So as you all probably know, mine and (e:paul)'s grandma died a little over a year ago and it was incredibly stressful/traumatic for me. Tonight my mom's cousins from Florida whom I had never met were in town and so my whole family minus (e:paul) was at my other cousins house. We were all sitting around talking when we got on the topic of do not resusitate orders. Anywho people started takling about my nonna and then like they started telling the whole story about what happened on my graduation. I started to tear up, it was embarassing and sad. My one cousin could tell and started talking to me about other tihngs which was good. Or at least I think he could tell maybe he just decided to talk about something else.

It was nice to hear everyone reminiscing about how amazing my grandmother was and how she was one of the strongest, best, most loving, caring woman anyone there had known. But it really was a lot to take and now it is all I can think about.

One thing everyone said was how my grandmother always made sure to tell everyone she loved them. She thought it was important to always make sure everyone knows you love them since you never know when it will be too late. My one cousin said everyday when she talked to her my grandma would say something like " i wont' be around forever so just always know I love you and make sure you always share that with everyone". That was my granmda. She always wanted everyone to know she loved them. What great advice. It makes the world such a better place.

I'm starting to cry again...here was the note we found by my grandma on the day of my graduation, i've posted it before but want to post it again.





Always let pepole know when you love them, you never know what will happen.

Happy BIRTHDAY CAREY! HOPE IT IS AMAZING!

So my dream was always to be on the Real World. In the I want to but never actually will be or try to be kinda way. Just like a lofty goal of something I just assumed I would do one day, like other things like being a star on a teen drama and becoming royalty on my own island. LIke you know achievable but healthy goals. Anywho I was just on the MTV website and it says you have to be 24 or under to be on Real World that means this next one they are casting for is prolly my last chance ever to get on. Maybe I will do it. My life will be so empty once I realize I can never be on the Real World. Does that mean I won't be king of my own ilsand someday?

Ok, I just posted a minute ago so read that cuz it is interesting but then I heard the craziest news! FOR FASHION WEEK IN MILAN THEY ARE BANNING ANY REALLY SKINNY MODELS!!! They are doing it to prevent eating disorders or whatever! Ridiculous. There is a reason some people are models in Milan fashion shows and some are not! grrr....it bothers me when people try to make it seem like fashion should be antyhing other than what it is...just purely enjoyable to watch fluffiness and fun....like i can watch real sized people wear clothes any day I want....

So in the current issue of Vanity Fair (the one with the first pictures of the cruise/holmes baby, which by the way looks soo cute in some pictures and terrifying and glasslike/fake/dead in others and deformed in others, so the verdict is out on the cuteness factor of the baby I think and why is Katie so overly happy all the time , it is so fake or drug induced but we all know Tom doesn't belive in drugs)
Anywho that was a paragraph of a rant that is not the topic of this post. The topic is another article in that issue about A FOUR SEASONS HOTEL IN THE CANOPY OF THE RAINFOREST IN THAILAND. Yes, you heard that right. Thye have these crazy tent/hotel rooms hanging from the top of the trees in thailand that al lhave porches and internet access. It is in a totally remote area. It is like being rugged but luxorious. Frankly it is still too rugged for me but it still seems crazy> Who thinks about these things. I can hear the board meeting now....

Guy #1: Well the four seasons isn't waht is used to be, we need to spruce up our image
Guy #2: You know what I"ve been thinking about? There are not enough hotels in trees.
Guy #3: Yeah, I've always thought that. It's always bothered me.
Guy #1: What about not only in trees? But in a dangerous rainforest in the middle of territory controlled by warlords and no real access to the outside world.
Guy #2: But there will be WiFi internet, right?
Guy #1: Well of course, we do have standards


WHOA I JUST HEARD WHITNEY AND BOBBI BROWN ARE GETTING DIVORCED...more info to follow soon

No, no, don't get too excited, I didn't actually see Betty White of Golden Girls/Mary Tyler Moore/short lived Ellen (the second sitcom) fame in person. But I am reading her book by that title. AND IT IS A JEM!!! I love it. I got it from (e:libertad) for my bday and I read a little bit of it before I go to bed. It is just little anecdotes about a million different tings in her life. What she thinks about fan mail, comedy, theater, televison, pets and the such. It is soo Betty White (as if i Know her! which I ink I do)! I dn't love that she loves animals so much but still I love the book and recommend it!!!!

P.S. It is kinda funny though she wrote it like in season 2 of the Golden Girls and talks about how she couldn't stand working if she didn't get along with her costars and how perfect it was how well they all get along and she couldn't imagine it any other way....yet we all know the drama between her and Bea Arthur later on...there's a reason Golden Palace is lacking one oversized manly woman in a drape!

At work today we were dead. We only filled 230 prescriptions, where a normal monday sees like at least 400 and usually like around 450. Like noone came into the store. Did anyone else notice that? Was it because of 9/11? Did people not leave their houses today or were they all at Memorials? I don't know, I just thought it was interesting!

First of all I almost just killed my whole family by accident. I'm on the couch talking to (e:jill) on the phone when I start to smell something. I am thinking in my head hmm what is that smell, it is so familiar and kinda obnoxious yet somehow also good and makes me kinda hungry. Them my mom screams "open the windows"...I ugess she had turned on the fire on the stove but the fire didn't go on so it was just on high leaking tons of gas. Had I been home alone I prolly would have died while tihkng "hmm what is that smell?"....maybe i need to stop killing brain cells with alcohol....

Secondly, I hate that school is back in session cuz that means school buses and that means it takes 6 hours to get down elmwood or anywhere else...I walked to school....so should everyone else

So the final part of my bday (except maybe a work party that will turn into a bday party on sept. 6) was on Saturday and it was muy excelente. It involved super tasty french onion soup (did you know that it could be made at home? I always assumed it was a restaurant only thing for some reason), pasta with vodka sauce, salmon (which i love) and brocolli. And then an amazing pecan chocolate cake with like real whipped cream. Buit the best part is that it was all served to me in bed! How fantastic is that? Especially on a rainy day wher eyou juts want to get under the sheets. But it didn't' end there. Then i got the goods. Mocha Jet Cafe which is super sweet since that is how this whole thing started back at Coffee & and my using the mocha jet cafe addiction to be there as much as possible. Also the tasty hot cholcoalte mix they use at Cafe Aroma and an OUTKAST CD THAT HAD NO CD IN IT! Seriuosly, it was all security wrapped and everything but then afyter ten minutes of tearing through plastic, there was no cd in it. It was crazy. Anywho the whole night was amazing! Thanks (e:libertad) for making my birthday so special!

As my 5 day birthday is coming to a close, thanks eveyroen for making it amazing! IT truly was more than I ever oculd have asked for!

So last night was very fun! It all started off with a quick trip by me and (e:mk) to the Target dollar section where everything was on clearance for a quarter. Needless to say I've been stocking up on cheap plastic everythings! So then (e:beast) picks me up at 930ish with a gift to big to bring with us and so i open it and what is it.....A TRAMPOLINE!!! How crazy is that? I have always wanted a trampoline. It is like a personal exercise one I just don't know where i can use it cuz if i jump in my house i will get concussed by the ceiling. Hmm is concussed a word cuz I use it a lot? She also got me this Little Miss and Mr. Plate and fork/sppon combo tha twas such a knockoff cuz it acted like it wasn't Little Miss and Mr. though it was clearly pictures of them on it. It was from Hawaii. (e:beast) also made me an awesome hat I got to wear out proclaiming my bday. I hope there are pics to be posted at some point though I don't remember many pics being taken.

Anywho, then we get to (e:mk)'s where Brian is meeting because he was driving. AND he had cake and chocolates which were super tasty. OK i forgot about the chocolate so I haevn't eaten it yet but the cake was from his work I guess they have a bakery or something and it was super duper good! So that was cake time number 4 for my birthday at that point and i loved it! So we drove brian's super dupa fly new car that he just got yesterday and it had like only 30 miles on it. It can only handle 850 pounds of passenger so luckily we were all pretty light yet still we were pushing the limit I thik. 850 split 5 ways does not leave a lot of weight per person. SO then we picked up (e:libertad) and we were on our way!

At Frizzy's (e:jill) and jim and (e:amanda) and nick were there to join us. So I opened my gifts. Well I got a drink first of course and thne opened my gifts and wowser they were good. I got Golden Girls Season 2 DVD (Golden Girls party soon to follow!), Mean Girls DVD, Center Stage DVD, an American Idol Microphone, an awesome Rocky Mountain shot glass, strawberry chewies, twizzler sours and other asosrted goodies. I actually got two copies of seasoon 2 of Golden Girls so I will exchange one , prolly for season 3, SCORE!

Then (e:diana) showed up a little later with and awesome pin for me to wear! Then (e:paul), (e:terry), (e:matt), and (e:theeecarey) came and joined us. Which was exciting cuz I didn't think they were going to come! Then the people who used to live in front of (e:pmt) were there. Not for my bday they just happened to be there but it was still fun because I hadn't seen them in a while. A little later I think (e:pyrcedgrrl) showed up also.

It was exciting because LIz Chadwick was there who makles this shot called wet panties which is sooo good. And so we did a few of those cuz she is the only one who can make them so it was good she was there!

Somewhere in the middle I wasn't feeling super good and took a walk with (e:libertad) to protect me! Thanks (e:libertad)!

Then off to NY Pizza and then we were on our way after a brief stop at Cathode and the Pink.

ALL IN ALL IT WAS SUPER! THANKS EVERYONE FOR GIVING ME A GREAT BDAY!!!!