Well more like jumping and dancing very sexily, out of a giant cake. After months and months of offering my "talents" I finally got a gig. A co-worker of mine will be getting married this spring and heard of my verbal advertisements of exotic dancing, which I think I do so well but never really tried. The tentative plan is that I am to jump out of this cake brought to you by our own "party city", do my thang and then join some fellow male co-workers and do a full monty sorta thing. So in preperation for this event I have decided and to work out more with senior (e:peep) terry. And eat healthier, I must look fabulous for this night, fabulous I'll tell you. wish me luck!

Once again i have neglected my journal. So to pay some ketchup:
Met a boy, A GAY boy finally just before thanksgiving. we hang out one friday, we hit it off pretty well. He sleeps over and has some of dis chocolate love potion. He goes back home the next morning and we talk everyday on the phone for a week; I think he really likes me. the following friday (one week later) we make plans to hang out again and I even take the following saturday off. He says to me on the phone one friday evening at 8:38 p.m. "I am finishing some stuff here at school, I will see you in a couple of hours or call you. Coo. Do you think the mutha fucka showed up? Hell naw! Haven't seen the mutha fucka since. I called the mutha fucka two mutha fucka times. But the mutha fucka never called me back. I called his mutha fucka mama. She gon act like tha mutha fucka aint home. I started to cus her mutha fuckin ass out! But i don't want no mutha fuckin trouble. I haven't seen the mutha fuck to this day. Fuck that mutha fucka. I have decided that I am just not meant to have a boyfriend as of right now. So now I'm back; Hang on to your husbands ladies! Besides that minor setback the past month has been a lot of fun. The (e:Nparkproject) party was also a lot of fun. YOu guys rock. And there has been so many CHRISTMAS PARTIES, to turn scrooge into a believer, and it's not even new years. Totally stoked about (e:southernyankee)'s arrival. I need a good dance partner. NOw tha I am out of words I will leave you all with this favor, If any of you see a tall thin white boym woth blue eye's and answers to the name "Kyle". walk up to him and ask the mutha fucka for my mutha fuckin money. Because if you are going to take some of this chocolate love potion and then take off like that, I gosta charge ya. Oh and I never called his mother. Happy holidays E peeps stay warm and safe for the season.

yo yo yo who dat be? tk on the m.i.c. It's been along time since i've posted last and things are still getting weirder and weirder. I've had sexual encounters with two straight boys in the last month. First one turned out to be an emotional wreck and believes that he has destroyed other deminsions (LEAPED!) The second straight boy I actually met through his girlfriend. And on our second meeting was awt a party last week and he asks me completely out of no where "tk would you like to come outside and have a "three way kiss" with my girlfriend and I? I said "excuse me?" He said "would you like to come outside and have a "three way kiss" with my girlfriend and I? NOw m,ind you I and really drunk and High, and i never had anyone straight out ask me something like that. So i say "O.K." Trashy as it may seem (which it is ofcourse) I go OUTSIDE with them on the side of old bossy boys house and I am making out with "straight boy" and his girlfriend who I actually know from work. He starts getting touchy feely and goes down my pants, grabs my erect peter weter, bends down and commence oral pleasure. So after a minute or two (because he did do a good job) I made him stop. I told him it was going too far and that I was gong in the house. Ten minutes later girlfriend gets sick and throws up, "straight boy puts her in bed because she wanted to lay down. He follows me outside and we start up where we left off. Once again he start going for the member massage so I stopped him. Said thanks and went back in the house. What is it with these straight boys searcing me out and messing with me? Is it because your girlfriend ain't doing somethin right? Is it you think your really gay? Or is it just sexual?

Today is the day that our dear friend and fellow (e:peep), will be wed. (e:trisha) best of wishes to you and paul (not (e:paul)) and I hope this day will be everything you want and more. Against my wishes, I was not able to jump oiut of the wedding cake as originally planned but thats ok; I didn't want to get frosting on my homemade outfit anyway. As of now (e:terry), (e:matthew), (e:paul), (e:tina), (e:lilho), (e:thesimeon), (e:holly), and my self are getting ourselves all prettied up for this glorious event. We are waitng for diva ((e:southernyankee)) to get here which is no surprise because she is always fashionably late. So for all of you out there please wish our dear friends a beautiful day. love and peace.

-Girl? GIRL!
- What?
- aint that yo man ova there?
- where
- bitch by the bar?
- ah shit naw girl we cut that a long time ago.
- yo sure? I mean girl he keeps lookin ova here for somethin.
- He can look all he wants, he aint gettin non of dis anymo.
- Who dat he wit?
- I can't see her face so I don't know .
- She looks mad busted.
- Oh Wait a minute hoe, you know who dat iz?
- nah
- Girl thats "stank butt"
- Who?
- You know,the muthat fucka who tried to hit this, and then pulled off his pants and unleased the scent that would put Frankienstien in a coma. YOu know STANK BUTT!
- Oh right damn, well what the fuck is he doin wit him.
- Hell I don't know.
-Girl they are over there actin a fool. YOu want me to go over there and yank his ass girl?
- No girl they are here having a good time too let them have fun.
- Hell no he just aint gone play you like that, you should let me go over there and yank his ass.
- Bitch chill I'm lookin good, they obviously look like they just crawled out of the same coffin, leave them alone.
- What chu gone do bitch?
- I'll go over there and say "hey".
- HEY! HEY? bitch hell naw let me go over there and yank her busted ass then.
-........
- I done fought fools way bigger then him, and I got my razor.
-.......
- Cray..... Cray!
- Bitch what?
- YOu want me to go over there and yank his ass?
-naw queefa it's cool. I'lll be right back.

Elmwood ave has made my life 50% easier. because they decided to open up the new laundry mat that is next to the liqour store, thats right off bird. I used to use the laundry mat on auburn, but now that this one just opened up and they are making it pretty inside I will use this one. and it's right around the corner form my housee and across the street from work. I love the fact that I don't drive. Oh and the dryers are 25 cents for ten minutes iand auburns dryers are 25 cents for every eiight minutes. yes I can be a cheap bastard. And did anybody know that playboy are going to have nude pictures of video game girls? I mean centerfold and all. Playboy will be exposing Mileena from mortal kombat (who used to be my favorite character), some bitch from the video game "blood rayne" and some bitches from "dead or alive". I never played blood rayne or deade or alive, and I am not too interested in seeing them nude. So playboy is now not only reaching out to the lonely men of the world who are infacuated with celeberties and silicone breast, they are now reaching out to the lonely men of the world who are also video game freaks. I wonder if they will have lara croft (the tomb raider girl) on an issue. hmmmmmmmm? and i have to say rachel i also think the "clash of the titans" is a damn good movie. I wouldn't pass it up either ;)

As a Panos employee, I do too vote nay. I haven't lived in buffalo long, but one of the things that attracts me so much to it, are the beautiful houses and buildings.And as you can tell this one means a lot to the people of buffalo. I have actually been in the house, and it is just as cool inside. The person who lived there didn't really do much for the place, but you could just tell that before it iwas something cool. I really hate to use the word cool but again I had no idea what that place was untill recent. I am unable to boycott panos since it is my source of encome. So weather or not this shit go down, I will still be alive, and working. Chow for now.

whats been going on with me lately. hmmmmm. Well My weeks seem to be just flying by, I have been spending an exburate amount of time in the house, on the couch if I am not working. Going out less, working more, sleeping more, screwing less (ha ha). Old bossy boy has a new GIRLFRIEND now (flacid earthworm guy, refer to "emergency" journal). She's nice, pretty, too bad she dosen't know about his little problem right? Noooooo thats cruel. I think he is actually fucking with my job too. It's amazing the lengths someone would go to get a little attention. Anywho he's leaped. Brotha on the other hand has just bought himself a house in amherst, so I will be popping in for a visit there frequently. *kiss kiss* I have decided to join bikram yoga in the begining of october. I haven't done yoga in about two months. And I have been drinking a lot of labatt blue the past couple days. Motha, brotha, uncle are all still in jail. GOt a new pair of pants (girls pants); they are gray and pin striped, very very sexy pair of pants. Oh and I got a hat to match. I am actually thinking aout wearing it to trisha's wedding reception. hmmmmm. I went out lastnight and did my "make a man happy" dance, and uncloseted some boys. *hee hee* So in a nutshell I am doing fine. I'm keeping it real and keeping them humpin. muah baby.

Ther has been a whole lot of attention surrounding panos this past week. Artvoice no longer gives them news paper after bashing them in an article last week. But now pano is pissing more people off; the public. Not the majority, but a select few who loves the history of this city,; and those who are just told to hate them. This morning while I was working, I over heard a conversation between two employees, stating that there will be protesters today outside panos. Protesting against Panos. I diidn't know why at first but now I do. It involves his expansion plan, which will include tearing down the house next door, to make more room in the restaraunt, and a bigger parking lot. When word got around, It drew ALOT of negative attention towards panos. It comes to find out that the house next door to panos is very important to the citizens and to the city. I am not too sure of what that is though.So what started out as four 13 year old kids, standing out front telling people not to go to panos "because he is tearing down that building". Ended in a block full of people with picket signs, shouting things such as "shame on you pano" and "don't tear it down!". Menwhile we are working as usual, in fact it was a VERY busy day. The protest lasted about an hour or so, and then once channel 4 news left, it was back to normal for about 15 minuets. And then the phone started ringing off the hook, It was still busy and another news team came. There were some kids outside protesting the protesters. They had signs such as "greeks are people too", " I have no place to park" (I don't think this boy drives) and "don't COCK block panos". hee hee. And since we are on the subject of panos, let me just tell you, i feel a war coming on. Somebody in there is about to get custed the fuck out!

Starting yestereday, I have claimed this week for me, "my down week" . Not because i am upset and feeling bad, quite the contrary i feel really good. I say "my down week" because I am going to spend WAY less money, by not going out to ANY bars. This way I can go shopping this weekend. i went out friday and saturday night, had a blast friday, and notso much as a spark saturday. I went to trisha's party and we painted downtown, and allen red. Eveyone who was there, were fabulous and we were all lookin good. BOO YAH! Saturday night I weent to the underground again, and was not thoroughly entertained by the "performers". But I will sound like a bitch if I talk about it even more. i will mention one thing, I do not find ANYTHING sexy about a topless man with tight pants walking back and fourth, LIP SINGING..... SEAL - "KISSED BY A ROSE" If you want to entertain me you better bust out in song, and really sing that fucker. Dont lip sing anyhting that can be sung just as easily. It takes away from the feel when we can just see the boredom on your face as you lip sing a song and try to take it seriously, the whole three minutes and thirty seconds, which feels like three hours to you feels that way to me too. But hey some people like it, he even has fans. Obviously people who are closed minded and entertained too easily. Any body can do that. And I wont even get on some of the drag acts there we've all seen bad ones. nuf said about that. i am going to panos today and pick up my cd walkman which my boss has chosen to kidnap. So I am going to show up to his mutha fuckin job and blow that bitch up if he refuses again damnit. I'll go in there like "can I speak to *&%# please?" And ask him nicely for it, and let me tell you if I don't get it, there's gonna be some smoke in the city. Nah I'm joking. I do need my cd walkman to run my errands tomorrow that I have been putting off too long. But I am still not going to La Luna though. i didn't go last week and he had the nerve to question me sayin "where wre yoyu lasnight?" I said "home" which was the truth. and then he saw me out Friday night when I was with trisha and the rest of the e peeps. Then the next day comes to me at work sayin "you looked really good lastnight". I said "yeah........it was a long night". And left it at that. I don't feel bad becausses he sould of known better. You pass this up once for some bullshit and I'm gone. Anywho thats all for now, pray for me so I don't get sucked into a bar untill saturday. peace and love. and look out the buffalo news are onto us.