Lauren Miller, a sophomore at Fredonia College died this weekend in a car accident. While I never knew her, any friend of Marykate's must be a great person. It is terribly tragic for anyone so young to die. Please keep her in your prayers. To Everyone at Fredonia, especially Marykate, my heart goes out to you and while I know I can't possibly understand what you guys are going through, I'm thinking about you.

Oh my gosh! I love the song Have you ever seen the rain? It is really good. I had heard it before but forgot about it and then it was in some tv show today and it was so good!!! I am working steadily on my soap opera scripts so as soon as me and MK figure out a way to transfer stuff from my computer to hers and then onto a website, we will be the best online soap opera ever. And I can't wait to tape it. I'm always looking for actors/actresses. Well really who knows when I am going to tape but if/when I do, I will need lots of people. So I was thinking of taking this online journal in a new direction. I was thinking of being the elmwoodstrip.com gossip columnist. Sort of like the Dorothy Lucey of Good Day LIve but instead me and elmwoodstrip.com. WWe'll see. I could keep everyone up to date on the latest celebrity happenings and local going ons. Hmm but for today I'll still keep it as about my ramblings. Last night me and Jill had a hankering for some Tully's but htey were closed due ot water damage or something. It was so crappy! I wanted it so bad. So then after debating where to go for like an hour we decided to go to Gabriel's Gate wehre there was another like half hour wait and then they sat us in the little table in a corner in the back. The waitress totally forgot aabout us and we didn't get our check for like six days. She proabably couldn't see us in the corner. But i did enjoy the free popcorn although they do have that at Tully's too. Then we went to Spot and I tried to get someone to go talk to the guy they love at a different coffee shop but they wouldn't. But that's ok cuz we all know I wouldn't talk to anyone either. THen on the ride to Hollywood Vdieo in complete silence we realized we had nothing to say. Like we had said everything there is to say. It was a little werid. But we still had fun, well i did, i'm not so sure jill did. I think she was quite not happy. And I told her she seemed not happy. And then when the cashier at Hollywood Video asked "how are you?" and most normal people give the customary ok or something liek that jill instead says "I'm fine but if you ask him, i need mental help". It made me look like an abusive b/f kinda. NOt that i'm abusive nor her b/f but i looked it. It was real classy looking. We rented some movie with Elijah wood, Mandy Moore and the girl from Run Lola Run. It was an ok movie, not too bad, not amzing but closer to good than bad. We were going to rent the Lizze McGuire and Amanda Bynes movie but decided that is when we are really desperate although secretly those are the movies we want to see most. I think this is the last entry where I talk about what me and JIll did the night before unless it is something exciting. I have prolly put most readers to sleep by now, well that is assuming anyone reads this.

Hmm what else.... I don't know what to do. I sometimes get these urges to just like scream and yell and just like clear the air on things but then I don't cuz I realize what will that gain me especially when I think like something has passed. But then it seems like it always comes up again later and if I could just have had it all out earlier i feel like it wouldn't come up again. If I just fully dealt with things then maybe I wouldn't have to relive them all the time. Who knows! Maybe it wouldn't do anything. I don't wnat anyone to read into that that I am mad at them, cuz that is not what it is. Grrr! I say Grrr a lot. Someone told me long ago, there's a calm before the storm, I know, its been coming for some time, when its over so they say it will rain a sunny day, I know, shining down like water, I wanna know, have you ever seen the rain? You know what today it was super raining for like five minutes while i had to be outside, it was insane.

So Bob, the pharmacist at work is leaving today. It is sad for two reasons. Well one is cuz he was a good pharmacist and they seem hard to come by lately. Secondly, he was part of my commun
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ons project b/c we never have anything to say to each other really for some reason so part of my project was trying to have more conversation with him. But I guess that its too late now. Eh. The Bills lost in a terrible game today. People were coming into Eckerd during the game. What freakin losers. It was weird like one lady today told me that I was the most competent tech there and that she is so glad I work there, (and no this isn't the lady who told me if she were forty years younger we'd have a fling..ewww) and then like two customers later a lady told me she like gave me this rx to put on file and dtodl me this stuff last time i was there and that I had messed it all up and I was so bad. Hmm maybe she is crazy. That is what i think. There is generic paxil now. People are happy cuz they can get their happy drugs and for less now. Which makes them happy too. So I'm glad for them. Banana Rum is good. You should try it although I don't advocate drinking. I really want a JetCafe from Coffee & right now but they are prolly lcosed. That's too sad. Cuz i really want one. Also it is werid cuz I am there everyday and I don't want them to think I am a stalker or something. Although they prolly don't even notice I am there so much. IT's so funny that me and my friends always assume everyoen notices us and remembers us. Well actaully they prolly do b/c we always end up being loud and obnoxius and possible wrestling to the ground at the register. Whatev! I really want to read this book called Glitter something or other. No not the Mariah Carey movie, but a book about somle college students at OXford in england, It seemed interesante.

I saw the movie 13 at the movies the other day. It was crazy. When I was 13 the worst thing I did was light cigarettes on the kitchen stove and singe my friends eyebrows. These girls were crazy in the movie. And it is based on a real story sorta i think. Insanity.

I'm so sad that Vix is going out of business. I love that store!!! It is seriously heaven and OMG even biggere news they lowered the raised level of the Eastern Hills Mall food court. It is insane. That was what made it so cool!! Now where can we eat our abosorbant amounts of orange chicken from China Panda. Now we have to sit down low, like we're nobodies. Structure/Express is having a big sale and I recommend it. They had tons of stuff for $10. They say it is their biggest fall sale ever and I believe it cuz it is pretty big.

So Jen got a new roomate again. That is three rooms in three weeks. Insanity. Poor Jen. But at least she likes her roomates and they seem nice. She also has a stalker which is exciitng. Well not so much a stalker as a kid who likes her and follows her around and buys her stuff. You know what I just realized I only use the word kid to refer to boys usually not girls. If its a girl I'll say girl but if its a guy i'll say kid. Strange. Anyway, I can't wait to go visit Jen at crazy RIT. And i am going to Freodnia too soon hopefully. Craziness.

I keep buying cds like they are going out of style. Well actaully most of the ones I buy have gone out of style. Thank god for Frizby's used cd store on my corner. I bought Scream 2 sndtck., and MC Hammer cd, and a soul for real cd that has candyrain on it. Candyrain is an amazing song. I think the owner of Frisbee's definetely knows me as the kid who buys the cds noone else will and has the craziest collection. I also bought the Outkast cd this week. It was not so good. I may have already written about it, I don't remember. But i think they should not have made individual cds but stuck together instead. They are much better together than separate. Ok i guess I have written enough for this time, so i'll end with a line from whatever song is playing on my computer right now, "Hot Cha where are you? Everybody's eyes are closed, so hotcha where are you?"

So tonight me and Jill went to Coffee & , where they have the best drink in the world. It is a mocha Jet Cafe. The one worker introduced me to it when I was looking for a mocha shake and I am so glad he did b/c seriously it is the best drink ever and I am addicted and I recommend everyone go get it! After coffe & me and JIll sat in the car and sang the line "Too shy to shy hush hush eye to eye" over and over and over changes our vocies and our volume. It was just too much fun. The two guys Jill has a crsuh on were at Coffee & working which was good for her and I did my best to embarass her by saying their name out loud and doing the sideways walk. I'm not sure how often I am going to update this journal cuz I am losing interest a little bit. But we'll see

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So last night I saw an ad in artvoice for the Outkast cd at New World Records for only $9.99 and you get a free tshirt!!! Does life get better than that? I don't think so. So we went today so I could get it and by the way it is a super nice day and tons of people are out on elmwood which is nice to see. Anyway we get there and realize the cd does not come out until Tuesday so now I have to wait! GRR!! Also, 9.99 was the wrong price, it was supposed to be 14.99 but they will still honor the 9.99 price on Tuesday so I will go get it during my break at school! I can't wait!
Grrr. And I hate people that make no sense and do things that are stupid that they know they shouldn't. That's really as specific as I want to be in here.
On a better note, my soap opera's website is on its way with character descriptions and family almost ready. So get ready to read some great dramedy.
And tonight is the Emmy's! WOOHOO! I love award shows! Maybe one day that will be me organizing those award shows and meeting all the celebrities!!

So tonight, Friday night, what do me and Jill do? The only cool thing to do on a Friday night, we went to Spot on elmwood but not without first contemplating if coffe & or Spot was better for a good half hour. And how did we follow up this excitement? We drove around main street and elmwood just driving and looking for people doing exciting things! At least we went to a party at Niagara on Thursday so we weren't total losers for the whole weekend. And who knows about tomorrow night. Maybe we will surprise ourselves and do something crazy. Who knows! Do you think it is weird if three people hide in a shower at a party and wait for people to come in and go to the bathroom and then jump out and scare them. We we're going to do it but then we thought maybe it is weird and plus the shower was all wet and we were cramped in it. Maybe next time. Ok that's all for now. Oh wait, i forgot, thanks adrian and other kid with her who gave me and jill directions home after we realized we didn't know how to get home and couldn't get back into the building nor did we know anyone's name or room to page us in. So thanks.

Last night on elmwood near the corner of elmwood and allen there was an open dirty diaper! It was so gross! Jill almost stepped in it!! EWWW anyone else notice a lot of used diapers around elmwood lately?

I decided to add another entry tonight. First I'll talk about the cursive concert last night. It was a virtual whose who of my friend's awkward past. Everyone she possibly ever had an awkward relationship or encounter with was there and they were all best friends. It was quite horrible but funny at the same time. We couldn't look anywehre without making eye contact with someone we shouldn't have. How insane as always! Cursive was actually quite good and I was surprised that I liked them so much. I think the cello defienetley gave every song a cool sound. I recommend you check them out. That reminds me: Everyone should listen to the song Lover I Don't Have To Love by Bright Eyes. While I am not the biggest Bright Eyes fan, frankly not much of a fan at all, it is seriously the best song ever. It will make you want to go out and have sex or make out with the first person you see depending on how slutty you are. I almost wanted to make out with my cd player when I first heard it. But seriusly it is the best song ever and everyone should listen to it. Hmm what else do I have to say. Oh yeah, can you believe JLo and Ben broke up. Is there nothing sacred anymore? Where is the world without JLo and Ben? I don't know but I am not happy about it.
Ok, new subject... I am writing a soap opera called Behind Closed Doors, well actually I started it in tenth grade and it has went through numerous changes since then, with a current major change on the way to simplify it yet keep it as exciting. Or knowing my laziness I won't fix it and keep it as is. Anyway hopfeully soon, Marykate will put a website together to showcase it, Our last one got taken off because of illegal files for some reason or something. So hopefully it works this time. I'll put the link on here when we have a website.

I'm just starting this and don't know what to say today but I just wanted to put something up. I'll add another entry later tonight or tomorrow.