So every year on Fourth of July, me and my family along with my mom's cousins family which is quite large all go to my grandma's to celebrate her bday. It is actually my grandpa's bday on the fourth of july but he has been dead for about 8 years and my nonna's bday is June 29 so we always celebrated it then at her house. This year obviously my nonna is no longer around so there was no reason to get together and Paul was out of town, so it was just me , my mom and my dad having a barbq at the house. We sat around this tiny little table in the backyard and ate. It was nice but I miss the big family gatherings. I wish I had a bigger family that did more family things. I miss my nonna a lot!!! We went to the cemetary today to see her and my nonno , it was weird because they still ahven't put up the death date on her stone and so it looks the same as when I used to go just to see my nonno. It was kinda weird.

After the family BBQ it was Anne Maloy's surprise B-day. I think she was truly surprised and enjoyed it. It was fun even if it inclued (e:MK) screaming out at the top of her lungs "Mike is the worst lay ever" she was referring to my handling of a flower necklace but still! Also, one of my least favorite people in the world was there, but he was tolerable.

And then the fireworks. I love fireworks more than anything else! They are so fun. LIke I am glad they aren't everyday though but I love them on the 4th especially. Did you know some pepole don't go to watch fireworks on the 4th? How crzy is that? We went to Niawanda Park. I had never been there for the fireworks before, we alwasy watched them from my grandmma's porch at Lassalle or went to Riverside. They were nice and itw as weird becasue they continteud like after the end, every few minujets another one would go off. It was fun! I love them. I tried to take some pcitures of them with my phone but it didn't go so well. I remember my nonna used to love firewroks espeically because with her eye problems any light was magnified like 10times and super cooler so to her the fireworks were even way better!!!! OK I Hope everyone had a good time today!!!!

oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY (e:Amanda) , it is now 7 minutes into your birthday and I Hope it is a good one so far. !

First seriously I cannot start my day until I take a benadryll. Like every morning I wake up and just like am not allive until it kicks in. I am addicted to the non-watery itchy eyes and non-runny nose it gives me!!!

Secondly, last night I went to the gas station/convenient store by the KFC kinda on Elmwood at like 1 am because I really wanted a fountain drink Cherry Coke and they had them which was a nice surprise! Anyway on my way out a drunk/high/possibly homelless but prolly not man asked me for 50 cents and I had 70 cents change so I gave it to him evne though I know it would not be used for anything actually good fro him, but eh that's his choice. Anyway, he's like thanks , let me give you a hug, and I said "Um no that's ok" becasue anyone who knows me knows I don't like hugs in general, but espeically ones from drunk/high/possibly homeless men. Needless to say he gave it to me anyway and was like "haha he was like no thinaks, I don't want a hug while he did it" so mocking me and hugging me. Well let me just say that next time someone asks for money I wil llay out the no hugging rules at the begining of the transaction.

So I am staying at the mansion for the week while the boys are on vaca. Quite exciting except I've already had a few run ins with big bugs and spiders. I seriuosly need to get over my fear of them, they cannot keep me from entering rooms and taking showers. It is out of control, how much I let the bugs control my life. It is time to take that life back. PMT left this place a mess. Last time I stayed here it was all nice and there were notes everywhere about what to do, this time there is garbage on the floor and tons of dirty dishes and just messes. It's stll good though. If you happen to be in the Lynwood neighboorhood, feel free to stop by. Unless you are a burglar. I totaly thought there was a killer in the house cuz the door mysteriously opened while i was in the other room but it hi nk it was just the wind...yeah, yeah, the winds..that is what i will tell myself, while i pee my pants in fear. Wish me luck in overcoming the burglars and bugs.

On another not Brian the intern at work, today was his last day. It is very sad becuase me , him and michele are like just have so much fun otgether and see each other everyday basically and now he is moving to Ithaca. I thin ki will prolly write more about this in another entry.

So I was at the Gap at the Boulevard Mall today and all of a sudden the fire alarms go off. And a few people walk out and then the rest of us are like "do we have to leave?" and the workers are basically "eh, i don't know". So I decide to ignore the fire alarm and continue shopping along with a few other shoppers. Yes, I decided the risk of maybe there is a real fire about to tear through this place was well worth it to be able to continue to look through the bin of 3.99 belts (but I did fine one nice orange one I liked). Needless to say the fire never arrived but it just makes me question my priorities and train of thought. What do you think? Would you leave the clearance section and risk someone else taking that one thing you want orrisk your life in order to keep a bargain? Hmm

Wow, went to the pink for AJay's going away party and despite all my friends ditching me it was still really fun. I never drink beer really but last night I got so wasted so fast from it. I seriously didn't know what hit me so I ask to be excused from any unfortuante drunken behavior. It all started with Terry's great idea to just buy beer at the convenient store and drink some fast before we go in the bar and snekaing more in , in our pants. It was a great plan to save money excpet I thnk I got so durnk that i still spent as much money still at the bar and just drank in excess in waht I ever relaly should have. Me and Terry got on the top 10 list of the picture matching game which was nice since me and jill and teres used to occupy like all then of those top spots from one long night of playing but all our scores have been erased or beaten since then. Anyway this morning I defienlty felt eveyrthing I drank last night. I had not felt that bleh aftyer a night of drinking in a long time. And it was weird though because I couldn't seleep either, like i was rested but gorggy rosoemthing, like i woke up at 9:30 so and couldt sleep.

Met some new epeeps, particulary (e:uncutsaniflush) and his wife lee who his hopefully a soon to be (e:peep). They were fun and I was impressed by their cool new house. Well as impressed as I could be at the time in my state. It was also nice to talk to (e:springfaerie) again and to see (e:jasonsback) and (e:ajay) for the first times. Hopefully the next (e:party) will be much more well attended. Ok that's all for now...chadi

Ahh now i am freaked out. My tv just turned off but like nothing else did so it wasn't something to do with the power and like it runed back on when i pressed the power on the remote so it is not that the tv went out. That is freaky! I was not near the remote at all so it wasn't liek i acicdently touched it. Ok i will not be lseepnig tonight!

So tomorrow night before AJay's going away party me some other (e:strip)pers will be hanging out at Thursday Square...(e:amanda) (e:mk) and (e:maureen) are all expected to show for some pre-party fun at the square...hope to see some of you there.

I just wrote a super long entry about missing Jill, Teres and MK. And how my freinds here are wonderful but certain things are just missing and irreplaceabel with them gone and that I don't know how I am going to make it through the rest of the summer without random walks down elmwood, trips to Wegmans, and games of Frisbee. It will be sorely missed. MK luckily will be home soon and will make me feel better, because frankly I feel like crap lately....well this is much shorter sinc emy computer froze and i didn't feel like rewriting eveyrthign i wrote which stinks because it was very nice i think. haha that sounded full of myself. Well i hope eveyrone , everywhere is doing good.

P.S. I saw the Rent trailer and it looks really good.

After someone mentioned some old estrip entries of mine the other day I decided to go back and read my old entries. WOw I used to write so much, how crazy. LIke every detail of what I did. Anyway, I recommned everyone goes back and reads them you will porlly find things you have forgotten about. I definetely did.
Some things I found were the entry about jill almost stepping in a dirty diaper on elmwood and Allen and many entriesabout my love of Mocha Jet Cafe's at Coffee&. I miss those a lot. I hadn't thought about them in forever but now I crave one like i havn'et craved anything in a long time. Iit is a nice recap of the last three years. So much has happened and I didn't realize I had recorded ita ll here. Its not as thrilling as looking back through actual things like mementos and photos but it is still really fun> DO IT, look back, its fun and entertating.

OMG has anyone else seen previews or read about the new show Welcome To the Neighboorhood or something like that? It is a rich, white suburban neighboorhood and they pick one family out of a group of as they term it "culturally diverse" families that is then allowed to live in their neighboorhood. Can you believe this is real? Like the other families wouldn't be allowed to live there even if they could afford it or something! How terrible does this sound in terms of like social conscience? But how good does it sound in terms of great reality television. Like I seriuosly can't imagine what kinds of tests and stuff they are going to put them through? It all sounds too weird to me....

So i think we will lose our canisius email addresses soon since school is over and i graduated so today I did the daunting task of deciding what emails to save and forward to my aol account or print out. I had saved about over 600 emails or something crazy like that but I have parred it down to the 80 or so I really want. I prolly could get rid of some more but I have a hard time getting rid of stuff. It took forever but it feels like an accomplishment to have it done. So long tons of useless cnaisius correspondence and information..