My Beaster

one of my bestest friends since sixth grade , @beast is moving to scottland to be with her b/f (well they are gettin gmarried but only for the visa, not "for real" as she says) ! This means she will be there a minimum of two years. I don't know what I am going to do! I am a wreck! A full fledged crying mass of a wreck right now! I really thought I would be fine, she travels a lot and isn't in b-lo at months at a time but the tihng was she always was coming home! I had a date I knoew she would be back for a while! This time it could be forever, this could be the end! I am not handling it well at all! I have been crying since last night when I dropped her off after her goodbye dinner, we are going to lunch now. I hope to compose myself. I seriosly I had no idea I would be so distraught, I thought I would be fine but thinking about it is really making me carzy. I AM GONNA MISS HER LIKE WHOAA! I just can't imagine her not being here, and at the same time her starting tihs whole new life really, with new firends, a new husband and new everything and I won't be a part of it! I hate the tought! We've done eveyrthing together since like 6th grade! I don't like tihs, I don't like it one bit.

Her mom always refereed to me as teres's wifey. She said I would call all the time and be naggy and what not and we would get in arguments like we were married ( i was clearly the wife though haha) Maybe it is that thought of losing my "spouse" to someone else. Whose wifey will I be? I need my @beast! I don't want her to go! It is completly selfish and jealous but I really just don't want her to go! She cna't ! Maybe I shall sabotage her plane!

Ok i'm just kidding about that, I don't want to be arrested as a terrorist or something. I wouldn't really sabotage her plane! @beast I am gonna moiss YOU!