I think I don't remember how to make friends anymore. I think the last really good friend I've made was (e:amanda) in freshman year of college chemistry class. I don't know. It's not like I haven't made some new aquaintances but I just don't think I can make good friends anymore. How do you lose such a skill? I think I used to be good at it? Starting to feel like I don't belong anywhere in particular. My friends are split up all over now and getting married and off with their practically fiancees. Yet somehow this doesn't make me as sad as I would think. I'm still quite happy. I don't know, but I would like to remember how to make good friends. I think I just clam up around new people now. That never used to happen. I used to be very free talker even around strangers but not so much anymore. What happneed? I wish I knew..

I have realized I am such a talker with no follow through. As many of you know I should be in Boston right now but am instead sitting in Buffalo still. This is because I never decided to book a plane ticket and then it was too expensive and I deicded I didn't want to drive. This is just the latest in many examples of when I plan on doing something but never actually do it. So I am booking my ticket for Boston for December right now so it can't fall through. I don't know, it is a combination of procrastination and laziness I think that always ruin my follow thru. Eh hopefully this changes soon.

Sidenote: I hate all the clothes that are out right now for some reason. I really want to buy new clothes but can't find anything I want. What I really want is a full zipper front black sweater. Can I find out that fits good? No of course not!

So Desiderio's that used to be on Chippewa and Franklin I believe or maybe it was Pearl is now on Broadway in Lancaster. Let me tell you that is a bit of a drive from the estrip but it was actually quite fun. There was a Beatle's coverband that had numerous entertaining costume changes. They were actually pretty good too. Coverbands in general though kinda scare me. Like I feel like the people believe that they are the people they are pretending to be. Like I wondered if the "beatles" ever took off their wigs and stopped talking in phony accents. Eh, I guess whatever floats their boats is fine!

What was even more entertaining than the band was the bartender. I believe his name was Steve and he had so many fun bartending tricks. For instance he poured like six drinks at once at all different levels and stuff, it was crazy cool. He also did all this flipping bottles and catching them on the top of his hand and I believe there was something involving fire. Quite entertaining! I highly recommend going there just for that. Needless to say I spent way too much money the last two days between that night and going to Geneva to see my friends football game yesterday and going out there. But hey that's what vacation time from work is about right?

I've heard this boy has touched a few (e:strip) girls....

48 hours until I am on a 10 day vacation from Eckerd! I am so freakin excited I can't wait. So many things planned to do and so much fun to be had. Still haven't bought my plane ticket for Boston yet cuz I am stupid and will end up paying a ridiculous amount. (maureen call me if you read this but I left you a message too)! YEAH! I NEED A VACATION SO BAD!

Hmm interesting fun weekend. Friday night had lots of fun at (e:lilho) and (e:tina)'s birthday party. It was lots of fun, sorry for the mess (e:lilho) but it was mainly (e:paul) and (e:hodown)'s fault. Impressed by the many talents of (e:peeps) such as one handed pushups, looking fabulous in yellow dresses, and being able to smoke copious amounts of things.

Then Saturday entailed a failure of a facilitation followed by about 7 hours of dire hunger waiting for everyone to agree on a place to eat. Finally getting to Cozumel which was quite tasty except for the bread the sandwich was on. It defienlty was not very good bread. But the drinks were tasty.

THen headed out to Marcella's and Left Bank for dancing. A guy at Marcella's was telling me he knows who I am and that I went to Kenmore West and work at Eckerd. I honestly have no idea who he is so that is scary. Or actually not scary but cool. I always like finding out about people who know me when I don't know them. It makes me feel like a celubutant.

Saturday night went from such high excitement to such low sadness in like twenty minutes at 3am in the morning but overall was still very fun. Time for me to stop liking the taken ones I guess.......but this one just seems to good and not really taken...I am thinking there was a misunderstanding because the info I got i think was wrong...i swear I have met them before and they were not the boyfriend...ahh but who knows!

Halloween Costume time is coming and I am getting really nervous about what to be. I've really liked my costumes the last few years from Peter Pan to the wind up cymbal playing monkey to Captain Planet. I usually come up with an idea very last minute but this year I will be in Boston for the four or five days before the PMT's halloween party so I feel like I have to prepare early. What to be? What to be? I want something that is fun and just different enough that noone else will be it or has been it recently but I also don't want it to be obscure and have to be explained. CAPTAIN PLANET was perfect for this and I need something just as good. I also like it to involve very little clothing if possible haha. I don't know I have a couple ideas lined up but don't love any of them. I'm getting very nervous but I hope to see you all at the PMT's halloween party on Sat, Oct. 29.

Me and Jill had discussed being David Hasselhoff in a light up sequin tuxedo singing on the Berlin Wall as it is being knocked down. But alas I think that might fall into the obscure category.






Captain Planet looking fabulous and powerful last year




That's one drunken monkey

FIRST OFF

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY (e:TINA) and (e:SOUTHERNYANKEE) !!!! I'm sorry this is a belated birthday wish but hope your birthdays were fantastic!

OMG today was such a terrible day at work. It starts out, I get there at 8:30 and they never had checked in the drug order from the day before so that had to be done, followed by they also forgot to ring in the deliveries. Now that is no easy task to do the next day. On the day of the delviery you just unsusupend the transaction from the register and put the money in the drawer. At midnight the suspended transactions are cleared though so I had to look up everything that was bought by each delivery person and/or call them to find out what they got and rering everything. I also had to set up the Medicare Wednesday table and there was a big managers meeting at our store with all the big wigs so I had to make sure it looked extra amazing. Ok so that was a bad enough start besides the fact we have less help because they new company cut our hours....

Then I got to a Medicare meeting at the Lincoln Park Senior Center. It goes really well everyone seems to be happy with the presentation and I answer all the seniors question and am ready to end when the director of the center stands up and starts going on about "remember they are from a drug store and this new Medicare plan was developed by drug companies and HMO's for theri benefit and not for yours and etc etc etc" Umm ok awkward. So why did you invite me there to just tell everyone after my presentation that I was basically trying to scam them. She tried to clairfy a little and be like "oh i know he doesn't have anyting to gain but the drug companies etc" but once the crowd was riled up, it was too late. I had already explained it was voluntary and just tried to explain that while it isn't the best plan really it is better than the nothing that many people have. I don't know but it just made it go quite bad yet they still seemed kinda happy I was there. I don't know i juist think it was really crappy of the lady to do that at the end. At least she could have said that at the beggining or something.

But it doesn't end there...I get back to my store and it is insanely busy and i try to help out as much as possible but had to put together bags for my next meeting at 2 o'clock. I was nervous because that meeting was at a fancy senior apts in williamsville and thought it might be a tough crowd with tough questions. Anyway, I'm putting together the packages when the place calls and says I was supposed to be there at 1. I DEFINETELY WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE THERE AT ONE! THey Definetely made the mistake but I packed up and tried to get there ASAP. Of course on the way out the door one of the district loss prevention managers stopped me and accused me of stealing. You see I bring cookies to these meetings and I had already written up that i was taking three bags with me and then grabbed them from the shelf on the way out. He waits til i get to my car and is like "hi i'm Tim Matthews and I am the loss prevention manager and I saw what you just did with those cookies" and I was like um they are for this stupid Medicare meeting I am going to and they are written up and he was all not believing and like oh yeah sure well i"ll have to chekc on that. And i was just liek fine check on it but I gotta go and left because I needed to get to that meeting. Why in the heck would I steal three bags of cookies and they were old people cookies like Pecan Sandies none the less. ANd how stupid does he think i am that I would just stop in front of him and some other managers, grab cookies off the shelf and try to get away with it. Mind you I was also carrying like a porjector and bags and labtop and everythign. Grrr corporate are so stupid but what really aggravates me is my district manager i guess went back to pharmacy to check and make srue I wasn't lying. That aggravated becasue ok maybe Tim Matthews has no idea who I am but he definetly knows me for the last six years and i have been working with him on this whole Medicare thing so the fact that he didn't' just tell Tim Matthews like "oh I'm sure he did, he knows what he is doing" but instead had to go and chekc on it. That aggravated me a lot. I think I am going to write a letter to coroporate. Luckily I was late for the meeting and had to go because I was about to bitch Tim Matthews out. Needless to say I got there for the meeting at like 1:45.

THe lady there said that she thought it was at 2 also and that the other director was wrong but at that point it didn't matter because everyone blamed me. ALso, on the phone the lady said there would be about 30 people, well i brought 55 giveaways and brochures just in case cuz I always bring extra, well I ran out with at least 15 or so people didn't get one. HOW RIDICULOUSLY OFF SHE WAS! I am sending more extra ones over tomorrow but still it looked bad. The people thankfully were very nice and many of them came up to talk to me personally after about their insurance and were very thankful I was there.

And then it was 3:30 when i finally got a chance to sit down and eat something for the first time since like 6 o'clock the night before. Grrrr..only one week til a much eneded vacation.

So for anyone who knows me they know how crazy this is. I finally got rid of some of my clothes. I have an abundance of clothes many of which i never wear but feel like I could wear again at some point. Anywho I got rid of like 2 pairs of shorts, some hideous tshirts (one which paul claims is really a dress you just need to belt) and some sweaters. They are definetly some hidous items and some i had a hard time gettnig rid of. There is this blue sweater with a yellow stripe that wasl ike my favorite sweater when i bought it like 8 years ago and have always fought getting rid of it even thoguh i never wear it. I finally did and I am already feeling the post partum depression. Anyway, getting rid of all these clothes (well ike 12 items) makes me need to go shopping. Shopping spree anyone?

One of my best friends Jen has been living in Tennessee with her boyfriend who is in the army. They have been engaged for a few months and were planning a wedding for when he gets back from Iraq in a year. I see her for the first time in months yesterday and she tells me they decided to get married before he left. That is craziness! Now one of my bestest friends is married! How adult like. Too bad he is in Iraq now for a year. THey will have a real ceremony when he gets back but it made sense to get married now I guess because this way she can be contacted and get information about how he is doing. Fiancees aren't allowed that privilege from the military I guess, only wives. Still my friend being married equals insanity. We were prom dates for senior prom, now she is married and I ...well I .... well I . . .

Me and (e:jill) need input here. I think me and (e:jill) are gonna throw her a little wedding party to celebrate. But do you think that is a good idea or will it make her sad because he is not here? What are your ideas? Thanks