Starting yestereday, I have claimed this week for me, "my down week" . Not because i am upset and feeling bad, quite the contrary i feel really good. I say "my down week" because I am going to spend WAY less money, by not going out to ANY bars. This way I can go shopping this weekend. i went out friday and saturday night, had a blast friday, and notso much as a spark saturday. I went to trisha's party and we painted downtown, and allen red. Eveyone who was there, were fabulous and we were all lookin good. BOO YAH! Saturday night I weent to the underground again, and was not thoroughly entertained by the "performers". But I will sound like a bitch if I talk about it even more. i will mention one thing, I do not find ANYTHING sexy about a topless man with tight pants walking back and fourth, LIP SINGING..... SEAL - "KISSED BY A ROSE" If you want to entertain me you better bust out in song, and really sing that fucker. Dont lip sing anyhting that can be sung just as easily. It takes away from the feel when we can just see the boredom on your face as you lip sing a song and try to take it seriously, the whole three minutes and thirty seconds, which feels like three hours to you feels that way to me too. But hey some people like it, he even has fans. Obviously people who are closed minded and entertained too easily. Any body can do that. And I wont even get on some of the drag acts there we've all seen bad ones. nuf said about that. i am going to panos today and pick up my cd walkman which my boss has chosen to kidnap. So I am going to show up to his mutha fuckin job and blow that bitch up if he refuses again damnit. I'll go in there like "can I speak to *&%# please?" And ask him nicely for it, and let me tell you if I don't get it, there's gonna be some smoke in the city. Nah I'm joking. I do need my cd walkman to run my errands tomorrow that I have been putting off too long. But I am still not going to La Luna though. i didn't go last week and he had the nerve to question me sayin "where wre yoyu lasnight?" I said "home" which was the truth. and then he saw me out Friday night when I was with trisha and the rest of the e peeps. Then the next day comes to me at work sayin "you looked really good lastnight". I said "yeah........it was a long night". And left it at that. I don't feel bad becausses he sould of known better. You pass this up once for some bullshit and I'm gone. Anywho thats all for now, pray for me so I don't get sucked into a bar untill saturday. peace and love. and look out the buffalo news are onto us.

I woke up this morning feeling good and walked out the house lookin good. I got paid and I had the whole beautiful day a head of me. I felt good because i told my boss that Iwould not work today from four to eleven. and then he schedules me next week for that time, aint that a bitch. I know what satine from the moulin rouge when she says "there may come a time when a heart felt employer thinks your awful nice, but get that ice or else no dice." But you know those are the webs we weave. Anywho another reason i was really happy today walking down the beautiful elmwoods strip, is that there were no KIDS! All those fukers were in school; and every place I went was in and out. I am now getting ready to go to trisha's party, against my wishes though I will not be jumpoing out of the cake as orginally planned, but thats alright. I still have the wedding reception to do that *wink wink*. Thats all for now ta ta loves and keep it real funky!

fuck what chu heard; Men are the SAME! I am saying this because I am drunk and I am pisse off! I am listening to Tilly and the Wall and I am feeling optimistic, which is good for me right now. I have been to a couple of gay bars tonight, and the boys are all out to look for one thing; and we all know what that is right? I have one who "claims" he has connections at one ba,r and that I could get in FREE and can hang with him in the dj's booth. And then there's another one who likes me but is willing to pick up another guy in your face, and then have the nerve to invite him to hang out with you and him, thinking that there might be some kind of monagsea twa between you three. ummm NO! That shit is done and i am not down! You have fun with your boy and try to apologize for it later, but I am not hearin it. I've had this same song and dance before, and lets just say it's PLAYED OUT! Don't come to me trying to "explain" what actually went on that night. Just take you'r quick, ugly piece of ass and leave me alone. shit it's hard to try and keep any kind of relationship nowadays isn't it? I still live on and another man will cum for you. So i hope the booty, booty, booty is good for you tonight. night, night lovey dear! muah! ;)

- Thank you for calling rite aid pharmacy department this is Agnus how may I help you?
- Yes, Agnus my name is Kolisha and I have an emergency I hope you can help me with.
- ok I will do my best, what seems to be the problem?
- I'm in the bedroom with my man you know and we are going at it, doiing a little foreplay before the penatration initiation, and i'm ready, I'm ready to this party started, you know I'm feeling good, I'm naked my tities, he's suckin them, he done gave my fish a little tickle...
- mam don't you think that's a little too much information? would you mind getting to the point here?
- oh yeah yeah I'm sorry you probably very busy agnus and I don't want to hold you up any longer, but you gotta listen to this shit. so any way my man has me in here I'm feeling all wonderful. I pull down his pants, and let me tell you I didn't know weather to laught or grab a fish hook, hook that mutha fucka up and throw it in the lake you know what I'm sayin?
- no I can't say that I do mam
- child the man not only is not packin, but the little thing is not at attention, you know what I'm sayin? TIN HUT!
- no I can't really say that I understand you miss koleslaw is it?
- Agnus my girl Lets be honest here, you white right? and so you are used to these little white men with this problem right?
-ummmmmmm?
- Anyway whats really a trip is after I uncovered his little flacid earthworm, the mutha fucka kept kissin me and shit like it's alright. aint that a bitch? Like he dosen't know his dick is little. So i asked him, are you ok? he says "yeah we're having FUN right?" i want to be like hell naaah. So now I'm mad; and I would like to know as my girl help me out here. Tell me something i should do to make this mans dick wake up and stand tall. Is there like some kind of house hold cream I coiuld use, like some starch or some old fish grease?
- um no, the thing we would use for that is a little pill called viagra.
- yeah I heard of that shit. that shits too expensive. Do you have anything more bootleg?
- bootleg?
- shit now he done got off now, nevermind agnus. I would like to thank you for being absolutely no help.

Hello my pony pony poo. what is going on with you? my money makey makey you, to do a dancey dancey doo. To see your tickey tickey too, and do the shakey shakey shoo. My pony pony poo, why you blackey blackey blue? I touched your cakey cakey coo, and made you achey achey ooh. Oh my pony pony poo, i want to takey takey you, to my rackey rackey roo, and lackey lackey you!

thanks to the keen eyes of matthew, my precious jacket was recovered. Thank you and lets party again!

Another great thing about great parties is remembering things from that night, and you all have laughs and everyone has different stories about that same party that they remember. I remeber NOW that I don't have my blue jean retro jacket. and that sadenss me. And when I get sad, people die. So yeah.......

Well well well, If you were not at the BASH lastnight you missed out! There were socializing, boozin, dancin, lovin, laughin, mettin, schmokin, passing out on cars, "flaling", eatin, and just utter utter good times. Feel good time was in full affect. There were friends, not so good friends, ex boys, new boys, bumpin girls, birthday boyz, navy boyz. So yes jacksmack it was "flash light, neon lights," Party lights, ALL NITE. People lookin tight, sooo nice, thats what I like. Trisha THANK YOU for the dances. We lit the place a fire. I was there From start untill the very end. So to all thel one hundred and four of you who were in the place to be last night Thank you, and keep on rockin in the free world!

First i would like to give thanks to everyone who were around on my birthday. You have given me the best birthday ever. After a whole week of sex, drugs and rock and roll, my body is paying the toll. Dancing sleep less nights and friends makes my world go round. i did not get home saturday untill 9 the next morining. my cousin was home by then, asleep on my couch. I got juicy details and a new boy trouble. Something about sitting in the backseat of a car and the person in the passenger side is facing and gropeing you. But thats as far as it went. Sex with two different people in one week will not sit well with me. And i'm sure i will be seeing this boy again, and maybe nextt time he will get lucky. Rachel I must tell you my total surprise when you guys brought out the cake; it was a very special thing to me and I nearly cried. Southern yankee, thanks for the cd and the pretty, wrapping paper. Matt, paul and terry thanks for the jim bean black, although I don't know whre it is right now. And thanks for the fun at underground. Fredia, Thank you for being there. Jill it's ALWAYS a pleasure hanging around you. You can seriously bring cheer to a funeral. Holly thanks for the ride in your car. I look forward to our next celebration. Untill then I must sleep. Good night to you all. muah!

August 14th.I'm 21 years gold it's time for me to start drinking! :)