"something is wrong" written by Lilho on estrip.org

03/12/09 06:16 - 26ºF - ID#48035

something is wrong

i really don't want to come to buffalo. this feeling has been building for a while, and now it's to the point where i just don't feel like going at all.

i feel selfish because i should be excited to see my niece, but i feel like it is weird to be excited to see someone i don't even know.

it's so cold there, and the weather here is amazing. i would honestly like to sit by the pool in my bathing suit and read books and go hiking everyday, that's what i feel like doing.

i just can't bear thought of the cold and the awful lonely way it makes me feel. i need the sun!!!!!

maybe i should just go tanning the next few days so i can get my sun in before i leave...

i should definitely be more excited, especially to see all of my favorite people, so i am going to shut up now and force a smile. :)

there.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: public offenders

03/09/09 02:33 - 33ºF - ID#47996

every semester

every semester i get stuck in a lame group project and to my non-surprise every semester i get stuck in a group that ends up consisting of me... well me doing all of the work because i don't want a bad grade.

and other idiots who mooch and get a good grade for zero work.

great.

this group project my professor specifically stated that we have the right to remove people from our group who don't contribute. so, at least one person is going to booted out by me if i don't get their contribution by 5pm today.

so long sucker, have fun getting zero credit!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/08/09 10:22 - 40ºF - ID#47990

sad st patty's day

so part of my whole point of coming to blo is to be able to go to the st patty's day parade... will i'm an idiot and totally though it would be the weekend after, not before st patty's days, or maybe that all people get a spring break and it would be on st patty's day. but this is not the case.

i called and tried to change my flight today, but there are zero flights that go out on saturday nights....

so, i will not be there for the parade. who is up for creating a parade with me??? i will dress up as a leprechaun and everything....

at least i'll be there for st matty's day, and the actual st patty's day!

ps. bought o cute coat on target.com last night for 12.50.... no more old whitey... i want to burn it.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/04/09 08:56 - 16ºF - ID#47940

ratings

i think i will just let it happen.... i mean let my blog fall to a lower spot.

if (e:hodown) really wants a top spot, then why not? i can no longer post the sensational blogs of my youth.... no various reasons. but oh well.

it's time to let another blog shine. it's like charity really... when you think of it.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/01/09 11:28 - 18ºF - ID#47919

the bossy friend

have you ever had that one friend who is a bully but never beats you up?

they are just extremely in control or love being in control and controlling...

sometimes very fun, other times scary and other times you want to punch them in the face, but you can't because they have asserted their power over you.

i have one such friend. i'm scared. the bully is coming for me.....ahhh!!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: fast food

02/26/09 10:47 - 37ºF - ID#47892

barftastic

If you enjoy fast food, particularly the delicious meat, you may not want to read this journal.

I just finished watching Fast Food Nation. Do not watch this movie meat lovers! You will be disgusted beyond belief....

I like my steak very rare and juicy, but I guess now I could saw I like it rare and juicy with a side of feces...

The Momma Ho is coming back onto town tonight and she's gonna makes steak for dinner and for the first time in my life, I am going to say no thank you.

If you are a veggie go ahead and watch the movie, you might really enjoy the scenes of the kill floor where the cows are being skinned and dissected. Skinned cow-head with eyeballs intact anyone? How about some cow kidney? This is the movie to watch!

I am so disturbed... good movie, but so so gross. Makes me think about what I'm putting in my body....

metalpeter writes at 12:19:34 02/28/09 - Comment #45984: I saw that movie and from what I remember it was pretty good. In terms of if we had to kill to eat would we? See that is a trick question really. If slaughter houses where to close and the way we had to eat meat was to go out to farm or find and an animal walking the streets and go kill it, I think most people wouldn't be able to do that. I think most people might puke a few times trying to do that. Eating and killing is natural. But see in this country at least we are so removed from it, we couldn't do it. Yes some people do go to butchers and see the end product. But most people go and buy bread and meat and ice cream all at the same place. Yes you buy beef and know it is from a cow (I'm sure some people might not now that). and you can get different kinds of beef (think lean vs. non lean) but no one really goes up and thinks about the cow and if it died happy and if it was treated well, beef is just what they are going to fry out on the grill.

(e:leetee) I do get how you don't get why we eat a cow and have a Cat as a pet. I will admit that it is kinda strange. Not to mention that different cultures have different pets and animals that you can't kill and religions also. Hey some place they eat dog. When things really get weird is when someone on a farm has animals they raise and then have to slaugter them. I have heard that sometimes if they get like a favorite pig then they will keep that one a live and kill the others. I would think you would have to keep some of the animals alive just for breeding.

james writes at 12:38:15 02/26/09 - Comment #45951: I have to disagree Leetee. Removing factors like time, and use of utilities, there wouldn't be any fewer meat eaters if we butchered our own animals. Civilization is founded on an agrarian/pastoral base. People butchered animals they raised from birth for thousands of years.

The problem with our food supply is that it is way too centralized, particularly with animals and their products. In grade school, we learn about slave ships where humanity was packed shoulder to shoulder in suffocating ship quarters. We learned that many of them died from disease. We do the same to the animals we eat. Driving down California from San Fransisco to Los Angeles I saw miles and miles of cows packed shoulder to shoulder on grassless fields. The difference is that we have engineered antibiotics to keep animals alive in unlivable conditions. It is no different with plant crops. Miles of corn does not exist in nature, yet our farms engineer this through petro-fertilizers, crop engineering, and pesticides.

Smaller, local, decentralized farms with a variety of crops and species requires much less intervention and, ultimately, fewer chemicals that end up in our bodies. That means that certain meat will be more expensive, but that means that all meats will be better tasting, more healthy, and without the massive carbon footprint.

To end on a personal note, I have no moral problem eating a cat.

leetee writes at 11:59:06 02/26/09 - Comment #45950: i've not seen the film. but i get grossed out super easily.

you're so right, (e:joshua), eating meat does mean butchering animals. and i have thought for many years now that if we had to kill the animals ourselves, a lot more people would consider being a vegetarian.

i know i am a freak about this, but when i found out what meat was, i just could not fathom eating it and could not see the moral difference between my cat and a cow.

now that i know i don't eat shit, too... well, i am comforted by that thought. thanks, (e:lilho).

lilho writes at 11:04:05 02/26/09 - Comment #45949: its not just that... people die so we can eat meat and people are exploited. i guess i thought even though its gross there wasn't any shit in the meat i eat... but the people who are processing this stuff aren't even trained right... i want to live on a farm now.

joshua writes at 10:58:24 02/26/09 - Comment #45948: It's shock value, meant to freak people out. Our culture is so sheltered from where our food comes from that actually introducing people to how their food is produced is almost like reverse culture shock. Eating meat means butchering animals, and some people can't handle that. I don't really think there is a statement to make about this otherwise... it is what it is.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

02/24/09 05:34 - 22ºF - ID#47878

insanity!!!!

they found 500 lbs of weed on fabolous's tour bus!!!!!!! 500!!??!!

i was just at his party last weekend, and i noticed a bunch of green lying around, but i didn't think it was part of collection of 500 lbs!

anyway, i know celebs get away with a lot, but i just don't see how he'll be able to rationalize this!

i am now going to continue my day as a law abiding citizen! ;)

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Location: Buffalo, NY

02/23/09 05:00 - 22ºF - ID#47870

math and science might kill me

seriously give me english lit, art history, fine art, or theory any day and i can make myself look somewhat intelligent.

the combination of math and science puts me in a sub-standard level of intelligence, and i cry a little on the inside.

:(

i'm hiding out.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

02/20/09 12:03 - 20ºF - ID#47824

a bit concerned

im beginning to think no one will hire me as a teacher because i am present on the web. lucky for me all of my shining moments have been captured by my tech friendly friends and i fear when prospective employers google me, it won't be pretty.

the stuff you find isn't so bad, however, one pic of me leads to a link in (e:pauls) journal and right there, bam, he's naked full frontal.

i expressed this concern to (e:paul) and (e:hodown) who gave me really solid advice: be an exotic dancer instead. thanks guys, you always come through with great solutions to any sort of issue or problem i have.

now, let's all pray for a miracle or two: my stuff magically disappears from google, and buffalo magically heats up to at least 50 in the next three weeks, plsnthxgdbai.

ps. looooooove the lady gaga! i wish i could walk around in leotards and never wear pants.... wait that sounds wrong. but i do love her insane style!!!

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02/18/09 11:49 - 32ºF - ID#47797

scary moment 2009

yesterday i was on the freeway and here was a bee on my car. i've never been stung and i feel like maybe i might be allergic, and i nearly killed myself and other people. it was basically one of the scariest moments of my life.

to (e:mike): when i was little, i was in toronto with my childhood bff and we were in chinatown for chinese new year and this nice old man gave us some candy bars. i was so happy and immediately started eating mine, and halfway through i looked down and there were worms crawling all over it. i showed my friend, but she didn't really care, and then i just threw it out and didn't say anything. when i think of that, i am still horrified. so, i know exactly how you feel, it's life changing because you will never look at fruit the same way again; the same way i don't look at chocolate bars with lust. it's more when i think of chocolate bars i think of worms and puke and gagging.

t minus 24 days until my buffalo arrival.