usually, i end up writing a couple sentences here, due to my lack of time, and or technology. posting from a cell phone can be a bitch.

do you ever feel like so much has happened, but really nothing has happened at all? this is how i feel. i guess that saying, "the more we change, the more we remain the same", or however it goes is really true.

truth is, with each passing day, i feel more and more disconnected from buffalo. my heart is somewhere else. im not sure what it would take to stop feeling this way.

for some people it is easy to live away from family, and i too have become accustomed to seeing my mother, sister and brother only a few times a year. however, this change makes everything seems so surreal, like eveything i do isn't actually happening, and im just wasting time until i see them again. i find myself having little thoughts, seeing things, that would make us all laugh, and wanting to call them up and tell them about it.

the solution to the problem is not so easy. either, i stay here, move to ny, where i don't feel i want to be, or, move to arizona.

this all probably seems so dramatic, but if you had a mother and sister like i do, you'd feel the same. honestly, the two people who have always come through for me, who i'd do anything for, and make life worth living.

p.s. this has nothing to do with anything in the entry, but i voted for the first time this tuesday. how exciting, and funny, and evil that the woman at the one polling place refused me a paper ballot. wtf? that bitch broke the law. ahhow, i ended up voting at 8:56, on a paper ballot at another polling place, and had to redo it, because i wrtoe on something i wasnt supposed to. possible the very last person to vote, but i was determined goddamnit. finished school, and voted. it's all in a days work.

p.p.s. come to my party! cindy will be there...

done with school. it feels weird and i wish i had my family here right now. i miss them so much. being lonely sucks. and so does having a broken car... come to the party on sat... more later!

just got in my car to meet a friend. turned it on. its shaking. there is something very wrong with it.

i have two days of school left, and my car is sick. wahhh, I've been working so hard. who wants to give me a ride? ha. grrrrrr.

A: this sucks a lot.


onto the rum and cokes. cheerio.

btw, we will still party like rock stars.

my house next saturday. hopefully all those who showed up will bring themselves back and then some... we gotta top it off this time. next week, marks the end of beauty school for me, and the beginning of something beautiful!


[size=l]so, (e:strip) bitches, git yo ass there![/size]

it is ann. and sorry but i wont be at the party, im in toronto, being a good friend.

i will be there in spirit.



p.s. im having a party soon though, hopefully you will still want to be my friend. :O) the reason for celebration is me being done with school, thats right, done.

does anyone else find it really fun to look up people on myspace and laugh?

wait, or is this really similar?

so, i really don't like cold weather at all. at all. or snow. or rain.

what i do like about these winter months is that its just so romantic. everyones looking for someone to cuddle with, and thats great.

i went out with my skater boys last night. you ask, whats it like for you(single straight chick), to hang out with lots of young single men? its amazing! i think thats what i want to do every weekend. i just love hanging out with guys. they did make me trudge around in the rain and go to a million bars, but they bought me drinks, and i bought a drink for the birthday boy. i think i actually have some boy issues, in that i am boy crazy. gay, straight, let me at em. theres something about guys that girls don't have. cattiness. i know, because i could be the most catty. i think i don't like girls because they are like me, huh.

anyway, im torn between staying here or going to toronto next weekend. if i stay, all of my cute guy friends can come. if i go, i get to see cute boys there too, and a friend who might need some cheering up.

its taken a long time for me to feel this way, but right now, i love life.:O)

p.s. if i ate a weed brownie on tues night, would i still be high all day wed? (e:hodown) says yes. i don't believe her.

im headed to the akag tonight, afterwards, who knows. i just recieved more bday gifts, so im sill in celebration mode. bring it on boys.



check it out ya'll.

lets see here...

1. last night was crazy and fun. as wednesday nights can be when wednesday becomes friday. i had off of school today and work today and tomorrow. how lovely. so, after a night of strange and random, yet nice surprises, i arrived home at one today. hmmm. i promise i was good, for the most part.

2. today consisted of a very hot, very long shower, tons of sleep, grocery shopping, eating, watching my favs tele shows, and then a few beers with the guys. im too full to drink anymore.

3. im done with school in less than three weeks! wow. i feel accomplished. 1000 hours of hard work. a year of struggle, but it paid off. i can tell you one thing; it is very hard to work full time and go to school. every morning i wake up and dread it. i have actually stopped waking up to the alarm, so you can imagine how frazzled and sleepy eyed i show up to work everyday. but, its all worth it. having a license is a cool thing!

4. im torn between staying for the stellar haloween party or going to toronto. here i will be with friends, really fun great friends. there i will be with one amazing friend, and someone i would like to see, who i know would like to see me as well. hmmm.

5. this is for (e:hodown). you are the best big sis and lil sis could ask for! thank you so much for coming and all of the lovely gifts that make me that much more stylish and a give me a little nyc flava. i love you.

and thanx to everyone who came and brought the fun and the booze. i still have a ton left, so stop by wheneve and we can have a cocktail!
i think im going to have a "sarah is done with school, and loves it party", cindy will be the quest of honor of course! you will all be invited.

p.s. the bumber sticker on my car, "keep abortion legal", is causing quite the stir. i often see people behind me with hands flailing and looks of anger on their face. (e:paul) and (e:terry) had some excellent suggestions for an even spicier slogan, while we were haeded out of pano's tonight. how about, "keep abortion fun", or "keep abortion funny!", or "fuck the babies". let me know what you think. (btw, it's just a joke, haha.)

so, it is proven. there is life after the party. and what a party it was. my little apartment filled with many drunken high young people, some older, but not any wiser. at least not last night.

we were in it for the birthdays, and the party, and there was no crying. even when i fell down the stairs(on the way to pano's with (e:hodown)). yes, i fell, allthe way down,and have no recollectionof it. at all. aparently, icounted to 5 or 6 and was right back up again. i was wondering why my chest legs and feet hurt so much this morning.

anyway. thanx to everyone who came. if anyone wants to chill tonight, give a shout out, we'll be chillin ho style!