On Saturday morning... I gots two days to get my professional self togetha!


Wish me luck peaches!

I just received the most glowing letter of recommendation, and I can't wait to apply or more jobs. Even if nobody reads it, it feels really good to have worked for someone who is so complimentary and confident about my abilities.

Might go into tutoring, or start a business doing that. I may have realized I really want to work in a more one-on-one capacity with several clients/students. I think it's what I'm best at.

Anywho, I am so excited to design and plan my Halloween costume. I think I want to be a forest fairy... With leaves and a brown skirt and top, and a way to work in lots of gold accents and a gold body chain and shimmer- really just a spectacle.The best part of this is the fact that I finally joined the gym and I can't wait to pound that treadmill like a little hamster. And perhaps hit the weights... After some instruction as not to injure myself. I have this fantasy of being strong enough to do a one arm push-up, and being in the best shape for Ho-low-ween.

There's a new baby in my life. :)

Week 3 or 4 of my career search...


Had an interview. It was a no go. I think I was over qualified... I feel like being a nanny is below me now. The family seemed upset when I asked about benefits and health insurance... Ummm? Full time jobs should provide cost effective health benefits as well as life insurance, 401k opportunities, and other benefits. They probably hired someone without a degree who didn't want 25/hr.... And that's on the books. So I would actually make much less having to procure my own health insurance and having taxes taken out.

I may be interviewing for a job with CPS soon. Government jobs usually provide the best benefits however this would be hard work. I'm fine with working hard, but I get emotional when it comes to children and their well-being.

Anyway... I feel this is a step in the right direction. My uncle who is a high level CEO said my résumé is on point... But to make it two pages rather than one.


I'm ending this week feeling renewed and ready to go full force. Yea buddy.


On other news, my friend has a cute lil baybay... He's 3 weeks and just so good. I love that lil babe. He's so good and barely cries and just loves to be cuddled and given attention. :)

I was probably the most livid woman in the country last night. We have have family visiting and I'm letting them use my room. I'm pretty much used to living alone and when my mom is here she is pretty respectful about giving my privacy and staying out of my stuff. If she needs something, she asks.


Well, my uncle and his girlfriend are smokers and now my. Newly redecorated spotless room smells like old cigarettes. I decided to ignore it and wash everything Monday. Then, I kept noticing my toiletries and beauty products in different places on my room and bathroom. I have very sensitive skin and acne issues that I spend a lot of time and money keeping under control. Some of the stuff I use is special ordered and really expensive... I am just livid that they would go through all my stuff an just use it without asking. It would be completely different if t was my sister or girlfriend... Because they always share with me, and ask for something before taking it.

I love my uncle and his girlfriend is really nice, but kind of rough around the edges. I have bought food for them without reimbursement and then they use all my sunscreen and shower stuff like they live here and help pay for it. If I had unlimited resources I wouldn't care, however they know I'm on a budget and actively looking for a job.


No one other than Zooey or my sister is ever allowed to use my room or bathroom again. I'm trying my hardest to be nice... But the one thing I spend money on is beauty products. It's like taking someone's super nice car without asking permission to drive it. I literally hid all my stuff in my mom's room... I don't care if they think I'm crazy. I don't have $300 to replace all my stuff because they didn't feel like bringing shower stuff and lotion. I don't use other people's things without permission when I visit people....


I can't wait to have my privacy back on Monday. And furthermore, can't wait to find a job and have my own space where I call all the shots.


They also go in and out to smoke every 5 minutes and slam the door, when we asked them to shut it gently about 50 times....

my iphone is cureently being fixed though! Annnnnd, I know it is not grammatically correct to start a sentence with and, however they changed the back cover to pink. The total cost, $90. Way better than the other places I compared prices at. I am promising myself to be good and no longer drop my phone 5 times or more a day... Perhaps I will never drop it again. I went two years with out any issues, so I feel that's not bad for me. I break things all the time, drop stuff on my feet, and walk into walls, hard metal objects and any clumsy type of activity you can imagine.

I've really started to focus on finding a job, and I feel I assumed it would just be so easy. False, there's tons of competition out there and a lot of companies require degrees and want to pay less than 30 grand a year or under 20 an hour. How do people live like this? I've made it mission to find the best job possible and keep evolving my resumes and cover letters into masterpieces. I'm getting better by the day, and I feel good vibes headed in my direction.

Mission: Have a job before Ho-low-ween. Blo style... I wanna live in Cali o yea.

(e:flacidness) I hope all of your birthday wishes come true! I'm right behind you, here's to three more decades. :)


These are from the after party... Classic gangxsta

With a guy who opens doors and treats me well... Plus not bad on the eyes. Oh yea!

I have a series of questions that I ask m on the first date:

Do you like seafood?

Do you like the beach?

Are you super religious?

Are you homophobic?

If they answer yea to the last two its just and go... And I pegged this guy to say yes. He has a gay brother and that makes me like him more. Two of my palest friends are gay and I think about whether or not they would like they guy on most dates. I also think about whether my mother or sister would like them... If I feel like one of these people would be strongly opposed, I cannot date that person. Not because I don't make my own decisions but because my family and friends are so important and there isn't any time to waste dating someone who won't fit right into the madness of my family and friends!


The seafood and beach questions are important because I just love seafood and think about it constantly... Beach as well.


Still moving to LA when I find a good job... Maybe this guy will last more than three dates. But it's kinda sad because I usually like one out of over 50 guys I go on dats with and I hate going on dates because men can be way more emotional and depressing than women, in a scary way.


I completed my brown mission... Now I'm addicted to being tan. Jersey shore Sarbear. :) Actually it would be like savage sarbear, my hair gets all crazy from being in the pool and I'm getting kinda dark so I look like a crazy island lady who spears her own fish.


I cracked the glass on my iPhone and I saw my uncle fixing one a few weeks ago. What he was doing was way more complicated, so I'm gonna get pink glass for the front and replace it myself. Cheers to DIY.

I haven't sunned in over a month... It's time to get brown. And maybe get noodles later...


Photos up from yesterday's adventure... I was hesitant to leave the house after a series of bad dates. This guy the other night proceeded to get drunk... And I wasn't monitoring his drinks because I'm not his mother. Anyway, he told he his life is terrible and lonely and this is as good as it gets.

Really???!! My life can be lonely in terms of a companion... But I think my life just keeps getting better. Not a fan of people who are complacent, but don't wanna change things for the better. This guy just went in on me, so I told him he's a downer and left.

I just can't with that... It was like the twilight zone. Second dates are for exchanging pleasantries and exchanging fun stories and letting your best show.

Now, I have moved on and deleted him because I can't deal with extremely sad people unless we have a family or friend bond in which case it's normal to disclose anything and everything!

Went to foodie spot Cowboy Chow, where they make cocktails that taste like flowers as bread that I want to eat and have with me all day. I also had buffalo carpaccio and duck sausage stew... I love food!

Oh and then I had a cupcake... So maybe today is a no food day. I do have another cupcake left... this is a problem! I also drank sparkling wine from a can and should have bought more because its the perfect mix of classy and tacky and a lil trashy and cute all in one and that's just maybe how I would describe myself... And smart too. It should be assumed sparkling wine in a can is smart.

Best show ever... Want to marry Jason Momoa. Sooooooo my type. Destination... Somoa.

Like now. I feel uncomfortable now that vacation is over. Too
Much free time can make the mind a scary place. Plus I'm creeping way too much... I should have been a detective. Can I say stalking is my hobby? Yea, I can. I'm stalking you... In the most polite way.


Mission: Move to Cali.





I will start tomorrow.


In San Fran solo... Random took my photo. Me with my uncle's Tesla... Pretty awesome ride. He likely has more in common with the car than me. Seriously... He is confused and upset by my girly-ness. I am confused and upset by his vegetarian ism and weird rich person high tech uppity- ness.

It's 2 am and I'm blogging about random crap. See? Must start working tons of hours and not have time to worry about how much extended family members like me. Zooey still loves me and that's what matters the most.


There are fruit flies in my house and they fly around me all the time and I swear I feel like a farm animal or something. It's a very disturbing feeling and its affecting my mental state.


I want to just play dress up all day and be a style blogger and get paid for it... I have a few cute new items and maybe if I decide to wear anything other than ts and shorts and leave the house I'll post.


I thought I couldn't stand my mom until I spent a week with someone else's mom and they annoyed me so much that I yearned for my mother's nagging.


And I still hate cats... And everyone has them. I will also never date or trust a man with a cat.


Ok... Gonna go back to reading the Cuba diaries because reading about people with nothing makes me feel very rich and well fed.