Category: relationships
06/04/08 12:49 - ID#44538
im so confused!
ok, so i have really been thinking about a lot of things lately. i don't know if this is good or bad.
it's just that i feel like i am at this strange point, where i can just totally move on from past experiences and relationships, or try to bridge the gap and reconnect or make peace with people.
i am just not someone who can totally forget everything and pretend it doesn't affect the person i am now, because it really does.
there are really only a few people i don't feel that i need to have any sort of closure with, well one, and i have no issues with that.
but, in other places, i feel friendships and people floating away, and it's now or never to decide what to do.
i'm rebuilding a connection with an old friend, and in this case, she seemed to drift for a long time, and i let her. i was angry for a long time, but i think since my grandma past, i really feel like it is important to take the opportunities we have when we do. she was going through an extremely hard time, and that is ok. i was just hurt that she pushed me away. the most important thing i realized is that there are so many time when she was there, and how many memories we share and that our friendship is a big part of what makes me, me.
anyway, this is sappy but true. don't hold grudges, it hardens your heart.
it's just that i feel like i am at this strange point, where i can just totally move on from past experiences and relationships, or try to bridge the gap and reconnect or make peace with people.
i am just not someone who can totally forget everything and pretend it doesn't affect the person i am now, because it really does.
there are really only a few people i don't feel that i need to have any sort of closure with, well one, and i have no issues with that.
but, in other places, i feel friendships and people floating away, and it's now or never to decide what to do.
i'm rebuilding a connection with an old friend, and in this case, she seemed to drift for a long time, and i let her. i was angry for a long time, but i think since my grandma past, i really feel like it is important to take the opportunities we have when we do. she was going through an extremely hard time, and that is ok. i was just hurt that she pushed me away. the most important thing i realized is that there are so many time when she was there, and how many memories we share and that our friendship is a big part of what makes me, me.
anyway, this is sappy but true. don't hold grudges, it hardens your heart.
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ps. you are allowed to have one or two enemies, or just one nemesis. because, sometimes there are people that are bad seeds, and there is just no getting around that.
I know that when I go through rough periods, I pretty much shut people out too. When things are rough you don't want to be a burden, you have little energy or motivation, and it usually has nothing to do at all with how you view the people around you. It's really easy to forgive people for sinking into a hole.