not shopping for love. i love fergie, and the song she did for the SATC movie.



i really like i am too shopping for labels not love. boys bore meeeeeee lately. i would so much rather get pretty things than get some.

with that said, i have VIP at the hard rock tonight, and I am going to rock out with style out. i can't decide whether to go full out rock n roll, sexy secretary, or classy lady.

hopefully this will be worth it, because i have to work at the hospital tomorrow. and it will be awkwardness because i have to see the dr. that asked me out that i ditched and ratted him out to his gf. i get myself into the weirdest situations.

i think i have finally mustered up the strength to quit my other job. the hospital has approved so much overtime for me, and i neeeeeeeeeed the money. i am selling out, but you know what, i have years ahead of being a teacher and technically i am doing good at the hospital, just for more money.

have a great weekend peeps!

so i went to see death cab last night...amazing. they are a great live show, the songs sounds better than on the cd.

so, security was crazy and everyone got the pat down. girls were patted down by girls and guys by guys, ok. i was joking with my cousin, that if i was a lesbian, i would totally want that job.

it comes my turn to be patted down, and she does it. then she looks at me and says, "i'm going to have to see inside your shirt... i mean purse."

WHAT????????

wow, then i just laughed for like 5 minutes and she seemed really embarrassed. then my cousin kept talking about it. it was the funniest thing that had happened all week.

crazay.

im going to a concert tonight!!!!


i think the last real concert i went to was lil bow wow, when he was still little, back in the day in blo. don't ask. (e:hodown) had the concert hookup, sorta, because no one else at her work wanted the tickets, so we ended up going.

i think (e:terry) and (e:paul) were there...hahahaha.

anyway, i'm taking my little cousin to see death cab for cutie. now, they do not rank high in the hotness factor, but their music is amazing, i think, and i'm super excited!

it's outside at this new ampitheatre thing, so hopefully i don't die of heatstroke...

my ipod decided to break. it was a sad ipod.




i made an appointment at the genius bar, and away we went in hopes of fixing my poor little sad ipod. so cute, even when sad.

well, they couldn't fix it. but, i must say i was really impressed by the customer service, i didn't have to wait long and the staff was so friendly. not to mention the cute geek eyecandy i got to admire!

anyway, when it couldn't be fixed, they gave me a new one!

it was so quick and easy, and i am totally pleased with them right now!

i should start getting all my music on my shiny new happy ipod now!

(e:hodown) says not to go, (e:paul) says it's ok.

i want to go, but i don't think it is right.

here's the story:

there's this travel nurse who was working under contact with the hospital i work at for a while, and they did not resign her. she moved to flagstaff to take an assignment there, and moved last week. she is super cute, and we always talked about hanging out but never got around to it.

before she left, she told me she is seeing this new doctor at work. she said they have been seeing eachother for a few months and they weren't seeing other people. i had never met him, and he was on call this weekend, and it was my weekend to work. i was curious to see what he was like.

well, apparently, he is a man whore(maybe), and he was all flirty and then asked me out. i said yes, because i wanted to go and see what his deal was. but i also wanted to know from kristen if they were still seeing eachother, because i just don't want to go behind her back and do that, she is a somewhat friend, and that's not cool.

if he asked me out and is seeing her that is so wrong.

(e:hodown) says i can't go and its karma and it will come back to haunt me. i think she is somewhat right, but then look at angelina and brad. so, i called kristen to try to talk to her and she didn't pick up and i left a message. i really hope she calls back soon, because i think she needs to know.

so, would you go on the date? what would you say to the guy?

this lady my friend works with hired this hitman to kill her boyfriend, but the hitman ended up being an undercover cop.

so, she was arrested for attempted murder.

i guess she was very normal seeming, a very pretty and kind nurse, but underneath, lurked the crazay who wanted her bf dead!

ok, so i have really been thinking about a lot of things lately. i don't know if this is good or bad.

it's just that i feel like i am at this strange point, where i can just totally move on from past experiences and relationships, or try to bridge the gap and reconnect or make peace with people.

i am just not someone who can totally forget everything and pretend it doesn't affect the person i am now, because it really does.

there are really only a few people i don't feel that i need to have any sort of closure with, well one, and i have no issues with that.

but, in other places, i feel friendships and people floating away, and it's now or never to decide what to do.

i'm rebuilding a connection with an old friend, and in this case, she seemed to drift for a long time, and i let her. i was angry for a long time, but i think since my grandma past, i really feel like it is important to take the opportunities we have when we do. she was going through an extremely hard time, and that is ok. i was just hurt that she pushed me away. the most important thing i realized is that there are so many time when she was there, and how many memories we share and that our friendship is a big part of what makes me, me.

anyway, this is sappy but true. don't hold grudges, it hardens your heart.

i was reading the news at work yesterday. our census is so low at the hospital, and so things have been really slow, leaving me hours of sitting idly.

anyway, the price of gas in france is 11 or 12 something a gallon. in venezuela, a gallon of gas is 12 cents. lets all move to venezuela right?

i guess that it isn't as big of a deal in france, because gas was always way more expensive and it has only gone up 90% compared with 170% here in the u.s.

imagine filling up a hummer in france. what would that cost you? 250?

gas prices here are cheaper than in ny, but i definitely find myself wanting to drive less. wayyyyyy less. it makes a difference not commuting to school for the summer, and my work is relatively close. i drive with the windows down when i can.

all this makes me wonder, when will we finally stop using oil???

did anyone see charlie wilsons war? i think it is so crazy that the u.s. gave the afghans all those weapons to kill the soviets, and now we want to kill the afghans.

or so says (e:hdown). she says i've become a nice young woman, or something like that. and that our grandma would be proud.

all i have to say is wow. this is coming from the person who does not give compliments often, and the same person who has been teasing me since my wee years. like the time she told me the foam in the ocean is fish pee, and i didn't swim for 5 out of 7 days.

anyway, it means a lot. it's just nice to hear that someone really thinks highly of you, especially when things around you seem to be crappy.

i really really wish that me brother could just get his shit together. if you have a sibling that constantly seems to be barely staying afloat, i am sure you understand. it just sucks because i love him, but i know that it will always be like this. every holiday a mess, with my mom sad because he isn't there, or he is there and not doing well. and we want her to be happy, because she has worked so hard for whats she has, but i know that when you are a mother, the burden of your children always weighs heavy on your heart.

the more i think about it, the more i am not sure if i ever want kids. i like to sleep for one. i like being selfish. and most people don't realize how hard it is to raise a healthy happy person. i honestly think that if i decide i want kids, i would rather adopt. i think there is something more relieving about that. plus not having to go through almost a year of torture and then being fat and having to lose all that weight.

so many people in my family are so messed up, and with my dna, i don't want a baby that has a severe hearing loss, or addictions issues, or mental health issues, that would absolutely break my heart.

none of these things are anywhere in the near future for me, but i have just been thinking about it a lot.

i played hooky today, and got my nails did. and i bought a new dress. yippee. i am going to see the new indiana jones movie tonight. to smoke or not to smoke?

i am so sick of my one job, and the urge to quit looms. i will not though. i am on the "summer 2008 pay off my car and other debt" plan. wish me luck. i think the plan would work better if i stopped buying dresses and getting my nails done. but i loooooooove getting nails done. and the place has a uv dryer for hands and feet. it's the bestest ever.

oh and death cab is coming, and i am going to see them, and that is super exciting.

and i know this is random, but i am so sick of stupid bitches at work who refuse to talk to me. i really think it is because i dress girly, and i am pretty. i am not saying this in a bitchy way. because everyone who knows me, likes me, but that is such a lame reason to dislike someone. maybe i could be the same way sometimes, but this is redic. anyway, they have bad fashion, so i should just feel sorry for them right?

ps. the mormon keeps calling me. i am so done even talking to him. the thought of him repulses me.

for some reason, everytime i try to post pics it doesn't work, and i have a million. wah.

and this has nothing to do with anything, but i really hate madonna and her grossly muscular man arms. i just really am so over her.

if you read this far, you need to find something to do.

(e:tina) was in a bad car accident with her boyfriend. she is ok, but he is in rough shape. so, just say a little prayer, whoever it is you pray to, and even if you don't pray, just send positive energy.

i'm not really one to pray, but i can hope for a speedy and full recovery, and just try to be there for my dear friend, even though i am far.

love you tina, and jeremy!!!!!!!