As I am at a red light on elmwood and maybe West Delevan I realize I am singing at the top of my lungs "What a feeling" while smoking a fake candy cigarette. And YES all my windows are open. I really could not have looked cooler!

OMG so many things are coming up. The week of like October 11 is gonna be the craziest ever. (e:lilho) and (e:southernyankee) will be in town and it is also the last week (e:beast), one of my best friends for the last 13 years, will be in town befroe getting married and moving to Scotland for at minimum two years but prolly longer if not forever! And I have my PCAT's which pretty decide my whole future as a pharmacist. How am I gonna do it all!?!? Most likely with a lot of class as always, haha!

Has anyone ever been to a wedding or anything at the casino at Beaver Isalnd. Casino in the like reception hall sense not gambling sense. My parents have a wedding there this weekend and are debating if it is like nice or casual. Is it like a pavilion just like the Noco pavilion at sheridan park or soemthing or is it nice more like Cloks Grove in West Seneca type thing. Anyone know?

I woke up at like 1:30 in the morning with the worst pain in my stomach ever. I felt like I had done like a million crunches and then someone shot me all over my stomach! It was so painful, i oculdn't do anything but cringe. There was no way to get comfortable. At first I thought food poisioning or something like that, but there seemed to be no related digestive problems really. I took some maalox and it did not help at all.

That's when I decided i had appendicitis. You see that is what I am most scared of in life. Ever since my 10th grade biology teacher told me that if you don't get to a hospital right away , you die, I have always feared I would die of appendicits cuz I get lots of stomahc aches. I looked it up online and it said you hsouldn't take maalox or drink water cuz it oculd speed the rupturee! WHICH THAT WAS EXACTLY WHAT I HAD BEEN DOING FOR THE LAST TWO HOURS!!! and then after reading all the symptoms of course I had tehm all!!! I was so sure Iwas going to die but still feared going to the hospital in case it was really just like a gas issue or something though it didn't seem like it. AT like 6:45 it started tto subside a little and I was able to fall asleep except I had to get up at 745 to go to work. Which let me tell you , I twas just me and the pharmacist for liek half the day (we usually have like 4 workers) and I had had about an hour of sleep at most and was still in pain. Like it still hurts. But like now it is a dull pain. My pharmacist said if it was apendicities you would not doubt it. Like it would be totally horrible and keep getting worse. It would never get better. I don't know what to do , my side still hurts, should I go to the doctors? I don't know! WHAt if i am raelly tolerant of pain and really I have appendicitis and am ignoring it! It is my right side that hurts. I don't know!!! I also missed school today because i passed out whehn i got home form work from pain/tiredness. Which prolyl means I will fial and nver get into pharmacy school cuz I also don't have my lab book which I need but now have heard it is sold out!

grr suckiness right now

Ok we are seriuosly short handed at work. Like way shorthanded both in number of people and quality of people and i swear everyday we start off short handed and then like 2 people call in or leave early or something. It is out of control. They haven't been partiucularly busy days but when there is noone else there really , it starts to wear on you!! RiteAid has the most ridiculous hiring proocess, my boss has been tyring to hire this girl for liek a month but there are like 7,000 steps to it and another kid who used to work for Eckerd but got terminated after not workkng there for three months didn't get past the preemployment quiz. Thye said he may not be desirable BUT HE ALREADY HAD WORKED THERE FOR 5 YEARS! It is so F'ed up. I hate RiteAid !

Tonight is the Emmy's, I believe they are my thridish favorite award show. I seriously love preshow extravaganzas though I am way behind as I just started watching the preshow a few minutes ago. I used to watch for hours , starting around noon. I need to get back into that. Those were good times. I just love random celebrity banter and super crazy questions asked in fancy gowns. I don't like that JOan Rivers is not on tv anymore and just on the web. I also find it funny that Ryan Seacrest is doing red carpet duty even though he is the host. He is quite the overachiever!

There I said it! Everyone always assumes I love it cuz it is my kinda thing. But I find him annoying and irritating. He is ugly and stupid. He thinks he is cool but he is not. I really don't like him. I don't find him entertaining/interesting or funny. I think his 15 minutes should be just about over (though I think they really are cuz you never hear about him as much anymore and now he is on that celebrity rapping show which really says HAS BEEN!) anywho. I don't like him, i've said it and i feel much better about it now.

So today was a super crazy day at my store. The morning starts off normal enough and then we get a call in for a prescription for Tramadol from a particular doctor who the pharmacist knew does not write prescriptions for tramadol. Also , there was a girl who used to phone in fake prescriptions using that doctor and we got her and i think she got arrested or what not like a year or two ago. Anyway, so we call the doctor and she told us their is a warrant out for the girl's arrest and to call this other number. So we do and so then our store is swarming wihtundercover federal marshalls. I am the only person who knows what the girl looks like first hand (the marshalls have a picture) so I need to ID her. so they are there for hours waiting and eventual we see her. Bonnie tries to take her time with her to make sure they notice and then the one ocmes up and arrests her WHEN...

...We HEAR an older woman screaming stop beating me, your hurting me, I'l doo whatever it takes etc etc from the ocugh and cold aisle. Only to see one of our regular customers , alike 70 year old woman, handcuffed and on the ground scremaing. She is the other girl's grandma and had come in the store with her. Whenthe cop said they needed to ask her some questions I guess she just started screaming and fell to the ground. there were many pepole there to wtiness that that did indeed happen and that she started fighting the cop....so her screaming for like an hour while their our cops swarming needless to say made other customers ask a lot of questions. The funny part is eveyrone said like "oh were they stealing " and we were just like prolly. SO I wonder if now eveyrone thinks we have a super strong anti-theft program.......

....so besides the screaming granmda who we never are really sure if she is involved or not, I guess today some people who are tyring to unionize the store came in today and my managaer told them to leave and then they got in a big fight, and one of the mioan cashiers quit...

...and we filled a super controlled narcotic for the wrong person, who got it and took it home and then the md called us wondering what happened...

...and I got fired/quit/relaized it doesn't fit in my scheudle to be a trainer for Rite Aid.......

...ok this story doesn't sound so crazy typed out but it really was like real crazyness in the store...

....oh i forgot the lady is claiming police burtlaity so like all the witnesses had to give statmetns and what not.

...oh and the topper, while all tihs was going down ALL THE BIGWIGS from the corporation happen to be in the store today. So it was real good, haha. I thin kthe loss prevention district guy may have accussed one of the US Marhsalls of stealing because they were loitering aroudn so long. This is the same guy who accused me of stealing cookies when I used to take them for Medicare Seminars to give to the seniors. I don't like him....anywho that was my crazy day

...oh and on the way to school tonigth I almost ran over the crazy kid from a previous journal I belive that treid to take both me and e;beast home in a rally weird crazy way

I absolutely hate when people's checks or credit cards are denied. I always try to pass it off like it is some computer glitch and not because they have 10,000 credit cards that are all maxed out and they try them all. It's so crazy I'll be like oh this crad isn't going through, "i don't know why it must be a mistake, you should call your bank" and then they just hand me card after card....after card until one goes through. Ok those people aren't so bad. But the people who get so embarassed I feel so bad. I try to make it as cool as possible but if you know me whenever I am trying to make something better by pretenidng it is nohting i end up making everything seem like a bigger deal like somehow I wll end up saying like :"your credit card was prolly stolen, your identity is slipping out of your hands as we speak, you should call your senator, they have prolly invaded your house laready and gotten your security code and safe deposit box".

Anyway moral of the story is I hate telling peopole their credit cards/chekcs are rejected...(or do I secretly love it) either way try and make sure your bills are good whne you come into my store...aight!

So I have been waiting my whole life for the Spears performance tonight at the VMA's. I felt like a really great energetic wonderful performance would signal her big comback. Or a little sadistically something crazy like i don't know her kids hanigng from crucifixes from the cieling, or her taking all her clothes off or like running off the stage crying. Either way I figured it would be good and as the eternally hopefully Britney fan I really was hoping it would be great!

I really really want her to comeback but what do we get...a lackluster song with an even more lackluster performance. She barely danced, they surrounded her by like 10000 side performers so you barely even saw her and she did like nothing good. It seemed like she was phoning it in and didn't really mean it. I thought she would give us a performance that reminded us all why we loved her but instead she gave me nothing. It makes me fear but worst fears that maybe she is never coming back. Maybe she really is gone for good : (

And then it got really sad when Sarah SIlverman made fun of her. Like so unnecessary, Britney clearly humiliates herself enough, the jokes are unnecessary and just mean (though the one about how she had accomplished everything she ever would in her likfe at 25 was kinda funny) but really it just felt sad!

P.S. The VMA's are really quite not good in general. Way too much of like 1 seocnd clips from a million different places and the host lady puts me right to sleep. IS she even literate?Ok i'm done for now..bakc to the VMA's , maybe Britney will pull out some crazy show stopper still.

Today is my college friend Katrina's wedding. (e:amanda) is the maid of honor. I can't wait. I really like weddings and friend weddings are the bestest kind yet it seems crazy that now four of my friends are married. I am only 24! Bejeezus! Anywho, everytime I have to get dressed up I remember how much I don't really like my suit and don't' have nice black dress shoes anymore. Unfortunately I don't ever remember this again til an hour before the event when I have to get dressed up again. So here I am in a lackluster suit and crappy black shoes, it always saddens me, I have to take care of this situation, especially the shoes right away! I can't wait until another event! maybe even inbetween the wedding and the reception which there is like a 3 hour time block (which what do yu ever do in between while you are already dressed up) maybe (e:jill) will go with me to get shoes (she is my date for the wedding!) WE'll see. This is the first event I wil go to sinc eI got a digitial camera so hoepfully there will be pictures to follow soon..