Posts from January 2008

this seems to be the current theme for my life.

school is going really well this semester, minus the fact that i didn't make it today. i have succumbed to my mystery illness and made an appointment to see the doc. i figured one week of coughing fits and little sleep, and i should go see whats up.

i think im going to have to change my flight and cut my blo trip and bit shorter. im thinking of flying red eye or something thurs, instead of coming wed. i just don't think it would be a good idea to miss two days of class.

i also think i need to stay home this weekend and chill out. the going out things does me in. is this part of my new im getting a bit older thing?

anyway, i feel really upset about the whole heath ledger thing. its always so weird when someone really talented dies. i always though he was more on the normal side, but i guess not.

hi ho hi ho, it's to the doctor i go!

p.s. i lost my keys again yesterday. that has happened twice in two weeks. any suggestions?

they drilled the fuck out of my mouth today, and im so numb i can't move the right side of my face.


i also can't eat. my dinner was a jamba juice. not my ideal. i don't like skipping meals.


i also had a $90 copay, goddamn. then next visit, i prob wont have insuranance, so im sure ill have to shell out like $500.


a least its like mouth insurance. i want to keep my pretty smile.


i also wanted pain meds, but they wont give me any. what the fun of this if i don't get meds?????? im pissed.


in better news, my purse was stolen over the weekend, and some fucker who got my check card spent $150 at a gas station. i cancelled the card sunday, it didn't show up until today.

i also got into a bit of a fight with some girls in my class. i really like my classes, but the people in them not so much.

i can't wait to be in blo, and just drink and drug away all of this aggression. haha. just kidding. sort of...

i am learning spanish, so that i can maybe finally speak to all of the mexicans who think i am mexican too. hola senor!

i am gong to now spend the rest of the night trying not to bite my tongue!

so, at my one job, the hospital we are still running on windows '00.

does this seem off to anyone else?

until recently, my technology was behind. but this is just so fucking bad. the computers are also about 8 years old, and it all just seems so rediculous for a hospital.

the technology here is a good 10 yrs behind, if not more. it seems like they could cut down on costs so much if they just invested in some better pcs, and equipment to bring this place into the 21st century....


with that said, i am going to recreate the spreadsheet that was deleted because the pc froze.


old technology is like bad fashion, not ok unless you are third world. in which case, you could still have the cool little laptop for children and some colorful woven clothing your mama made for you, which is kinda fashionable still.

and git er done!


ima be in the blo, jan 31st!



partay!



i need to hike my ass off the next two weeks, and spend like no money, except paying off my damn car....



cuz, we gonna partay!



in short, jet blue fucked me over, and apparently you only have a year to use vouchers, and mine were about to go away. anyway, i bought me a tickey, and blo here i comes!

i bought a shirt/dress for 1.50 today.


dress or shirt depending how slutty you are feeling.


i also bought shoes, but they were like $17, so not as cheap. but a good brand and very chic.


i did also get bottled water, paper towels, and toilet paper(the soft kind), because thats how i roll. haha.

so, i am really sad about the whole hilary thing, but she was pretty dumb to bring up the whole mlk thing.

@jason says i should post more "nekkid photography" to get more comments. i'll consider it.

i hiked at least 15 miles in the past week, and this is not your average hike/walk. this is uphill, kick your ass, make you wanna die hiking. anyway, i did a 4 mile one on sunday, up and back down this mountain near where i live. if i ever get on ebay and order yet another usb cord, i will post some photos.

i think i might actually go out this weekend, but there is still time for me to change my mind and stay in. mass amounts of people and clubs, are beginning to scare me. i think the desert is making me a hobbit... mins the whole hairy feet thing, because hairy feet also scare me. as well as feet in general...

i only wanted to name this journal that, because i have that song by keane in my head. i forgot about them, but i really like that band. i am always looking for good hiking music. i am currently much into good hip-hop, and pretty songs...

nothing new really to report here.

i pretty much just hike and hang out with the fam, and work. i am really looking forward to the start of the new semester, and hopefully getting my bachelors in the next two years, or less. i really just want to have a career.

so, with my mom's last job, they would cover me under her health insurance, but now she is coming back to the hospital where i work, and i lose coverage. this sucks for multiple reasons. basically i am poor, but maybe not poor enough to be covered under the state. the insurance my school offers is $400 a semester for basically nothing, and it is super expensive to just purchase student insurance.

so unless i start having bastard children, i am fucked. good thing i am pretty damn healthy. i will just get my inhalers and birth control filled now, along with getting checked out by every doc possible in the next two weeks. i kid you not, i have about 5 appointments.

i really hope that whoever becomes the president next realizes how shitty the health system in this country is. working in a hospital, i see so many awful lard-asses who have done nothing healthy for themselves, and they suck up all these services while i work hard and get nothing. it makes me so mad. everyone needs to have at least basic healthcare, including students.

i have no hot hookups to report. i think my new thing is ummm respecting my body. or maybe i only meet ugly losers who aren't worthy of a hookup.

my grandma seems to be doing better now, and she is headed home this week. i am gonna help take care of her, so she better not misbehave, because there is no q.a. to make sure i am not abusing her. ok, not funny, i would never hurt the granny. i love her so! she does have some cool necklaces though, so i many have to snatch one or two.

i really want to visit the blo soon, but there always seems to be a snag in the plans.... hopefully before spring. i have forgotten what winter is like!

stay classy (e:strip)pers!


me, @paul, and a floating @southernyankee.

i feel like the world's biggest loser right now.


right now, i am reminded of the death cab song, which goes, "so this is the new year and i don't feel any different..."

except i think everything is quite different from last year, and much improved.


i am not going out. i am probably going to be sleeping my midnight, ok, it's not even 8 yet. let's change that probably to a definitely.

i am so over the whole new setting thing, and just ready to actually meet people here i like. anyone.

it's not that i haven't been invited out, but i can honestly say i would not have fun.


they say you have to give new places two years to adjust. f that.


i want new friends now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


new years resolution: meet cool people. join club or something....

at least i will be perky for a nice hike tomorrow morning. nothing says happy new year like a fit new bod....


p.s. i am also going to take belly dancing classes.

this is jessica. sarah is playing drunk haircut with me. im kinda scared.

so, i have been posting much less lately, as things here have been somewhat out of control...

unfortunately, this is not due to my drunken exploits or slutty encounters.

oh no, i just have the largest craziest extended family ever.


here's what was up for xmas:


@hodown came and totally surprised the mom.


@hodown was sick.


the mom was even more sick, and still sick. @hodown has recovered.

on xmas. gift exchange was interrupted by emergency phone call and then emergency trip to grandma's. she has been on a slippery slope, and thing worsen by the day, and there is a 'death scare' most everyday now.

grandma's liquid morphine goes missing. rx addict aunt is staying with grandma when this is discovered. no one will confront crazy drug addict aunt.

my mom is avoiding her bf, who now calls me all the time to figure out what s up with her. i think she needs to dump him. i don't have a bf, and i don't want to deal with hers.

my sis has been very emotional this trip. i told her please stop; that is my territory, but lately, i am incapable of tears.

on xmas, my grandma wished me a "happy bday", asked "how my easter was", and also asked "how my bf with the dog is doing"... none of these questions made any sense.


basically my cracked out aunt who may have stolen the morphine drugged my poor little granny up to the point of almost killing her, and now granny is in hospice care.

my grandma who means the world to me, is not going to be around much longer. i am the favorite of nearly 50 grandkids, and it is a known fact. i have never dealt with death, so i am very scared. it is hard to explain, but my grandma has always been a kindred spirit, and there is so much of her in me. she has given me so much joy in life, and i just wish her a peaceful passing.

of course i don't want to say goodbye, but i know she is not long for this world. she told my aunt carol that she keeps seeing a room and that one day she will just walk into it. i don't know why, but that gives me nightmares. i can't imagine not hearing her voice again, not being able to tell her everything. i love her so much, and the bond we share is so strong.

saying goodbye is just so hard...


to end it on a more happy note, pretty ring @hodown gave me for xmas, onyx and rubies!

umm, i get to see my sister in like 9 hours, and i am so excited!

i haven't seen her since august which is way too long. pretty much, if my life were myspacey, she wouldn't be top 8 always. more like top two...

i hope she isn't too sick the whole time, and if she is, i will nurse her back to health...

i think this xmas is really go to rock... around the palm tree!


i really don't even want any gifts or anything, i just want to be with my family and for them to feel happy and loved!

i wish my brother was going to be here, but hopefully i will make it out to blo soon and see him and all of you crazies!


merry pre-kissmas!

me and my granny, it's a funny photo, but she is doing much better, and she will be home for xmas, which is great!