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12/25/03 04:22 - ID#22365

2003

Now with the year of 2003 coming to an end, I must say this. The year of 2003 has been by far the best year of my life. I have been through so much and met so many people, which I am deeply grateful for. This has been my healthiest year. I tried many new things this year that just made 2003 that much more exciting. Thank you, all of my old and new friends and I anticipate what the next year will bring to us.
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12/25/03 04:08 - ID#22364

So this is....

"And so this is christmas, I hope you have fun"- lennon

Well in ways i am glad I didn't come home last night and i waited untill today. Although I was sick, I still had a good time with my family. I slept so late that I missed the opening of presents and dinner. And thats only because my family eats dinner about 1:00 pm. Weirdos!
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12/24/03 05:50 - ID#22363

Christmas eve Love

It's christmas, and I have not had one happy moment with the ones I love the most. Forgiveness is a key to happiness. Some people find that harder to deal with then others. My brother has so much anger in his heart. He dosen't forgive my mother for all the pain she caused in OUR childhood. The drinking,the drugs, the hitting, has happened to both of us. I was there. So why can I find it easier to let go then him. My heart aches, coming here I fear was a mistake. Away is where i belong, I have moved on and backtracking, only brings me back down. My father is "a man of god" and one night he chased me out of our house, and screamed that he would kill me. He wasn't drunk, he dosen't drink. He has turned his back just eyvonne (mommy) did. Even more so because, he still hasn't realized it yet. My mother has come to terms that because of the heavy drug and alcohol abuse, that she lost everything. Her husband, money,house, children and mind. what she needs now is support.Being angry at her will only encourage her to continue her life style. I am proud of her. This past year she went to a centre in Penn. And she told her girlfriend she didn't want to use drugs anymore and that her and she should part. Now maybe that will only last a little while, but the fact that she made that decision is mopre important then ever. So this christmas, I bought her a gift. She deserves it. I hope that it will inspire her to kepp at the good things and maybe be on the right trac for the rest of her short life. That to me is the meaning of giving, and thats why I give. I am sorry to put this on here and it's christmas eve, but it was on my mind. So I say to you, if you haven't yet don't dwell on the bad this holiday season. If oyu look around oyu will see so much joy in everyone else that i hope it inspires you to keep a cool head. Even if you don't celebrate the season. Others do and others need you. Happy holidays and make someone happy this week.

tk
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12/23/03 02:11 - ID#22362

what now?

Well I have been in niagara falls all of one day, and i find out that my roomate wants to move back to the falls. What the hell? she's a litle spoiled girl who can't handle that being on her own. Which means sometimes you are going to be poor. Comes wit da tertoi hunny. I told her that i will not be moving with her and she will be on her own, cause Dinah is not moving to the falls. So i don't know whats going to happen now i really wish she would have thought of this before we moved into this new apt about a month ago. But nothing is set in stone. Another thing that caught me by surprise is my newly found lesbian cousin is joining the army. She feels like a loser I guess and she complains about not having money a lot. MY friend tyshieka but we call her "wee wee" dropped out of high school, got her GED and joined the ARMY also. WHAT THE HELL! culture shocks all over this biotch and i haven't even seen my family yet.
I was also searched out last night by an ex, who thought that i would be in town so he went to Denny's to look for me, and guess what? I was there. He came up laughing and acting like i was the idiot. Um hello you are the one whose stalking? Stupid bitch.
I saw a woman i used to go to church with when i was child, and i said hi to her. She asked "how is your relationship with christ?" I shrugged and told her that i talk to it every now and again. Some people never change. I cannot wait untill i come back to the strip. I am going to be back much sooner then i initially planned. It's soooooooo boring here and i have some things i have to take care of ASAP that i have been putting off for a while. So christ IF you are up there and listening. Thank you. they think my "relationship" might not be as strong as it was before but, we know better. Love to all, and you all be safe.


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12/22/03 04:43 - ID#22361

I am no soldier

Being pretty much raised in the ghetto most of my life when i first moved to the falls, and my immediate family not having much money, I was always raised to think that i had a choice on what i decided to do with myself once i was "grown". My choice was to go to college after high-school to become a therapist. And since my father didn't have enough money to put me through college, someone suggested to me that i join the Air-force, because they would pay for my education. I declined after thinking about it for a few days, because i hate war, and i just plainly didn't want to join the armed forces. I felt there was no reason for me to join the air-force just because that was my ONLY alternative to make a better life. So instead i applied for finiacial-aid and have been taking classes at three different colleges and university and have not had to pay a dime at any time. Infact financial aid provided me with enough aid that i even had money to spend on a daily basis. I may have had the same luxury by joning the air-force, but joining I felt wasn't the way out for me.
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12/22/03 02:22 - ID#22360

my song of the week

The reason i do a song of the week, is because it's sort of my anthem for the week, the way my mood is and i can always find songs that follows that certain mood i am in. so my song this week is a fun hyper song
"woo hoo" by the 5,6,7,8's

you can hear a sample of it if you click my user image (mystique)
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12/22/03 02:14 - ID#22359

the candles

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each one has a meaning

the seven principles of kwanzaa

Umoja (OO-MO-JAH) (black candle) Unity stresses the importance of togetherness for the family and the community, which is reflected in the African saying, "I am We," or "I am because We are."

Kujichagulia (KOO-GEE-CHA-GOO-LEE-YAH) (red candle) Self-Determination requires that we define our common interests and make decisions that are in the best interest of our family and community.

Ujima (OO-GEE-MAH) (green candle) Collective Work and Responsibility reminds us of our obligation to the past, present and future, and that we have a role to play in the community, society, and world.

Ujamaa (OO-JAH-MAH) (red candle) Cooperative economics emphasizes our collective economic strength and encourages us to meet common needs through mutual support.

Nia (NEE-YAH) (green candle) Purpose encourages us to look within ourselves and to set personal goals that are beneficial to the community.

Kuumba (KOO-OOM-BAH) (red candle) Creativity makes use of our creative energies to build and maintain a strong and vibrant community.

Imani (EE-MAH-NEE) (green candle)Faith focuses on honoring the best of our traditions, draws upon the best in ourselves, and helps us strive for a higher level of life for humankind, by affirming our self-worth and confidence in our ability to succeed and triumph in righteous struggle.

3 red, 3 green, 1 black

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12/22/03 02:01 - ID#22358

the week of christmas

being that it is the week of christmas, I will be going to niagara falls to visit family and friends. My friends are also coming from other cities. I talked to a couple of them briefly and they all want to know, how i like buffalo, and how is it treating me. hmmm.....just fine. I will admit i have had some very interesting times hear that will for sure make them chuckle. Still jobless, thats kind of depressing. I will be in another world when i am there, because it is a different world. But all and all will be super fun. I am not really looking forward to christmas. I am more looking forward to it being over. I do on the other hand want to go to my aunts Kwanzaa celebration, I haven't been in a couple of years and i really would like to go now. I will also be seeing the new lord of the rings in theatre. There will be lots of fun had. There will be no: orgies, big monster peter weter's, parties, tons of drinking, one night stands, at all this week. None of it's planned anyway. I will run into ghosts, and i can't really say if it will be a bad thing or not. but anyway i wish you all happy holidays, which ever it is you celebrate, wish me luck and i will do the same for you. peace and love

tk
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12/21/03 08:54 - ID#22357

perfect

he's not to slim, he's not to short, he's not to tall, he smiles, he sings, he dances, he's pretty, he's intelligent, he cries, he's fit, he's fun, he's not to dark, he's not to light, he talks, he listens, he cares, he holds, he does not doubt, he has grace, he has charm, he has style, he has spunk, he's funky, he's fluid, he changes, he's patient, he's exposed, he's confident, he does not fear, he loves, he's god, he's.......perfect.
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12/20/03 11:21 - ID#22356

RECRUITER!

I recruited but i am not sure if she was able to add her new entry because it said something funky,paul i think you should check her shit out and see why she was unable to add an entry but i added one just fine. user name "thiswoman tina"
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