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Category: quarter life crisis

12/11/07 02:04 - 36ºF - ID#42473


web design confuses me, and therefore makes me angry.

in my life, will i try every possible thing and hate it?

really, i don't think the whole web design thing is for me. another career plan foiled.

we are headed into major recession says (e:hodown). i need to stop taking forever, and just grow up damnit.

right now, the stars are pointing me towards special education...

i think i could get a bachelors in a few years, but the whole europe plan will be foiled. i may have to settle for just a month or two of backpacking, and then come back and buckle down. it seems like such a cake career, and one i think i will really love... i really think i just hate hate hate school, unless it is art, and at is pointless for school because i don't need 4 yrs and 80,000 worth of debt to be poor and talented, i have that now.

here is a list of people i wish to visit me in the next 5 months:

(e:hodown), and she is coming in less than two weeks!

a divine intervention


(e:pmt), no animals! and i will cook for you!

(e:brit), but no british national anthem

(e:tina), yea right

i keep wondering, will i be one of those people who wanders back to blo after a short stint elsewhere? its so expensive here for everything, and so much driving, and aside from my family, and the weather, i don't like it so much.

i mean, the weather part makes a huge huge difference, but it really is so expensive, and i am sick of seeing all of the stupid rich people. with money thats seems to just fall from the sky and their rediculously extravagant lifestyles. how are all these people so rich? all they talk about i money, and that seems to be all that anyone cares about here.

so, in short, i really miss blo, but we are having a bad weather spell here, and its not even that bad and its majorly depressing, so i don't think i can come back, because i hate being cold more than anything else, and i am cold right now. so, ill stay here for a bit. or at least until we run out of water, which could be soon.

im going to go see granny now, she always makes me feel better!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

12/05/07 02:48 - 20ºF - ID#42404

immediate advice needed

what should i name my website?????? i wanted shusho. com but its taken. fuckers.

what do you all think???? is taken too. ugh.

i want it to be cute and catchy, kinda like me!
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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: transport

12/02/07 10:35 - 39ºF - ID#42367

waiting for the good thing that follows

i need a new car.

not as in, i want one, or im thinking my car sucks.

i need a new one. one that doesn't break down everyday. one that doesn't leave me stranded in random places in this sprawled out city.

this sucks so much, i feel the tears coming on. it almost makes me want to come back to blo for school and work, and live cheaper, and fuck the car thing all together.

i came here so i could save, and i feel like all i do is spend money, with nothing to show for. i mean, come on, i even cut off my clothes shopping and everything.

i think wine and dinner, and then a movie are in order.

also, i have so much school stuff to do, im pretty sure tonight i my last night of sleep for over a week.

so, im waiting for the good thing that is always supposed to make up for all of the really shitty stuff.

p.s. the cheapo actually seems pretty nice, and did offer to buy me dinner last night.... but, alas, i am in interested in the unattainable man(not the cheapo, just my dream-man), so i will just chill. but why are there so many men all over all the time now? its strange.

pps. still not going to let this all get me down, by the end of jan, i will be decided on when and where i will be spending my 6-8 months in europe. hooray!

and, lastly, i made this for the little lovey i work with, do you think people would buy these thing for like $35-50. i could find some childrens store or something to pitch it...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: dating

12/01/07 02:25 - 19ºF - ID#42354

is it wrong to use someone for programs?

so, i had this date the other night, with possibly the cheapest guy ever.

he is kinda cute, but really annoying, and selfish seeming. however, he's giving me all these programs i need, that are really expensive, so i am seeing him again tonight.

umm, on the fist date, he didn't even offer to pay for my food or drinks. i mean, come on.

so, i am not a gold-digger at all, but i feel like the guy should at least offer to pay the first few times. but, he's giving me like $1000 worth of programs, so we can hang out at least this one time.

then, we shall see, if he is annoying still or not, and if the cheapness goes away. but i really think, dating a cheap guy is not a good idea.

friends maybe, maybe.
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Category: random banter

11/26/07 07:34 - 40ºF - ID#42292

the flow of information

my mind is flooded with so many things, that i feel like i need a newer/bigger hard drive, and more RAM.

i officially hate my job at the hospital, and quitting it would mean more time for other ventures, and i could pick up more hours at the other job i actually like. and perhaps pursue some other job, i actually like.

glad all of you, think getting gross voicemails is so hot, give me your numbers, and ill forward them next time...

i was reading this editorial about how Halloween-new years has been mashed up into one huge never-ending holiday, that is taking us over. i agree, and wish to put it to an end. if that means no presents, i am okhwith that. because, lets face it, what i actually want, i can't have, and the rest is crap probably made in china.

(e:hodown) agrees.

on thanksgiving, my macbook took a 6' plus tumble, and is totally ok. apple will take over the world; i want to live there. and work for apple of course...
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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: sick fucks

11/24/07 11:43 - 33ºF - ID#42276

people with zero class and 100% crass

somebody called me today from a restrcited number and left a voicemail of a woman having an orgasm.

i get restricted calls a lot, and random text messages. who ever is doing this is gross.

it looks like i do have a gross stalker lurking.

there are other worth while things i could post right now, but i am angered by this.

f off gross stalker person.

i feel like i need some mace.
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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: cooking

11/19/07 11:38 - 40ºF - ID#42197

thanksgiving: a good start

last night i baked an apple pie. i made the crust from scratch, because us hos don't like to do things half assed. actually i do like doing things half assed, but not when it comes to cooking.

here are the results:

the ingredients and supplies, let's get started!

steve, my helper, and my momma's beau, helped. thanx steve!


put in the oven, and mark it with a "G" for grammy and me!

all cooked, and wrapped and ready for thursday!

there are no photos of the rolling, and prep of the dough, but i assure you, i made it from scratch. making dough is a bitch, and messy too.

i need to buy some white bread to lie on top of my pie to keep it moist, because no one wants a icky dried out pie.

tonight, i might make another mini pie, with raspberries. tomorrow, i start on some other stuff!

i feel like this is going to be a great thanksgiving! yesamesh!
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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: car

11/17/07 11:51 - 32ºF - ID#42181

when life hands you lemons...

make a lemondrop!

or a screwdriver.

im le tired.

my car broke down a bunch of times this week, luckily, i was able to restart it each time. except for tonight after work. i then sat in my car for an hour and half, half crying, half laughing, nearly peeing my pants.

i had to pee so bad.

my car was just in the shop last week, and being the little nazi btich it is(more on the lovely swastika scratched into the hood later), it wouldn't do its not starting thing for the mechanic, nope. it loves to stall for me. in fact anywhere it can; in the middle of an intersection, the engine shut down on the freeway, on a curvy road, on a major hill; anywhere. i have been here 6 months, my car has broken down about as many times.

the upside to all of this? there is none. i hate that car.

anyway, onto better topics. this will be my first thanksgiving i am charge of everything, shopping, cooking, taming the wild beasts in my family. i have the shopping part done.

i also have a million art projects to complete in the next month.

oooh, and i am officially applying for my passport in two weeks! which means i will have it soon! i can't wait to travel!!!!

and, i still hate cats.

whenever i have really bad days like this, i think, at least im not preg, that makes every situation seem like such less of an issue. not that i am sleeping around so i would have to worry about that, but more of a, at least i don't have a family to feed or some shit like that. i can just hit the sauce when the going gets rough, not that i do that all the time either...

anyway, i cleaned my room today, and it looks really nice, so without further ado, i bring you the (e:lilho) abode! i will be lying in my bed, drinking some form of vodka drink....

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: i hate cats

11/15/07 10:46 - 39ºF - ID#42154

break out the anitfreeze

and feed it to the cats. i hate cats, and i want them all dead.

like (e:paul), i am allergic to everything and everyone.

what am i allergic to the most? CATS.

i hate them. i am having asthma. yes, asthma, for the first time in years.

cause? CATS.


die cats, die.
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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: sex

11/15/07 12:20 - 53ºF - ID#42129

dong count

(e:paul,42128) and i had a lovely video chat this evening. we got to talk and how many partners we have each had...

without further ado, the list:

didn't start until college:


11 total. thats way more than i ever planned on... oops! anyway, there are no players in this game right now. maybe twelve will be way better than the last 3, they all sucked...

more on that later!

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