After careful consideration and about two weeks of having a boyfriend, i dumped him. I told him that i did not want to hurt him and that we should not see each other they way we were anymore. He just moved to buffalo 4 months ago, and I am moving to new york in about 4 months.Life just ins't fair is it? Other reasons I came to this decision are He was too clingy. He wanted to hang out everyday and everynight. He would say shit like "we should get an apt together." I say "what?" he say "nothing". About five days ago I told him that I did not want him getting too attatched to me and that I am taking things a little slower than he was. three nights ago I told him I wouldn't sleepover and he looked as if he was aout to cry. hmmmmm? So On the two day break I had from him I thought it would be best not to string him along any further. And then there was the walk home last night. I had already given him the news earlier in the day, and he said he would join me on my out to a party. FINE! I mean the boy di buy me flowers twice in the matter of four days. And then I notice VODKA in his hand and he walks into my apratment, swigging it. I offer o.j. He finishes vodka at the party and then he strats hoein to beer. It's time for him to go home. On that lovely that took 25 mins from forest to potomac, I had to latch on to poor boy because he could bearly keep his balance. And thenhe starts trying to change my mind. We would stop on the walk home to have these talks everytime he could get someting out. He say's " You are the shooting star of my life!" and "I believe in love at first sight and that I'm falling in love." And then he starts beating his self up. Saying " I am just a speed bump in your life." And then he tells me "YOu are the man I want to marry." I say back "are you sure about that?" Leaving him ON his porch while he asks me not to leave him. I go back to the party. A half hour later he's bck to the party, and with another beer. I ask "what are you doing" he trys to explain and he can't. 15 minuets later and a little more talking. He walks off the porch and staggers home. NIce boy, sweet boy, fantastic boy, but not my boy. I hope he becomes happy.

Well alright. It's been sometime, it's been some complications,but i'm back and it's about time. I've missed updatig my lovely journal. So for those of you who were reading my journal, I've decided to "total Recall " on whats been happening with me and buffalo since Feburary. There has been other "straight boy" sessions (just one or two, not important, not important darlin). I am still working at panos, which i swear gets crazier and crazier everyday. And for all of you Sahara Grill fans ( the new restaraunt on bidwell and elmwood) Here's something for you to think about ( conversation between Boomsheeka and Bonqipha)

Sheeka: Girl you know some hussie walked all up in panos right, and she went and told the waitress that, her boyfriend got food poisin while he was sittin in his seat, from there food.

Qipha: what?

Sheeka: yeah talkin bout some ' I want this meal takin off my bill, because my boyfriend 's sick off of it'. Bitch they haven't even left the damn restaraunt yet and all of a sudden he sick.

Qipha: say word.

Sheeka: and then she goes on sayin 'I work at sahara grill' and shit and 'we don't treat our customers like this' call my girl who work there a bitch and all that.

Qipha: girl no!!

Sheeka: Yes hoe! So the manager tells this bitch that she will take off her boyfriends meal but don't bring yo ass back in here right. So the skank takes off with out payin her bill.

Qipha: mmm mmm!!!

Sheeka: girlfriend who worked there jotted down that bitches licsence plates number before she left the parkin lot and called the police, HAY HAY!!!!

Qipha: HA AH! can't wang wit it.

Sheeka: So I go there to eat about two weeks later with one of my (straight) boys right. I get my dessert to go. I open it up when I get home and take I spoon full out of the ice cream. I see a black hair before I put the spoon full in my mouth. I pull the blck hair and a long straight black hair comes straight out the middle of the whole scoop girl, and mind you theyonly gave me one scoop, cheap bastards.

Qipha: mmm mmm!!

Sheeka: never going back there again girl.

Something more tramatic tht has happen to me as of recent is....... I have a boyfriend!?!?! He's a red head, whose bought me flowers twice in the matter of four days. Whose adores me and lives four house away frome me (perfect booty call location). Sounds great right? It's what any starting realationship could ask for right? RIGHT! But maybe if he aint sayin shit like "I've searched my whole LIFE for you" Now we are all afraid of the "L" word too soon. But The other "L" word that we are afraid of seems to be a little less perminant than LOVE. LIFE is some deep shit. He also sy's things like "you are music to my soul" mind you I've only known this man a week and we had sex three times before our first date. " The only person I saw at the BAR is YOU" , " i want to get a bigger bed for US" and here's the really creepy one " I used to see you wlking down potomac and I told my roomate as i saw you 'that is the man I want to marry'". Why do theyhave to fallinlove so puick? Now don't get me wrong, I do like the boy, He's sweet, makes me feel special and is GREAT in bed. I told him of my plans to mopve to new york late summer, early fall, and he gets sad and says he wants to stick around. NO NO. So i guess we'll see how this boyfriend thing fits me. I've been asking for one and I finally got one. But I feel I'm lookin for a differnt fit. One thats not too clingy. S0 there it is BOOM BABY!!! news. I've missed updating and since my technical promblem is gone I will do so more often. So untill then Peace and love.

Oh I forgot to mention paris in tornto my first club night in toronto and the breaking of my sexual draught of 4 months. I LOVE TORONTO!!! chow.