"i am missing brain cells, lots" written by Lilho on estrip.org

10/10/07 05:18 - 57ºF - ID#41578

i am missing brain cells, lots

what happens when your emergency brake is not fully engaged?

you go to check your mail, and you car rolls backwards down the hills into another car.

like screaming out, "NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!", was going to stop it.

collision, nope. fucked up car? very.

do not want to go home. must move out/run away to mexico.

my car is sick, and i think i have brain issues.

and im really really scared of what is ging to go down tonight. do not move back in with your parents and develop shopping addictions. word to the wise.

and i just bombed my midterm. lucky me!

on the upside, im really glad there was a large truck there. if not, my car would have sailed through some lucky persons living room!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

10/08/07 09:03 - 73ºF - ID#41554

life never turns out the way you planned

so, im talking to my friend in blo. he's saying, "life's crazy right now, blah, blah, blah." i thinking, alright the usual.

then...

he says, "im gonna be a daddy."

WHAT? WHAT?????

ok, this is too weird for me. we used to date, or something like that, and we still keep in touch, but what??? um. you idiot. you got your ex pregnant, because you didn't use a condom, and she said she was on the pill. ok. you are only 21. good luck with that.

i want to be supportive, but i was almost in tears. he is just going to become a stereotype, and end up having to drop out of school to support this baby, for his crazy gf, who he isn't even in love with. it just seems shitty.

how sad. im so glad im not preg. if i was, i would say, "bye,bye, baby!"

seriously, i am not in the right place for chlid rearing. not for at least three years, no way.

anyway, now i don't know if i should see him when i come this week, it would be weird. why do people have to go and do stupid shit???

on the upside, (e:hodown) and i are planning to go on a vaca this spring. i wanna go someplace super fun, and super not in this country! because, now that i work like a mofo, i can afford trips. woot.

also good news, i see the (e:peeps) so soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: party time

10/07/07 03:11 - 69ºF - ID#41525

night 2

i was supposed to stay home and sleep. didn't happen. i am tired.

people get all sorts of crazy when drunk, and start fights. best time to start a fight. when your brain is mush, and you are being silly.

drunk people, chill the eff out, ok? thanx.

work sat + sun = no fun. night!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: party time

10/06/07 05:20 - 66ºF - ID#41513

night out...ha.

so, i went out tonight.

that's all i really have to say about that. these stays, staying in is so much more appealing, and so wrong for me!

what is a ho, without the madness? i think i will learn to sew and bake some more, and be "marthaish".

except for my four day hiatus to the blo. that will not involve baking, well it might... but not in the same way.

i have to be to work at 830 tomorrow morning, which is really not cool considering i am still up, and in this state.

stop reading this. i think my posts are becoming pointless banter, or i think they were just always that way. i think pointless banter can be one of my life themes. because, we are so small compared to the rest of the universe, and we seem so insignicificant compared to it all.

done typing, will not type anymore. does not compute.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

10/02/07 01:55 - 65ºF - ID#41446

tell it like it is

ok, i did my attempt at a wordy post. but it just wasn't me, ya know?

i am done with boys who think they can just get it whenever. ok?

sorry, but if you want to hang out with me, give me some incentive. i don't want to see you once a month to make out/do it. i can take care of those cravings myself, or find someone hotter than you.

i don't want to text back and forth. we are not in high school anymore, let's just get past the texting and actually call, assholes!

don't pretend like you really like me, when all you want is to as (e:jason) says, "get your dick wet".

if you want it that bad, get creative, and maybe, just maybe after a really nice kobe beef dinner, and about 3 peach martinis i'll give it up. but porbably not, because i'll be full and sleepy.

so, moral of the story is that sarah (yes, i speak in the third person now) is slowly realizing that she has the power. yes, i have the power.

and, shopping frankly, has proved to be way more enjoyable than any boy lately. and i get cute clothes out of it! the shopping here is fab!

and i am now a self-professed workaholic, and i'd rather make money and help people than deal with you silly silly creatures.

and, i miss my friends!!!!! friends, where are you????

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Location: Buffalo, NY

09/30/07 10:35 - 59ºF - ID#41415

want to sleep

need a day off.

please god, just one? i am tired, but its not like i could ever sleep in anyways. the sun is so bright and intense, by 830 i have to get outa bed. i start to feel like a warming coal, and my room heats up to about 90 degrees.

maybe i should ask god for a rainy cloudy miserable day. then i could stay home and wear a hoodie, and boxers, and watch movie after movie, and bake banana bread!

instead, i am off to the "house of misfits", for a twelve hour shift. must think of the next two weekends, and how fun they will be!

why monkeys? they make me feel happy. as does andy warhol!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: life

09/27/07 05:03 - 64ºF - ID#41349

quarter life crisis

i only have 3/4 of my life left to do something with "it".

i've not done anything yet.

i HAVE to do something. i feel like i haven't done anything.

wait, i take that back. i have done 7 NOT GREAT things:

gluttony

avarice

sloth

lust

greed

pride

wrath

i wrote about two pages full of personal thoughts, and then thought, "hey, that's way too personal for the internet." so, you will just have to wonder about what i wrote and then deleted.

but, anyway, i need a new fucking ten year plan people. and i need to not fuck it up this time.

just to end it more positively, i love this piece by roy lichtenstein. i love pop art, and the drama of it. i feel like it is very me. very dramatic, over the top, and kinda crazy, and all over the place, in a 92% good way.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: macbook

09/26/07 04:45 - 73ºF - ID#41343

question for you techies

i want to create a slideshow of images, for a speech i am presenting. which program should i use???? it wont include any words, just images........ but not photos i have taken, art slides.....

whoever knows gets a cookie!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: fashion

09/25/07 01:26 - 63ºF - ID#41314

alice temperly @ target rocks my world!!

i have a dress obsession, and its becoming really no good, but sooo sossoo, good. ok, i just got there two alice temperley for target dresses, on my trip to target that was really only to stock up on diet cherry coke and tea's tea. oh well, i needed them. early bday gift to myself!!! and i picked up a shift at the hospital tomorrow....
i love fashion, and design. i need to find a way to make it my job. maybe ne day i can own a supercute boutique and sell paintings and dresses, and antiques.... or i can just buy them....

Missing Image ;(

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Location: Buffalo, NY

09/23/07 08:45 - 67ºF - ID#41276

wishful thinking

so, i had to work my other job this morning, the nonhospital job, and then i stopped in the hospital because this woman said she had a dress fro me. and you know me, when i hear the word "dress", i come running!

well, i couldn't find her, because she had gone out to get lunch. i was walking down the hall to leave, and the doctor who i am falsely rumoured to be dating was sitting there. we exchanged hellos, and talked for a bit, and then he invited me to come see his band play. im sure he invites everyone, but still, ok well, whatever, i feel like a little girl again with this crush business.

but, i think there could, maybe, possibly be a possibility of something. yesterday at work, he seemed kinda flirty, and of course i get all shy and embarrassed.

was supposed to go hiking with this other dude today, and he totally flaked. oh well.

can't wait to come to blo!!!! like three weeks! crazy!

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Location: Buffalo, NY