Some pics I have from this fantastic summer do far. I will try to post more here and keep it updated cuz SO much has happened since my last post. So here's to changing that!

I have been very fortunate to be put in the position that I'm in. Being a "model" id pretty cool and an ego boost to say the least. I'm almost 30 years old and I'm getting opportunities that teenagers and people in there younger 20's get. If anyone really knows me out there they would tell you that I'm not the type to make everything about me and I'm not vain at all. I feel like sometimes when I'm backstage watching these other models behave, that this really isn't for me. I'm not a camera ho and I don't complain nearly as much as the rest of them. To me modeling isn't just about wearing fancy clothes and being worshiped by strangers. It's more of using my unique talent to open minds and do my part in trying to change this world from the norm. I am ever grateful for whats happening in my life right now and especially grateful for the on going support I am getting from my friends. It just reassures me that I am dong the right thing and I wont let them down. the pressure is on but i can take a lot. I'm grabbing this by the horns and running with it. So thank you guys for the love I've gotten from this site the last 8 years or so. You've all seen my crazy ups and downs and you always kept me positive. More shows to come here in Buffalo, Rochester and NYC. Next thing is me nabbing a huge contract. I feel it's coming though. peace and love (e:peeps) xoxoxo

Hope it's a safe one and the weather stays like this for a while. See you all at the party!! xoxoxo

Hey it's been a long time since I've posted. my journals seem to come in waves. But this is something i want to share about 8 years ago My uncle murdered my aunt by stabbing her over a dozen times. Not sure if i posted about that in 04 but the boys certainly remembers that night because i came to them that night upset. I'm constantly trying to put all the terrible things my family does behind me and move forward in my life but it's hard when these issues keep coming back up. My family is NOW raising money to try and get him out of prison saying that it was self defense and I don't believe that. They have raised almost $10,000 to get him a lawyer for a retrial when he was already denied one in 2007. My Aunt then goes and post's on my Facebook page about this pretty much letting my whole circle of friends know about something I only shared with my close friends. This is the VERY reason i dropped my facebook in the first place. A family member posted an article about a family murder. Some things should not be shared like this and I don't know what to do because my family wants me to "like" his page and support their decision of freeing him. I don't support it I feel like he got what he deserved. So how do i tell them that i don't support what they are fighting for and still stay in good graces with my family? We are having a birthday party for an Aunt and I'm SURE this is going to come up.

Its crazy how whenever you're trying to move forward in your life and do something positive, so many other forces try and pull and hold you back. This summer has been the craziest summer i think Ive ever had. Within the last 7 weeks Ive gone to jail, got kicked out of my apartment, fired from my job. On top of all this i have someone i considered a good friend of mine try and throw me under the bus for something i didn't do and try and tell me my best friends were talking shit about me and my situation. Usually i would think there was something wrong with me and I'm pissing the universe off. But then i thought about it after being very upset about this for a few days. Sometimes bad shit happens to good people. I'm one of them and luckily I'm a strong enough person to take all this in stride keep my head up and stay focused. The silver lining in all this is that I am full-filling a life long dream now and it seems to be only getting better. Having that and the support of my best friends through all this has really kept my afloat. So thank you. As far as the other things that are bothering me, I'm removing myself from the situation. I just can't deal with added stress right now because i will break. In all this madness I've dealt with this summer i would still say it was one of the best summers I've ever had. I've tried ALOT of new things and liked ALL of them. xoxoxo Buffalo peace and Love.