i really don't want to come to buffalo. this feeling has been building for a while, and now it's to the point where i just don't feel like going at all.
i feel selfish because i should be excited to see my niece, but i feel like it is weird to be excited to see someone i don't even know.
it's so cold there, and the weather here is amazing. i would honestly like to sit by the pool in my bathing suit and read books and go hiking everyday, that's what i feel like doing.
i just can't bear thought of the cold and the awful lonely way it makes me feel. i need the sun!!!!!
maybe i should just go tanning the next few days so i can get my sun in before i leave...
i should definitely be more excited, especially to see all of my favorite people, so i am going to shut up now and force a smile. :)
every semester i get stuck in a lame group project and to my non-surprise every semester i get stuck in a group that ends up consisting of me... well me doing all of the work because i don't want a bad grade.
and other idiots who mooch and get a good grade for zero work.
great.
this group project my professor specifically stated that we have the right to remove people from our group who don't contribute. so, at least one person is going to booted out by me if i don't get their contribution by 5pm today.
so part of my whole point of coming to blo is to be able to go to the st patty's day parade... will i'm an idiot and totally though it would be the weekend after, not before st patty's days, or maybe that all people get a spring break and it would be on st patty's day. but this is not the case.
i called and tried to change my flight today, but there are zero flights that go out on saturday nights....
so, i will not be there for the parade. who is up for creating a parade with me??? i will dress up as a leprechaun and everything....
at least i'll be there for st matty's day, and the actual st patty's day!
ps. bought o cute coat on target.com last night for 12.50.... no more old whitey... i want to burn it.
have you ever had that one friend who is a bully but never beats you up?
they are just extremely in control or love being in control and controlling...
sometimes very fun, other times scary and other times you want to punch them in the face, but you can't because they have asserted their power over you.
i have one such friend. i'm scared. the bully is coming for me.....ahhh!!
If you enjoy fast food, particularly the delicious meat, you may not want to read this journal.
I just finished watching Fast Food Nation. Do not watch this movie meat lovers! You will be disgusted beyond belief....
I like my steak very rare and juicy, but I guess now I could saw I like it rare and juicy with a side of feces...
The Momma Ho is coming back onto town tonight and she's gonna makes steak for dinner and for the first time in my life, I am going to say no thank you.
If you are a veggie go ahead and watch the movie, you might really enjoy the scenes of the kill floor where the cows are being skinned and dissected. Skinned cow-head with eyeballs intact anyone? How about some cow kidney? This is the movie to watch!
I am so disturbed... good movie, but so so gross. Makes me think about what I'm putting in my body....
im beginning to think no one will hire me as a teacher because i am present on the web. lucky for me all of my shining moments have been captured by my tech friendly friends and i fear when prospective employers google me, it won't be pretty.
the stuff you find isn't so bad, however, one pic of me leads to a link in e:pauls journal and right there, bam, he's naked full frontal.
i expressed this concern to @paul and @hodown who gave me really solid advice: be an exotic dancer instead. thanks guys, you always come through with great solutions to any sort of issue or problem i have.
now, let's all pray for a miracle or two: my stuff magically disappears from google, and buffalo magically heats up to at least 50 in the next three weeks, plsnthxgdbai.
ps. looooooove the lady gaga! i wish i could walk around in leotards and never wear pants.... wait that sounds wrong. but i do love her insane style!!!