I saw a man the other day with a black t-shirt that said in white writing something like "Reason's I Procrastinate" and then started the list with a 1. and then nothing was wrriten after that. I WANT THAT T-SHIRT BAD! I CAN'T FIND IT ANYWERE! Any ideas on where to find it? is there an online like tshirt website anyone knows of? If you see this tshirt anywhere, PLEASE LET ME KNOW! I should have asked him where it was from but I didn't! PLEASE ANY INFO WILL BE APPRECIATED

So the last weekish or so my friend's boyfriend has been in town. I've hung out with them a few times, just the three of us and while they will not admit it I think it is wearing on them. Like I think they hang out with me because they feel bad for my boredness but it is really kinda awkward always hanging out with a couple, especially just like watching TV or going to a movie. I mean actually it isn't super awkward but I feel like it should be and so then I think it is even if it isn't. I also am not so sure her boyfriend loves that I am always around. Like I understand, they don't get to see each other that much in the summer since they live in different cities so I probably wouldn't want a third wheel hanging around all the time too. Though he is super nice about it and never said anything or acted that way, i can just sense or just assume there must be some not happiness with the situation on his part. Some things I 've said about them in the past that they both know only make the situation worse. Not that I said bad things, like it was good things, but just things you don't say to people, especially when you don't really know one of them. Though it almost seems sometimes like my friend is sometimes exploiting the situation to the maximum awkwardness. Ok probably not but that is just what I think in my head. Like she knows I think it is awkward and then she does things that will make me feel more awkward. But at the same time I am having fun too. And its fun thinking there's always the possibility that .....ok no there's not but maybe? haha (a few of you will know what I'm talking about)

Last night me (e:maureen) and her bofriend Jeremy went out to Frizzys, Allen Street Hardware and the Pink. We started at Frizzy's but when we walked in what do we see but a 40 year ol dmand and woman and the man is bent over and the woman is spanking him with a big rod. It was interesting? So then we left....headed to Allen St. Hardware for a bit which was fun and then over to the Pink. There was this very drunk old man who took a liking to us, particularly Jeremy and he told us we were the three most beautiful people and he oculdn't believe we were al lin one room and it was too amazing. And then we left...Jim's Steakout...a few dry heaves and then we called it a night

Don't get me wrong, I love Eckerd. But boy am I getting sick of working there. I am so not cut out for full time work. Especially in the super nice summer weather! Next week I am down to 28 hours thankfully. I would ike 3 days off a week at least, maybe 4 some weeks. I realize that is a lot but you know what, I am 21, it is the summer and I JUST WANT TO HAVE FUN!!! Which I have been doing...mkaing me one tired Eckerd pharmacy tech every morning...the eventual crash is going to be bad....

Lastl night was fun after the Square. I don't love the Square but just going out afterwards is so fun, especilaly 3-4-1 drinks. At Skybar this whole new level about the bar that I swear was never there before!! It was neat, saw a lot of people and still got home at a reasonable time (possibly too early) and made it to work sorta on time...ok that's all for now

Anyone else missing Page7? Page7 where are yuou?

So last season I totally loved Laguna Beach, the MTV reality show that was like the real life OC and followed some highschoolers in Laguna Beach, in Orange County California. I loved the seniors last year and they didn't seem to much like they were acting. But this season is totally different. It now like stars Kristen who was a junior dating one of the seniors last year. She was also one of my least favorite characterers. Her and her friends now seem waaaay to hard trying to act and ask certain questions. It also spent way too much time on like just people walking or driving and stuff with no conversation. Plus a new girl moved to school and is shaking things up. Yeah I'm sure she didn't move there because she watned to be on the show, yeah right?!

This first two episodes though did have the people from last year coming back from college which was enjoyable. Oh and a side note. This season seems like it will feature more sex. Like there was totally an implied innuendo and then I was like ew these are real people, who are like 16 or 17, that is something I shouldn't be seeing on tv , right?

Holy Heck! Can I tell you how much I love low bandwith mode? My computer at my parent's house is circa like 1995 and we have dial up internet so you can just imagine the connection speed we have. It is prolly like 10bites/minute. Seriously! Estrip, like most websites with anything in them usually would freeze the computer and shut it down. But now with low bandwith mode it totally works fine! It totally has got me back into reading everyoen's journal because it doesn't take 2 hours to load each one! I love it and it has made me fall back in love with (e:strip)!!! See y'all at the party tomorrow...

Last night me and (e:maureen) decided to hit up Chippewa. It was lots of fun and we were nervous about going out just the two of us but it was super fun!!! Maybe I'll write more detials later but right now I just want to tell about something I saw. We stopped by Marcella's for a little bit and they were like patting everyone down and using the metal detector wand. I have never seen that there before, is this common? Then after going in, someone mentioned it was Hip Hop NIght. So do they only use the metal detectors and pat downs on Hip Hop Night? That seems a little shady to me, do'nt you think?

Lately, I've been thinking about (e:jill) and (e:beast) a lot. I miss them a lot!!! But not in the way I thought I would. Like I am surviving much better than I thought I would and if I just look at things like for what they are and not at them as how they could be if (e:jill) and (e:beast) were here then I think I would have a much better outlook. Like at work the other day Michele was like you seem to be having such a great summer or something like that. And I was like hmmm I guess i actually have had a really good summer pretty much. I've done a lot of fun things and hung out with lots of fun people. And instead of looking at it as all the times I couldn't hang out with jill and teres, if i just look at it for what it was it was actually super fun.

At the same time, now I am getting nervous about their return and how it will be. Maybe I am overreacting but I just fear how it will go. For some reason when (e:beast) returns in november I feel like we will fall right back into our old ways and everything will be fine and we will be the same friends we always have been but I feel like it will be different with (e:jill). I feel like so much of mine and (e:jill)'s friendship was that for the last four years we had had almost all the same experiences. We had been there for each other or together for everything. And now this summer we aren't like. And like I don't know if we will be able to get right back into our we do everything together and hang out together all the time moide. Will we fall right back into getting along so great and just meshing so well together? Or have we become different people that won't be able to just be like that ever again? Her and JIm will most likely be getting more serious or will be more serious and like I don't konw, I just am afraid that everythign will add up to us not being where we once were. Maybe that is ok, but I don't think so. I would like to think we will always be as good freinds as we were. What if I have changed too much or she has changed too much? What if we don't liek the same thigns anymore. LIke I still tell her everything through email or our sporadic phone calls but I don't know, I feel like this summer i am changign in a lot of ways and i hope we will still be what we have always been....I will be so sad to see it change...but maybe that is part of growing up...I'm not good at that....as (e:maureen) pointed out I failed adjusting to new situations on my kindergarden reprot card and have never really mastered it since...

I MISS YOU (e:JILL) and (e:BEAST) .... PPP 4EVER

So oops! Last night me and (e:MK) and (e:Amanda) were hanging out on Jesse/Heidi/Amanda's porch. Now mind you we had basically invited ourselves in a way, but anywho we are sitting on this chair swing that Jesse got that was at his grandparents house I believe he said and then after sitting on it liek for an hour all of a sudden we hear a loud "CRRRRRRRAAAAAACCKK". Yes, we broke the swing! I felt terrible. I had no idea we were so obese that we go around breaking swinging chairs by sitting on them. I felt so terrible. LIke at least if it is liek a good friend that breaks one of your things it is kinda ok but when it is basically a stranger, it is way worse! It was embarssing and terrible though they were nice about it. At one piont I also said outloud "I peed myself" when I meant I spilled on myself. Everytime I see these people, I swear I come across as the stupidest, annoyingest, least classy person possible. Its so not who I really am (or is it? and I just like to think its not?)! I feel like I always make a bad impression! When I was telling Maureen about it she reminded me about my kindergarden report card where I got like the highest in everything except one category and my teacher wrote that I am bad at "adapting to new situations!" . I guess some things never change!!!

Afterwards , me, (e:amanda), (e:mk) headed out to Liars and everyone there was kinda ugly but thinking they were really hot, it was entertaining. I think I am done wiht Chippewa for a while, well for a few days at least, it is not my favorite place but it can be fun, so who knows...we'll see...tonight I think something very chill and involving nothing breakable is in the works......

Last night at McMonkeez with (e:amanda), (e:julie), (e:paul) and (e:terry) was pretty fun. It was also my frist time going to Skybar which was fun with the swings and all!!! I also saw Sara Van Note who I swear I see everytime i go out now. NOt that that's a bad thing, it salways fun but just random that I always! see her!And for all of you who are dyign to see what happens...here is episode 2 of behind closed doors!!

BEHIND CLOSED DOORS
EPISODE 2

INT. FANTASTIC FLOWERS – DAY

BONNNIE is walking into JUNE’S flower shop, where JUNE is preparing a floral arrangement.

BONNIE
Hi June. I just got your message saying that you needed some help and I came right away. Where’s Josh, shouldn’t he be working today?

JUNE
Yeah he was supposed to but he called in sick. Some 24-hour stomach flu or something. I’ve been swamped all day. It seems like everyone and their mother needs flowers today. Would you mind staying to help me out today?

BONNIE
Sure, no problem. I don’t mind helping. That’s what best friends are for.

JUNE
Thanks I owe you one! Could you finish putting together that bouquet over there?

BONNIE
Sure

The phone RINGS and JUNE answers it.

JUNE
Yes, this is she. Well I don’t know how I can help you. Yes, Yes, ok I really have no idea but I’ll see what I can do. Yeah that would be fine. How about Classic Aroma? Ok see you then.

JUNE hangs up the phone.
                    JUNE (con’t.)
Well that was strange.

BONNIE
Who was it?

JUNE
Some girl saying that she is searching for her mom. Someone lead her to Kenmore and told her to contact me. I don’t know how I can help.

BONNIE
That is weird. Did she say why she called you in particular?

JUNE
No, she said the person who lead her to me wanted to remain anonymous.

BONNIE
You don’t think it could be you? Do you? From the time…

JUNE
No, no way! That baby died. It couldn’t be.

BONNIE
Ok, ok I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you. Then who do you think her mother can be?

JUNE
I have no idea. This town is full of shady pasts and missing memories. It could be anyone. Even you.

BONNIE
Me?

JUNE
Yeah, you can’t remember the first half of your life. Maybe this girl is your daughter.

BONNIE
I don’t think so. Besides who in Kenmore knows about my past? If anyone knew they would have told me by now I would hope.

JUNE
That’s true. I mean you’ve been searching for your past for so long and so publicly that if anyone here knew about it, I’m sure they would have told you.

BONNIE
So then who can her mother be?

JUNE
        I have no idea. I’ll see what her whole story is when I meet with her.

BONNIE
        Let me know what you find out.


EXT. PARK – DUSK

KATE, EDUARDO, SHANA and BRIAN are having a picnic.

BRIAN
Thank god summer is finally here. It is so nice to be able to sit here outside.

KATE
I know, I was so sick of the bundling up and needing to wear like ten layers.

SHANA
Hey I got an idea, why don’t we go over to the lake and take a walk.

EDUARDO
That sounds good to me. It’s so beautiful this time of year.

BRIAN
No, I don’t want to.

SHANA
Aww, come one why not?

BRIAN
I said I don’t want to!

SHANA
Come on it will be fun. We could all use the exercise.

KATE
Yeah, come on Brian, it will be refreshing.

SHANA
Don’t be such a party pooper.

BRIAN
Shut up! I said I don’t want to!

SHANA
Ok, you don’t have to get so mad.

BRIAN
Stop belittling how I feel. Do you wanna see mad?

BRIAN slaps SHANA

    EDUARDO
    Brian, what do you think you are doing?

    BRIAN
    I don’t know. Something just came over me. I swear I never hit her before.
                    EDUARDO
        I believe you man! You just need to calm down. What’s bothering you?
    
    BRIAN
        Nothing, I really don’t know what came over me.

    KATE
Maybe he’s had to much to drink. Maybe we should all go home. It’s getting late anyway. I can give you a ride home Shana.

    BRIAN
Don’t be silly, I can drive her home

    SHANA
Yeah Kate, I’ll go home with Brian. It’s no problem.

    KATE
Are you sure?

    SHANA
Yeah, I believe this was just a one-time thing. Brian’s been really stressed lately. He didn’t know what he was doing. Besides, it didn’t even hurt.

EXT. BETH’S HOUSE - NIGHT

SETH is at BETH’S door picking her up for their date tonight, BETH is just coming to the door.

    SETH
OK Beth, ready for your surprise?

    BETH
As ready as I’ll ever be.

    SETH
Ok, it’s waiting in the car

    BETH
Well let’s go

BETH and SETH walk to the car, and SETH begins to open the door.

    SETH
Ready…

    BETH
Ok, here goes nothing…

INT. BUSINESS ASSOCIATION MEETING ROOM – NIGHT

SILIVA is at the table in the front of the room about to start the meeting, as everyone else including LINDA, JOAN and MARIANA are in attendance.

    SILVIA
Ok everybody, I would like to begin the meeting now, so could everyone please be seated? (pause) Now to begin, does anyone have anything they want to discuss?

JOAN
I do!
SILVIA
Yes Joan, go ahead.

JOAN
I’m wondering if we have decided on a date for this year’s elections? And when do you have to announce your candidacy by?

SILIVA
The election will be exactly one month from today. Anyone interested in running for president should say so now.

JOAN
I want to run!

LINDA
Me too!

SILVIA
So the race will be just between Joan Brook and Linda Lawson?

MARIANA
But what about you sister? Won’t you be running this year? After all you have been president for 25 years.

SILIVA
I am choosing to retire this year. I decided it is time to pass the gavel on to someone new.

CROWD
        (surprised) Oooh ahh

MARIANA
Then I also want to run

SILVIA
Ok, you three will have one month to campaign before election day. Good luck.

LINDA (outloud to self)
        Oh no! I was sure I could beat Joan but what about Mariana?

JOAN (outloud to self)
Linda your days are numbered

INT. HOUR GLASS RESTAURANT – NIGHT

BETH, SETH, and LESLIE are sitting down to dinner at a fancy restaurant.

BETH
Les, I can’t believe you came up here to see me. But how do you know Seth?

LES
We are cousins. My mom and his dad are brother and sister.

BETH
Seriously? What are the chances of that? My boyfriend and old best friend being
cousins.

LES
I know, isn’t it like the craziest coincidence ever. He was talking about his girlfriend Beth Lawson the other day, and I was like no it can’t be. And then we realized we both knew you. It was crazy.

SETH
So Beth, Does this mean you like your surprise?

BETH
I love it; it’s so great to see Leslie again. I never expected her to be the surprise

WAITER enters and comes to the table.

                    WAITER    
Hi, my name is Diego and I will be your waiter tonight. Can I start you off with some drinks?

SETH
Coke

BETH
I’ll have a diet please.

LESLIE
Gin and tonic please.

WAITER
Can I see your ID?

LESLIE shows the waiter her ID and the WAITER leaves to go get the drinks.

BETH
Les do you have a fake id? You’re not 21.

LES
Of Course I do. Don’t act all high and mighty just because you are old enough now. You used to have one too.

SETH gives BETH an odd look of suspicion.

    BETH (VO)
Oh Les, please don’t drink too much and spill my secrets

INT. JOAN’S KITCHEN – NIGHT

JOAN is drinking a martini and RON and JOAN are sitting in their kitchen.

JOAN
Ron, what can I do to beat Linda in the election this year? Everyone will vote for her just because they feel sympathetic for that bitch.

RON
Maybe you can get some dirt on her?

JOAN
I doubt it. She is so perfect and so is her damn family. Well, except Joe of course.

RON
Why don’t you bring that up in your campaign?

JOAN
You idiot! I can’t bring up his affair because I am the one who slept with him. Sometimes I wonder if you have even half a brain.

RON
Oh yeah, that’s right. Maybe Beth has done something bad that no one knows about. Like maybe she used to be a prostitute or a murderer.


JOAN
I doubt it. She is a perfect angel as far as I know. I wish I could take that stupid halo of hers and wrap it around her scrawny little neck!

RON
Wait I got it! Maybe Rene knows something about Beth. Lets try to con her into telling us something.

JOAN
That’s so crazy, it just might work! For once in your life you might have come up with a good idea! As soon as Rene gets home I’ll try to get as much out of her as possible. From this point on, I am not letting anyone stand in my way of the presidency! I deserve that office and will stop at nothing to get it! NOTHING!

JOAN swigs her drink.

INT. LINDA’S LIVING ROOM – NIGHT

LINDA and PETER are cleaning the living room.

LINDA
Peter, I am so worried. I mean I know I can beat Joan in the election but I am not sure about Mariana. Mariana is just so nice that I don’t even want to find out anything bad about her. Not like I could find anything even if I looked.

                    PETER
Mom, I hope this doesn’t cause a problem between you and Mariana. You two are best friends and it would make it hard for me and Bianca if you two hated each other.

LINDA
I know but don’t worry. It shouldn’t affect our friendship. I just hope Joan doesn’t win. I am not sure that the affair will still get me enough sympathy to beat her. I mean it has been a few years and it is not as fresh in people’s minds anymore. God, I hate that woman!

            PETER
Mom, calm down

LINDA
NO! That whore stole my husband for a few nights of wild passion but I won’t let her ruin my chance of winning the election. If that mole wins I will move out of Kenmore but not before killing her!



PETER
Mom be quiet. You’re sounding crazy. If you want to beat Joan though maybe you can find some new dirt on her. Beth is pretty close to her daughter Rene. Maybe she knows something

LINDA
Maybe…… but let’s talk about something more uplifting. How are you and Bianca doing by the way?

PETER
Great, I mean we’ve had our fights like all couples but I think we are stronger than ever. And I think I might be ready to pop the big question!

LINDA
What? Marriage? My little boy getting married? I am so happy for you! When do you plan on asking her?

PETER
I’m not sure, but I started looking for rings and everything. But mom you have to keep this a secret because I haven’t told anyone yet. Not even any of my friends or dad or anyone.

LINDA
Don’t worry I’ll keep my mouth shut. I am just so happy for you! My first child planning on getting married! I can’t wait! I’ll be a grandmother in no time.

PETER
Whoa! Hold on! Don’t get ahead of yourself. She hasn’t even said yes yet.

LINDA
You know she will! You guys have been chasing after each other since you were little. It was just a matter of time before you got married and produced the next generation of Lawsons.

PETER
We’ll see mom, we’ll see.

LINDA
Well I know I can’t wait for the day!

INT. MARIANA’S OFFICE – NIGHT

MARIANA and BIANCA are sitting in her office.



BIANCA
So I cannot believe Aunt Silivia is retiring this year. She has been president for who knows how long.

MARIANA
I know, I think she is finally ready to take a break and rest. It is good for her. She’s been working so hard her whole life she deserves a break.

BIANCA
So I heard Linda and Joan are both running for President. That should be quite a race. At least I hope Linda wins.

MARIANA
What? You don’t want your own mother to win?

BIANCA
What do you mean? Are you running too?

MARIANA
Yeah, I figure since our family owns so much of this town, the Presidency of the Business Association should stay in the family.

BIANCA
Well of course I hope you win. I didn’t know you were running. Alex said just Joan and Linda were running.

MARIANA
That’s so like him. Always forgetting important details and telling just parts of stories.

BIANCA
Do you think the election will cause tension between you and Linda?

MARIANA
I doubt it, our friendship is pretty strong. As long as everyone keeps their campaigns clean. We don’t need any smear tactics. I’m sure if everyone just puts their ideas out there the best person will win. And that of course will be me.

BIANCA
You’re that sure that you can win?

MARIANA
If you wanna win you have to act like a winner.

BIANCA
Has Alex told you about Aunt Silvia’s retirement party?
MARIANA
No, I didn’t even know she was retiring until she announced it at the meeting. When is the party?

BIANCA
We are going to have it in a couple of weeks. I am helping him plan it. We want it to be the party of the season. Everyone is going to be there. She has helped so many people in her career that I’m sure everyone will want to wish her a happy retirement.

MARIANA
I’m sure. I’ve never met anyone who doesn’t like her.

BIANCA
I know. Alex and I were wondering if you would like to make a toast to her at the party. We figure noone knows her as well or is as close to her as you.

MARIANA
        I’d be honored to.

BIANCA
Great, I’ll get you more details on the party tomorrow but I gotta get going.


INT. HOUR GLASS RESTAURANT – NIGHT

LESLIE, BETH and SETH are at dinner, where LESLIE has obviously become drunk.

LESLIE
Excuse me waiter, WAITER, WAITER!!!!

BETH
Les be quiet, you are causing a scene

LESLIE
I just need to get some more wine and that damn waiter isn’t paying attention to me. Maybe if I take my shirt off he would give me some more attention!

BETH
Keep it on! Les, I think you have had enough to drink. You probably shouldn’t have anymore.

LESLIE
Like you should talk. You drink more than anyone I have ever met!


BETH (confused and angry)
        What? What are you talking about? You are acting crazy!

LESLIE
At least I still have all of my clothes on! You used to get so wild at those parties back in Florida.

BETH
What? I have no idea what you are talking about! I think we better take her home!

SETH
Beth, what is she talking about?

BETH
I have no idea, I swear I don’t know.

LESLIE
You know exactly what I mean. You were just as surprised as I was that you weren’t pregnant after that wild night with Roman and his brothers.

BETH
Who is Roman? What are you talking about? Please be quiet! You are making no sense!

SETH
Beth, I want an explanation! What is she talking about!

BETH
Who knows!? She is obviously drunk and just making things up.

LESLIE
I can explain it all


INT. BRIAN’S CAR – NIGHT

BRIAN and SHANA are driving home in the dark.

                    BRIAN
I’m sorry about hitting you but, you know, you were just getting sooo annoying

    SHANA
        Don’t even try to blame this on me

    BRIAN
Don’t tell me what to do!
SHANA
You need to learn to control your temper.

BRIAN
Why don’t you shut up!

    SHANA
Keep your eyes on the road.

BRIAN
I think I know how to drive, you bitch!

SHANA
Watch out for that truck!!

BRIAN AND SHANA
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Their CAR hits the TRUCK.

INT. JOAN’S LIVING ROOM – NIGHT

JOAN is watching the news when a NEWSCASTER with a special report about the accident breaks in to the broadcast.

                    NEWSCASTER
I’m here on the scene where just a little while ago a car driving on the southbound I90 crashed into a tractor trailer causing severe damage to the vehicle. Both passengers were admitted to Kenmore Mercy. Brian Brook, the driver has been released with only minor injuries but hospital officials say the passenger Shana Wendt is in critical condition. The doctors are doing everything they can to try and control the damage and save her. No word yet as to whose fault the accident was. Stay tuned to Channel 4 to find out more details as we get them.

            JOAN
That’s it! Now Brian will have to do everything I say, this little accident would play perfectly into my evidence of how he abuses Shana. It’s time to kick my anti-Linda campaing into high gear.

INT. HOUR GLASS RESTAURANT – NIGHT

BETH, SETH and LESLIE are still having dinner.

                    SETH
Beth, is this true? All these things she is saying about you getting drunk and sleeping with all those men? Is it true?
            BETH
No of course it isn’t. I’m offended that you would even think that.

                    LESLIE
        It is too true. Admit it. You were a slut like the rest of us.

SETH’S cell phone RINGS and he answers it.

                    SETH
        Hello? Yes this is he. OK, I’ll be right down.

                    BETH
        What is it?
    
                    SETH
That was Pam at the hospital. She said Shana’s been in a car accident and they can’t get ahold of her mom. I have to go down there right away. Can you guys catch a taxi and we’ll talk about everything later.

            BETH
Yeah, sure.

INT. BATHROOM – NIGHT

BONNIE is laying in the tub relaxing and listening to the radio.

                    BONNIE
What a long day. I haven’t worked that hard in so long. I’m glad I shut off the phone so I won’t be pesterd by those annoying telemarketers. It feels so good to just lie back and relax .
        
                    RADIO ANNOUNCER
We are breaking into your regular programming to alert you to a severe backup on the southbound I90 where a tractor trailer and a car collided spilling the contents of the truck all over the road. The passengers Shana Wendt and Brian Brook have been sent to the hospital where she is in critical condition…

            BONNIE
What…SHANA…in an accident. Oh my god, they’ve probably been trying to call me. I have to get down to the hospital right away.

INT. ALEX’S BEDROOM – NIGHT

Alex is laying in bed watching television.

                    
NEWSCASTER
Doctors will need to work through the night to keep her alive. So keep it tuned here to Channel 4 to find out the latest about this terrible accident.

ALEX
Nooooo!!!! SHE HAS TO BE OK! I CAN’T LOSE HER! I HAVE TO TELL HER HOW I FEEL! SHE CAN’T DIE! I NEED TO GET TO THE HOSPITAL RIGHT AWAY AND HELP HER! THERE HAS TO BE SOMETHING I CAN DO!

INT. SHANA’S HOSPITAL ROOM – NIGHT

SHANA is in her hospital bed with doctors around her and you see the heart monitor go steady.