i need a new car.


not as in, i want one, or im thinking my car sucks.


i need a new one. one that doesn't break down everyday. one that doesn't leave me stranded in random places in this sprawled out city.


this sucks so much, i feel the tears coming on. it almost makes me want to come back to blo for school and work, and live cheaper, and fuck the car thing all together.

i came here so i could save, and i feel like all i do is spend money, with nothing to show for. i mean, come on, i even cut off my clothes shopping and everything.

i think wine and dinner, and then a movie are in order.


also, i have so much school stuff to do, im pretty sure tonight i my last night of sleep for over a week.

so, im waiting for the good thing that is always supposed to make up for all of the really shitty stuff.

p.s. the cheapo actually seems pretty nice, and did offer to buy me dinner last night.... but, alas, i am in interested in the unattainable man(not the cheapo, just my dream-man), so i will just chill. but why are there so many men all over all the time now? its strange.

pps. still not going to let this all get me down, by the end of jan, i will be decided on when and where i will be spending my 6-8 months in europe. hooray!

and, lastly, i made this for the little lovey i work with, do you think people would buy these thing for like $35-50. i could find some childrens store or something to pitch it...

what happens when your emergency brake is not fully engaged?


you go to check your mail, and you car rolls backwards down the hills into another car.

like screaming out, "NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!", was going to stop it.


collision, nope. fucked up car? very.


do not want to go home. must move out/run away to mexico.


my car is sick, and i think i have brain issues.


and im really really scared of what is ging to go down tonight. do not move back in with your parents and develop shopping addictions. word to the wise.

and i just bombed my midterm. lucky me!

on the upside, im really glad there was a large truck there. if not, my car would have sailed through some lucky persons living room!

my car broke down. last wed. i got it fixed.


it broke down again. today.


wtf? ummm, car, i treated you well. i got you towed and fixed and all clean and pretty. i got an itrip, and i gave you good music, like iron and wine, and lily allen, and talib kweli. and this is how you repay me?

you don't love me car. why don't you love me? i treated the ol' whitey like crap, and i didn't love it, and i love you, and this is how you treat me. you make me sad car.

is it because i haven't named you? do you want a better owner? someone not like me? what do you need to be happy and running?

im thinking of "The Arcade Fire" and their song, keep the car running. im trying to keep it running.

im stuck at school until forever. im bored, and this asshole in the computer lab wont let me talk or make noise.

when i go home, im gonna drink some beers and smoke. maybe not, but maybe.

my sad, car why don't you love me face?



ok, so the car thing sucks. but i did however have a good date last night. with like the best kisser of my life. usually when im kissing someone, im thinking of something else, or thinking, why is your tongue doing that? or thinking of kissing people who are better kissers, or that their lips are dry, or something not so good. but i found myself kissing this guy, and thinking, well not really thinking, and then many minutes later, realizing that i went so long without thinking about other things! yowza! and he's got like the super hottest bod ever. seriously hot. i gotta not talk about it anymore.

peace out people, love your cars, and your neighbors!