion, television, movies etc. OMG i think i have to go. I have always wanted to be on the Real World. I am sure I won' tget on cuz I am not interesting nor exciting or crazy but how can I let this opportunity pass me by. What will I say? I'm sure I will come across as really boring but maybe not. Maybe I shouldn't have posted it here cuz now my competetion might increase.

I can't believe that no one has mentioned that LARRY IS ANNA NICOLE'S BABY DADDY! Not Howard. Now not that I didn' tdoubt this for a second because if Howard really knew it was his why wouldn't he of had the DNA test a while ago as he would have had nothing to lose. HOw crazy though! That is like winning the lottery all wrapped up in a diaper for Larry! I hope the poor baby has a good life and he doesn't waste all its money. Like will it be in a trust fund or what? I had heard in her will she said all her fortune could only go to her son and no future spouses or children. That would leave the baby broke. But I also heard no judge would hold that up since her son was dead and that the baby gets it all. All I know is I wish I could have got a little Anna Nicole while she was giving it out for free, who knows I could be carrying home a million dollar bundle this weekend!

So I woke up and immeidately had a cup of the sweet sweet sauce they call coffee that I had given up for the last 40 days. I could not wait to get a sip of that. It was heavenly!!!! Then it took like 20 minutes to find my easter basket (yes my parents still hide my easter basket even though I am 23)! See it was under the couch which I never even looked at cuz easter baskets usually have handles that would yield them impossible to fit under the couch. The bunny was just extra sneaky this year I suppose. I got a whole bunch of goodies and Peter Pan the disney dvd that I love.

Then we went to church at Holy Angels whcih was my Nonna's church and the one I go to every week but my parents went with me today. The Capozzi's go to that church and are pretty big in the churhc and the whole family including Anthony were there. You know he is the guy who was in jail for the bike path rapist crimes even though he is innocent. There was all this press outside, it was cool and crazy. The priest said something about them at the end and everyone applauded. It was super juts feel good. LIke I think everyone visibly looked so happy for them. The applause seriously went on for a whlie. It was really really nice. It is a crazy ordeal they have been through. Also, there was this grandma with her grandkids a few rows in front of me. It made me really sad and I was taering up a lot cuz it reminded me of my Nonna. Like there is that kind of love that is only between a grandparent and grandchild and it was so visible in this lady and her grandkids and it just made me so sad to not have my Nonna still here. I really still think about her a lot especially when I am at that church!

Then it was over to my cousin's inlaws soooo much good food. They have like polish sausage and lazy pierogies and all this good stuff I never get to have so it was amazing. My cousin jenny and my uncle were both sick and not there which was kinda sad cuz we have a small family to begin with and so that cut down on the numbers a lot but it was still fun.

AND THEN TH E BEST NEWS EVER: I got my grade from my physics exam on friday that I was sure I failed and i got a 74 which I have no idea how that happened but was super exciting, but even better was that THE CLASSS AVERAGE WAS ONLY A 51, so I was like way ahead of the average. SCORE!!!!!!!!

I know I said I wasn't going to write but I had to warn you all out there. If you are already feeling sad or depressed, DO NOT, I REPEAT DO NOT, go to a casino alone at 11 o'clock on a Tuesday night. I mean prolly no time is real great to go. Casinos are sad. Everyone seems sad and solitary. I don' tknow what made me go , I have just been thinking of going there a lot lately. I have only been like once or twice in my life but like the last week or so I have been wanting to go and so I went alone tonight. I wanted to go alone. But it is overwhelmingly sad and soon you end up much poorer and tearing up at the Babushka penny slots while Bev (aren't all the crazy old chain smoking ladies at a casino called Bev?) tries to make it seem like its normal. The people in Happy Birhtday crowns are possibly the saddest because they are sitting alone and you wonder if their friends are just at differnt slots in different parts of the casino (woohoo what a birthdya , alone at a slot machine) or if they are celebrating alone. EIther way the casino did not boost my mood but only depressed it. So beware, don't go to casinos alone!

You prolly haven't noticed but I'm taking a brief hiatus from (e:strip). I still comment here and there but I think I am gonna take a break from writing my own journals. I just don't feel like posting much lately. Don't have much to say or don't want to talk about myself as much I guess. We'll see how long my break lasts. I don' tknow, maybe I will write about non-my-life items. I'm not sure. We'll see.

One question though does anyuone know where one can find jeans that fit a person built like me in the way I like in the wash/color I like. I like bootcut, I like not super faded and i DO NOT LIKE those lines from the fading that go sideways. I also don't like pre-ripped jeans. I want like darkerish jeans. I dno't know , I have tried on about 7,000 pairs from here to Toronto but cnanot find any I like. Maybe I should switch to year long shorts.

Did you know you can cry for so hard for so long that it looks like you got punched in the face, like it turns black and blue and red like the blood vessels popped around it.

So yeah its true. I am smoking at least a pack of candy cigarettes every day and I am not ashamed of it. It used to be something I just did when alone or with my friends in my car but the other day I had one on the way to my car after class, and I have them all the time now. I really love them! And i love to smoke them, I just don't eat them willy nilly like eveyrone else. I like to enjoy it for a while. I really do! I don't know, I tink everyone should try it. It is very good and satisfying. Something about pretending to smoke a cigarette and also getting a sugary treat. IT IS GLORIOUS!! I also think this might be a fad that is gonna take off soon, so I just wanted it marked here, on the internet forever, that I've been doing it for years, before it was cool, haha!

Today was prolly literally the worst day of work in my 7.5 years at Eckerd! It was horrible. There was a major situation involving supposed lost drugs while at the same time we were super busy and everything came across as making us look horrible even though we weren't horrible! I can't say much about it because I am not sure what is going to come of it all as a lady threatened to call the news, even though I feel like she was prolly in the wrong but who knows! Everything was so out of control, people screaming, people crying, dumb people, annoying people, lots of problems. Tomorow I am demanding a raise I think, well prolly Thursday when my boss works. I don't get piad nearly enough to deal with this crapola.

So I feel like I have so much to write about from this weekend that I could type for pages and pages but then noone would read it , except (e:mk) who loves my long posts of yester year like the time I wrote about the 3 hour trek home to Canisius or my visit to Fredonia and other random mumblings but las I think I have just rambled about rambling so I'm just gonna take the plunge and right about everything that was fun this weekend!!! You will have to look at other journals to find pictures to back up these claims of fun but fun it was. At least it will be a record for me of this weekend and some entertainment for (e:mk)!

Thursday:
Ok Thursday provided nothing too super cool except I went tot eh Deuce with Michelle who I used to work with and Nitasha who used to be a pharmacist at my store and Bonnie our intern. It was pretty fun and like always me and michelle stayed long after the others had left. Whenever I am with Michele I drink way more than I should without realizing. She is tough to keep up with. I did do some really tasty shots called like Apples, they seriuosly taste just like eating an apple but it is made of like crown and cranberry juice. Bartenders are freakin genius mix makers. So that night was fun in a way only Eckerd coworkers can make it but nothing too exciting to write aobut. Oh Michele's one friend was getting shots bought from her from this kid she was like ewww he was so gross I just want him to leave me alone and then two seconds later she is sitting next to him and having more drinks. OK just reading that doesn't sound too funny but it was.

Friday:
St. Matty's Day. It started with a lunch at Ruby Tuesday's with (e:mk) which is always tasty goodness in a salad bar kinda way! Then I got called into work which was no good but then the St. Matty's Day Party. It was chill style in some ways but still lots of funs. There were lots of Bloody Ho's to enjoy(Sarah's new drink, not her beat up relatvies) and it was fun to meet (e:ingrid) whose real name is not ingrid and see a lot of people I haven't seen in a while! (e:ingrid) knows my friend (e:amanda) and works with her. This Buffalo place is so very small. I Swear everyone knows everyone else!!

Saturday:
Saturday was (e:jill)'s bday and so we did some shopping during the day at TJ Maxx and Simms. And I went to Party City to get get her balloons and stuff and found so much crap I didn't need. This was seirusly the weekend of buying crap I don't need. I must have spent like 70 dollars in dollar stores, and party city's and miscellaneous places. Like I really do buy lots of crap! lots of it! But if you every need party supplies/table confetti/crayones/chalk etc, I'm the place to go! So then off to (e:jill)'s for an ice cream party!!! It was super good with lots of good toppings and tastiness! Then we were ready to head out for ST. Patty's Day. We decided to start out at a Kenmore Bar. So we headed over to Kronies to start a night. It was better than I thought but not my favorite place by far. We definetely all (actually except me) walked through a pile of vomit outside the door of Kronies. Then we piled in the cars and headed to Frizzy's. It was me, (e:jill) , her b/f jim, (e:mk), (e:jessbob), (e:beast) and later (e:anne) joined us. I found out later that we had just missed (e:chico) which is too bad! That would have been fun to meet up! That's what happens when we get sidetracked by Kenmore Bars though! So this night got a little drink filled and crazy with lots of shots and drinks and bubble hockey. Me and (e:beast) got a little annoying at the end I think and prolly (e:jessbob) hates us for life, or like should if he doesn't. He came all the way back downtown like an hour later to pick us up after he took eveyroen else home and we told him to leave and we'll take a taxi but then deicdd we didn't want to take a taxi and were scared to take a taxi!! It was super awesome of him! He is amazingly nice! (e:beast) wanted lots of poeple to make out with her I guess but I don't think it was much more than usual. One guy refused her which like has never happened and I treid to get him to explain himself but he refused. I really didn't get it. Like poeple make out with (e:beast) , thats just how it is. I think she ended up making out with his friend, so yeah he prolly had a point that she would find someone else. But he was her first choice , why wouldn't he just have her! It was a nice small tab again at the end which is always exciting! I think (e:anne) picked up a few numbers, and (e:mk) took body shots off of (e:jessbob) so all in all a good night. Except the photobooth was closed which was extra sad because I made (e:jill)'s whole card out of pictures we have taken at Frizzy's and toher bars and malls over the years and so we needed to take a picture to add to it but it was broken and so we couldn't. It was so sad! Somoene else had my shirt on which was sad , i mean not surprising cuz it is from American Eagle but I have had it for a few years and never ran into someone else wearing it which surprised me but I loved. It says Stumble Inn just like the bar tha tused to be on Elmwood and like Hinman. I tink I drank a real lot cuz it's been a long time since I didn't hav emy car with me when we went out. I don't know if that is good or bad. So I get home at like 4ish maybe thinking there is no way I can drink again tomrowo for St. patty's Day and then...

Sunday:
I show up at (e:pmt)'s around 1:45 where a group had already assembled, all ready to resist the temptation to drink, and then (e:lilho) is like just take a shot of vodka or something so I did, and so it began. I moved on to beer and drank quite a bit of it I think. We went tot he parade which was super fun. (e:lilho) was the bell of the parade ball. I wish I had photos of it and I tink there are photos somewhere, especially since she gave her camera to some random man for like an hour. I would like to see what he took pics of. She was super classy wihth her bottle of champagne that she got people in the parade to drink out of. She also hugged just about everyone inthe parade and got two beers from parade wlakers and got in one fo the floats and marched with one of the groups. It was hilariously fuN! Except I cut my finger trying to open a bottle of Guineess without a bottle opener. And my finger was just bleeding like crazy through all the tissues I could find. Luckily me and (e:terry) had to run back to the house to get more beer and I picked up a bandaid. Unluckily we missed the bruhaha in the Arby's parking lot where some police and a group of kids got in a fight. We headed back to the pmt's instead of going out which I tink would have been fun. It ws super fun anyway. (e:paul) was the most drunk I have ever seen him in my life. He was just throwing things (such as the glasses at the sink) and then riding (e:lilho) like crazy. And then forcing people to wrestle on the mat at which point I thought I broke my nose buyt I didn't luckily. Me and (e:enknot) kicked some oodles of doodles booty and then I fell asleep. How loserish but I was rlaly tired. Then most of the group decided to head out to the chocolate bar at like 7 but I wasn't really drunk anymor eat that point and I was tired so I didn't go. I'm sure they had tons o fun though. I kinda regretted not going but it was probably for the better instead of starting up drinking heavily again for like the fifth time that weekend. Later (e:terry) called to go back out but I was too tired. I'm not sure if he ever found them again anyway!!! Adn now it is

Monday:
and I am wondering why I am not going out drinking tonight! I could go for one or two, haha!

well this wasn't nearly as long as my posts of old so I guess it wasn't too bad, maybe somoene made it down here to the bottom!