01/15/12 06:40 - ID#55924

world without love

Since this new year has started I have been making it my point to make positive changes in my life and i have been doing just that. But when all i witness and hear about is Hardship and violence and people hurting others around me in my family and friends my heart continues to break. And it is really hard to keep a positive outlook on life anymore. I wish everyone was as committed as me to spread love and make others happy. But that's clearly not the case. Now i know that drinking will not help any of the situations but i feel as if i don't have a choice. I need an escape. The Mayans say this is the last year we all have. That's how i treat everyday i live and i realize that everyday we are on this earth is a blessing. I'm not sure if i can stay in this life without love anymore I'm at a breaking point now and don't know what i can do or how to help it. And i want so badly to do that. So I'm cracking open my first beer of the day and just be for now. Goodnight all.

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Location: Buffalo, NY
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01/13/12 10:55 - ID#55901

Well thank you Paul

Ain't this some shit..... I was totally ok with 30 and 40 degree temps. But NO somebody had to demand snow and now we got it in abundance with ugly high speed winds. Boy I tell you if it wasn't for me going to school now and trying to settle down I would be omw back to new orleans til about march lol. This shit sucks and I have errands to run today. Errands with no car. Paul I hope you are happy sir for some reason you were heard for some reason. I'm about to go get my cuddle buddy. Stay warm or stay inside if you can everybody.

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Location: Buffalo, NY
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01/06/12 07:17 - ID#55860

spoon fed mike

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Location: Buffalo, NY
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01/04/12 12:55 - ID#55848

Boo :(

My stomach hurts, im kinda pissed off wondering and its ugly cold outside. woe is me.... My Red Flag has gone up

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Location: Buffalo, NY
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01/01/12 05:56 - ID#55832

Happy New Year!!!

i just wanted to say that to all the (e:peeps). so great seeing everybody again. I have video of Mike being fed with the Big spanking tool, i just don't know how to put it on here....still. :) Anyway Happy New year Everyone i hope its a great year for everybody. xoxoxo

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Location: Buffalo, NY
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12/30/11 11:33 - ID#55814

folded me over like a Quesadilla

I was told by (e:paul) to coin that phrase. So here it is and yes he (not (e:paul)) sure did!!! Ive never had that done to me before, had my hands, head and my feet pressing up against the same wall and he went to town!!! use your imagination ;) its hot!!!! Quesadilla style!!!! my whole back and neck was in pain for two days. But will i do it again? hell yeah!! just got to limber up first. On another note, it was really awesome being around my friends a havent seen in years last night. It was like 2004 all over again. Love you guys xoxoxo

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Location: Buffalo, NY
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12/21/11 11:16 - ID#55780

So sick.....

There's only so much a son can take. You always hear that no matter what youre supposed to love your mother. When is it ok to stop loving her because it's hurting you too bad? I know it's getting old but it dosent make it hurt any less. The way I see it is she dosent care enough about me or herself to do the right things and stay out of trouble. Even if she has my support and love. I guess it's not enough for her :( Its the worst feeling knowing that the ONE Person who's supposed to love you unconditionally, dosent care enough to be apart of your life. I'm so sick of going through this and don't know what to do. If this was anybody else I would've have wrote them off a long time ago. But I can't because she's my fucking MOTHER!!! I really wish this would stop. I wouldn't wish this on my enemy, no one should have to go through this. For those of you who have the pleasure of having your mother in your life, even if she is annoying. Hug her and cherish those moments. Because we aren't all fortunate to have some of the simplest things.

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Location: Buffalo, NY
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12/14/11 08:00 - ID#55738

Christmas wish.....

I'm not really into christmas like I used to be as a child, but I do like the spirit and energy it brings. In true form I'm not going to spend christmas with my family, instead I will be spending it with friends doing non-christmas things. I haven't been home for the holidays in three years and don't plan to change that this time, because my family ALWAYS piss me off. So this year my only christmas wish is to be happy and that everyone I'm around I know and love to do what truly makes them happy. Happy Holidays to you all, please stay out of the fashion outlets in niagara falls. I'm sick of the shoppers and the christmas music.......fucking silver bells.

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Location: Buffalo, NY
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12/10/11 05:43 - ID#55690

It's on!!!

This is what I'm going out with tonight? Line up boys!!!

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Location: Buffalo, NY
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10/13/11 04:34 - ID#55289

Ok gross out for some....

This is my michael jackson hand!!! It's healed I'm just waiting for my color to come back. The good thing is I can use my hand now, so I'm back to drawing with my mummy hand and some sewing. Makes me happy.