So for anyone who knows me they know how crazy this is. I finally got rid of some of my clothes. I have an abundance of clothes many of which i never wear but feel like I could wear again at some point. Anywho I got rid of like 2 pairs of shorts, some hideous tshirts (one which paul claims is really a dress you just need to belt) and some sweaters. They are definetly some hidous items and some i had a hard time gettnig rid of. There is this blue sweater with a yellow stripe that wasl ike my favorite sweater when i bought it like 8 years ago and have always fought getting rid of it even thoguh i never wear it. I finally did and I am already feeling the post partum depression. Anyway, getting rid of all these clothes (well ike 12 items) makes me need to go shopping. Shopping spree anyone?

One of my best friends Jen has been living in Tennessee with her boyfriend who is in the army. They have been engaged for a few months and were planning a wedding for when he gets back from Iraq in a year. I see her for the first time in months yesterday and she tells me they decided to get married before he left. That is craziness! Now one of my bestest friends is married! How adult like. Too bad he is in Iraq now for a year. THey will have a real ceremony when he gets back but it made sense to get married now I guess because this way she can be contacted and get information about how he is doing. Fiancees aren't allowed that privilege from the military I guess, only wives. Still my friend being married equals insanity. We were prom dates for senior prom, now she is married and I ...well I .... well I . . .

Me and (e:jill) need input here. I think me and (e:jill) are gonna throw her a little wedding party to celebrate. But do you think that is a good idea or will it make her sad because he is not here? What are your ideas? Thanks

Ok, I think i am getting sick of giving so much to stupid Eckerd and feeling no appreciation in return. I work so much and do so much for them and never get anything back. Ok, yes, maybe i get paid more than some of the other people but not by much and I never get any perks for all the extra I do. I can never get time off when i want it. I ended up going in twice during a three day vacation I treid to take because peopel called in and they needed someone. Then on Monday I put in a like 13.5 hour day (830am to 10pm) because it was inventory the next day and we were so not ready. But i can't actually work any overtime anymore cuz coprportae is clmaping down on like wages so they had to cut the extra hours out from soemwhere else, so i asked if i could not come in on Friday since i am working only 5 hrs that day but my boss said no. Instead she like took two hours off of thrudsy, an hour of off tomorow and like an hour off of Friday. That won't feel like anything! How stupid! THe other pharmacist even tried to get her to let me but she woulnd't! I also have so much vacation i have to take soon. And now even wsooner because one girl is going to be on materntiy leave by like mid to late november. Yet there is no time to take because we are short on people. I am just gonna have to be like dude i am tkaing this vacation if you like it or not. I relaly would like to get oct 21-30 off and then i would still need like another 12 hours to take some other time. But at least that owuld take care of most of it. They want me to take like a day here or there but it is not going to happen cuz i will die soon if i don't get more of a breka from that place!! GRRR!!

Me, (e:jill) and Yosepha went to see Just Like Heaven tonight. It is the movie where she is a ghost and he moves into her apartment and the girl is Reese Witherspoon and the guy is Mark Ruffalo. Anyway, I thought it was pretty good, but I am always a sucker for sappy romantic comedyesque movies. It also made me a little nervous though. What if something happens to me, like I could totally get in a car accident or get some disease and I die young and never really fell in love or had a relationship. And what if I am not lucky enough to have a ghost come and haunt me and fall in love with me. Then waht? I don't know why it is affecting me so much but really I am getting nervous that like I will die and not do all these things I want to do. That's it, it's time to get out there and get some stuff done before it's too late!

As you all may know, I was like a DARE posterchild in my day. LIke literally. I got to perform my anti-drunk driving skit at health fairs and stuff and I got to do readings of my What DARE Means to Me Speech at DARE graduation. So going through my old school stuff I found my DARE workbook from fifth grade which included all the DARE awards I won and the essays I wrote for DARE. Anyway I realized what one DARE skill I have done terribly wrong. I may know 30,000 ways to say NO to DRUGS but I had forgotten the number one rule: stay away from people doing drugs, don't associate with situations where you may be tempted. Hmm I think that would mean I would have to drop all my friends and certainly just about all the (e:strip)pers. Hmm I think I am around people doing a drug almost 100% of the time. Sooooo needless to say I guess I am not the DARE superstar I always claimed to be. How sad!

Me and (e:amanda) were discussing how clueless we are about STD's at lunch today.(P.S. Super Veggies from the Juicery are super tasty!) Are some for life? Well I know like AIDS and herpes are for life but are other ones? OR are they curable? And either way, we think we are still a little leary of anyone that has had even a curable one? Right, we should be, right?

So going thorugh my old school papers and stuff I found a journal entry from February 28, 1990 (i think 1990, i was in 2nd grade)

Today is Erin and Melissa's birthday. Erin and Melissa both got a magic nursery baby for their birthday. typeHeretypeHereLast night the war ended. I'm very gald. Last night I went to cub scouts. Tomorow is half a day. ON Saturday my brother will have a sleep out for the homeless. On Sunday is the spaghetti for my brother's scouts. Happy Birthday Erin!


Haha, the end of the war got second billing to magic nursery baby. And was quietly slipped in between birthdays and half-days. I guess it is not so different now as I have pretty much avoided anything about Iraq and instead talk about celebrities and drinking. Maybe my priorities are a little out of whack!

I was thinking lately about how much less I talk to my highschool friends this year than usual. Don't get me wrong I still talk to them a lot, it just seems like this year is different. Maybe because I am not in school and a lot of them are it feels different. Anyway I have a picutre of us at graduation and I had it in this frame about friendship that my friend Drea gave me for graduation and today it fell of my shelf and shattered. What does that mean? Probably nothing but still I didn't like it.

Completely unrelated, I want to go visit (e:maureen) in Boston and my work schedule is being totally uncooperative despite massive vacation I sitll have to use. These stupid Medicare meetings, well actually i love doing these meetings, but there are so many I have to run that I can not find a good time to go to Boston. I am hoping to maybe pull off a miracle and get next week off to go even though I already have off for Thurs-Sat of this week. Also then someone else would have to do the meeting on Wednesday. Also all this medicare info i need to learn comes out on monday so I have lots of paper to read. I don't know , I really want to go though, and this would be the perfect time.

Anyone have any connections at the Adelphia local access channel. We are gonna try and get them to tape one of our Medicare presentations as local channels have done it in other areas and then just like replay oln the channel every once in a while for information. How cool woudl that be? I could be a minor local celeb!

1.Last night I went to a Canisius Young Alumni Happy Hour at McMonkeez. Let me tell you, I don't love anything about Canisius to care to be a partiuclarly active alumni but just wanted to go because for $15 you got three hours of open bar and food and Katrina and (e:Amanda) were going. It was fun to see some people I hadn't seen since school ended. It made me realize how much I miss school because I no longer talk to nearly as many people. Like they weren't really my best friends or anything but at school you have so many acquaintances and people you talk to when you see them or in class and now they are just out of my life and I talk to far fewer people.

2. This relates to the end of number one. I realize I require lots of attention. Well yes and no but I mean like I constantly like to be hanging out with people. I like my alone time every once in a while but in general I like to constantly be wiht someone hanging any free time I have. Lately this has not been happening and it makes me feel very overwhelmed by working a lot and then not hanging out with poeple nearly enough when I am not in work, which leads me to...

3. I really need to just buckle down and maybe try and start dating? Every single one of my good friends is dating someone pretty seriously, with two engagements and a few more that are basically engagements without actually being engaged yet. I am far behind on that curve. Mind you I am only 22 and have no interest in being engaged or anything like that but I really need to put some effort into trying to date. I am very bad at "the chase" as some may call it but I suppose I could try a little harder.

4. Jeers to knowing someone you sorta have been crushing on (hmm how middle school sounding) has a highly communicable STD. That kinda kills any attraction in my book. Still a good time had by all though, some innocent dancing can't hurt , right?

5. Cheers to (e:terry) and (e:flacidness) who are two highly entertaining dancers. I felt like I had a personal dance show for me last night when we went out. They definetly steal the show from anyone else at the bar. They even got me to "bust a move" a little bit. Which is no easy feat, let me tell you. And hoorah to seeing a prostitute, i feel like i never see enough of those around Buffalo.

So me , (e:jill), jim and jeff went to the Screening Room near like the Northtown Plaza last night and it was amazing. It is like this little old movie theater, well it plays movies but you actually sit at tables not like in a theater style. And they play really old movies. We saw "In Like Flint" . It was really good! And the movie is only like $3 and concessions are cheap too and the best part is they sell wine and beer too. I know me and (e:paul) and (e:ladycroft) I think were just talking about beer at movie theaters the other day. Well I have found it. I definelty recommend this place!! We were the only people there and it was fun. I think they are only open a few nights a week. I think they are listed in Artvoice. You can also rent the whole palce fo rlike a party and watch any movie you want on the big screen. I totally wish I knew about it before my slideshow party. It owuld have been so cool to have its premiere there. Maybe if i add a new college and post-college summer part then iw ill premier it there. Or one day my soap opera can be premiered there. ANyway, eveyrone should go there, it is super duper fun!