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I have a real hard time getting rid of clothes. One I have gained enough weight in the last few years that some are probably never going to fit again so it is time to say goodbye. But also, some things I just never wear and should get rid of. ALl my drawers in both dressers, and a big plastic tote and my closet and the shelves in my closet (and a few things in the back closet) are all full. And I like to buy stuff so I need to get rid of some to make room.

Anywho, I have such emotional attachment to clothing (and knick knacks.....and shoes....and cards....and candy....and dust........ok maybe not dust but just about everything else). I remember when I wore a shirt or pair of pants and what I did in them and I just cannot part with them. It is weird, I am not sure why but with t shirts in particular the feelings are very strong. Really what happens is they only things I can end up getting rid of are things I barely ever wore because I didn't really love them inthe first place. Some tshirts did finally get downgraded from the wear them drawer to the cram them in because I can't part with them drawer.

ANywho times two, I got rid of the most clothes I have ever probably gotten rid of at one time. well technically I did not get rid of them yet, they are in a "i'm going to get rid of them pile".

I'll share the safe for work photo of the clothes. I accidentally sent Dave a NSFW photo of the clothes I was getting rid of that he ironically opened at work... darn mirrors.

I'm going to try and get back into 90's movies, I mean (e:strip). I am going to try and get back into (e:strip). I love 90's movies and they just don't make movies like romcom or not even that but just fun movies with fun musical numbers anymore. Thanks to youtube I can watch all of them from all the movies in a row:

My Best Friend's Wedding. This is prob #1. I was hoping it would happen at my rehearsal dinner..
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q_oFL_b719g

First Wive's Club
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d-J4xYOxJ9w

Hocus Pocus
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zaC-WDrvmUQ

Sister Act
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VPpd-6X3tEo

I started up my Macbook laptop from 2001 and first of all I was surprised it even started but then I found a bunch of gems. I guess I used to save AIM convos in word documents. Just a few but they were great.

One was (e:maureen)'s response after I must have sent her a message after my first gay experience and was questioning if I was gay or not.

Another was a convo between two of my friends, one chastising the other for their promiscuity.

The best one though was a convo between Chris Garcia and I about this kid I liked at COffee & who I knew I could never have. As most of you know, that kid ended up being (e:libertad) who I will be marrying this July. In the convo I was very mad becasue (e:terry) had just broadcast my secret crush on the coffee & boy on estrip radio.

Estrip radio? I don't really remember it. It sounds vaguely familiar. (E:chris) was listening to it whiel I was talking to him and Terry was broadcasting. I am not clear why I was so upset about (e:terry)'s broadcast as I am sure noone really listened to estrip radio. (e:paul) , (e:terry) do you remember estrip radio and whatever happened to it?

THere also were some fun videos I used to make such as a fake cooking show (e:jil) land I did, a bday video we made for Teres interviewing strangers and poeple we knew such as (e:flacidness), heidi, kevin, (e:libertad), comb over and random starngers around town, oh and a very young basra. Or at least I thiink it was Basra? IT could have been the other one. I really want to get back into making videos. I really enjoyed it.

All in all it was great going through tthe stuff on the computer and I couldn't get it to hook up to the internet so I am going to have to try and save things to an external drive as I am sure one day that ocmputer will stop working. It got so hot even for the little while I had it on. It also is so heavy. It looks small but is super heavy.

Last night I went with Rachelle, Jill and some of Jill's aunt's and cousins to Crafts Unique in Hamburg to paint ceramics. OMG! I loved it and recommend it. There are so many options of things to paint. Every holiday and thing you can imagine from a bank shaped like an order of french fries, to mardi gras type masks to christmas to halloween and everything in between. I could spend hours just trying to pick something but this time I went in with a mission to paint some type of reindeer. Mind you there were still probably 20 options of reindeer (when I say there are lots of options , I mean it!) What's even crazier is Mary has painted an example of most of them and has painted ones throughout the store. It is so fun to walk around and look at.

Each of the things has directions on how to paint it to look like the example. Mind you you can do whatever you want and customize but it does give you really good guidance. I guess I never realized how it gets done. THey all get coated in a black coat layer first no matter what color you are painting it. Even if it is eventually going to be white, you first put a coat of black on it. Then there are like tons of times you do different colors one over the other with different strokes to give the texture and color you are looking for. For instance there are 4 browns in my reindeer but you have to go over each one with a lighter one in different way to make it look right.

I am not like super good at it but luckily Jill's aunt is like a proffesional and gave me lots of tips and watched me like a hawk and make me change what I was doing if I was messing up.

I think my final product looks pretty good and you can put a candle underneath and it will light out through the holes in the wreath around its neck.

I definitely want to go back but I think Dave is afraid we will get over knickknacked (if we aren't there already).

Overall, I totally recommend Crafts Unique. It is on South Park Ave in Hamburg (I think Hamburg at least). Mary the owner is really nice, there are so many options that there is something for everyone. You pay for the piece (I think my reindeer was like 16 dollars) and then you pay 2 dollars for all the painting you need. It's definitely a good price for a fun night and then you have something to take home at the end. They close at 9 and I am not sure what time they open. We went at six and it took almost until 9 to finish so make sure you give yourself enough time. Or you can leave it there and go back another time and finish up.

OOOOH I almost forgot, in case you were wondering how did he do those eyes. They look soo good. Mary will do the eyes for you. The eyes really make or break a piece and are difficult to get right so she will do the eyes for you. She also will give you any advice if you need it if you make a mistake and are trying to fix it. She really seems great! Everyone should go!

Yesterday I took the day off of work which was really nice because I have been working a crazy amount and it has been really stressful. We are going through about 10 million major changes at work that I am at the helm of. Luckily I think it just might start to get better soon, I was able to handle 2 team lead type roles that I just filled that I hope will help take some pressure off of me so both the staff gets the attention they need but I can also work on the bigger projects that are happening as well. I'm hopeful. I really wish I worked downtown. I just think I would enjoy it so much more. You all know I love downtown and I just think it would be so nice not to have my totally congested commute everyday. It is taking longer and longer now with the 198 being 30mph and like the yield signs it takes so much longer. I was in favor of the change to 30mph originally but now with all the additional changes I am currently less in favor but still open to it. I have seen way more accidents since it has went down to 30mph but that is probably due to people getting used to it and going all different mph. I still am not sure what other viable alternatives there are.

I know there are alternatives and people always mention like Ferry, Hertel, AMherst that go east to west but I mean those are all streets that people actually live on and businesses are on and people are walking around. I don't really see why it is a better alternative to send thousands of cars down streets where people live, work and play? It seems a little NIMBYish. I don't want these cars traveling through my park and area so send them through city streets where other people live.

Well this was not the point of my post at all. The real point of my post is I had the day off yesterday and for the first time in a while because we had fresh milk (I only drink milk like until a week before the expiration date so it doens't last long so I hardly every buy it) I had my coffee with Corn Chex in it. We used to always have that at my nonna's for breakfast when I would sleep over there. There is something so delcious about chex in a fresh cup of coffee with sugar and milk. I think you should all try it! It is delish!

So me and (e:libertad) had my parents over for a cookout on Labor Day. I think my mom was excited to have a day off from having to provide the holiday meal. Too bad (e:ptj) were out of town so it was just the four of us...Anywho this is really about parents, well at least my parents and their skills. Our dining room table has been messed up and you couldn't take out the leaves and make it smaller and it also was off kilter in the center evven with the leaves. Well in the middle of dinner my dad was like this table is off I can fix it after dinner. And after dinner he just like flipped over the table with (e:libertad) (well to tell the truth they forgot to take the leaves out first and everything came smashing down) but after that he was able to figure out a way to fix it and now it is like perfecdtily fine and just needs a little tab thing for the leaf to totally be evened out. So crazy, I was pretty much ready to buy a new set.

Well this made me think hwo do parents accumulate all these skills. I have no skills really. Well I can glitter. And win at a lot of pop culture trivia and I'm pretty good at candy crush. But life skills like fixing a table , not so much. I feel like this is the point in my life where I should be acquiring these skills right?

And then I realized I didn't even bother to stay in the same room and watch (it'snot like I wasn't doing anything, I was doing the dishes and cleaning the kitchen) but I don't know.

All in all I can't imagine what I would do without my parents for many many reasons obviously but who else coudl I go to for the answer to almost anything?!?

(e:yesthatcasey) pointed out I never post on (e:strip) anymore the other day and I realized I hadn't posted anything since April and definitely hadn't posted tons even before that. I looked back and I used to post almost daily at the beginning and a lot for years after that. I will likely post that much again because I don't necessarily want to post every last detail of my life online anymore but at the same time having all my old posts was so nice because it really provided a lot of memories of what I was doing at the time. So I am going to try and post more we will see.