Can I once again reiterate how much I love the new messaging system on here , cuz I do love it! I also love the random bucketful of knowledge that is my honors seminar professor Mel Schroeder. While I will probably not do great in the class, he is seriously insanely knowledgeable about everything but not in an annoying kind of way. He just talks and talks and relates things to so many other things that I am always in awe of his vast knowledge. Maybe it is just in comparison to some of the other professors at Canisius that I have had that are lacking even in their own main field of knowledge but I swear he is unbelievably chockfull of facts and ideas.

Been kinda bored lately, hoping for something exciting to happen soon. Nothing in particular, just antying. I realized the other day that I haven't had anythign that really made me excited or mad or even think in a while, just kind of in a middle blah ground. LIke work hasn't been bad or good , just ok and school is ridiculously easy this semester where I never have any real worlk or thinking to do so I am just in a constant state of blandness. Like nothing is particularly aggravating or bad, that wqould almost be better in some way because then at least I would care about something. I don't know, all I know is I am ready for a little excitement.

(e:maureen) and (e:Mk) , I don't know if that sauce has any connections to my family, but if the company is run by the "family" (and you know what family I mean) then it probably is my family. haha I wish

Just thought I'd update with a few random tidings:

- I love the new message system where you can leave messages for people's journals, everyone should try it out. I was happy to discover I already had messages when I first found out about the new systme.

-100 Dyas Party was fun (thanks for buttoning my fly Katrina) except on the way home we got in a car accident and nicole was pretty upset, understandbly, and I was pretty drunk and so was probably not as helpful as I could have been. The guy was very shady so we'll see what happens. I hope it all works out good for nicole.

-since Michael Jackson owns the rights to like all the Beatles songs do you think Paul McCartney had to pay him in order to sing them at the Superbowl. Speaking of the superbowl in my advertising class we saw some commericals that didn't make it b/c they were too controversial. One was hilarious, it was for some kind of beer and it said like Backstage Before the Superbowl 2004 and you saw a guy trying to open a beer and couldn't and so he grabs a shirt off a chair and it is janet jackson's shirt and he uses it to open his beer and the shirt rips and so he tries to tape it back up. I found it really funny, i think you have to see it to appreciate it.

-my classes are still pointless.

-i'm excited to see Rent in a few weeks

Hmm i thought i had more to say. I guess not...estrip nights need to get back into style!!!

This Thursday is the 100 Days party at Canisius. That means there are only 100 days left until I graduate from college. How terrifying yet exciting. In 100 days I will be a college graduate. A graduate with no future mind you but a college graduate none the less. Well lets hope the 100 Days party is a good beginning to the end of this part of my life.

(e:maidencateyes) , is the rest of the Keane cd a lot like the one song on the radio? Because sometimes I hate when like I like the song on the radio but it ends up being completely different from the rest of a cd which I then don't like. But I think I am going to buy the Keane cd. What is the name of the cd? Thanks

Has anyone heard the song Somewhere Only We Know by Keane. It is so really good. I had been hearing it on the radio but they never said who it was by except once but I couldn't' understand what they said and then it turns out (e:maureen) and andrew in schnectady were trying to figure out the same thing. I guess they were on SNL this Saturday and the mystery was solved. I suggest everyone gives the song a listen!! You won't regret it.

Sometimes I want the weirdest things. (e:beast) and (e:mk) know what I'm talking about here. Such silly ideas run through my mind sometimes, but wouldn't it be great if it worked....ok probably not...but maybe. It seems so random but could have been so enjoyable?!?

So this weekend I decided to come up to Schnectady and visit Maureen. ON the ride here it was not so bad and took just a little under 4 hours including the itme I was lost driving around Schnectady looking for her apartment. Even with her on the phone and giving me driections I still couldn't really handle it( I still swear there was a church on the corner)~!!!! It's been a fun time , just chilll an drelaxing like I needed. I'll update more about it when I get home, if I find my way that is. I want to stop at the outlet mall in Waterloo on the wya. It is right like on the thruway. OMG we went to H&M yesterday whcih i love and the one here is huge. Like the men's department is huge, not as big as in NYC I don't think but bigger than any other one I"ve seen. WHY AREN'T THEY IN BUFFALO! See you all soon! Enjoy the SUperbowl!!!

Oh poor Uncle Jesse from Full House. On a lifetime movie commercial I saw the other night he had second billing to Tara Reid. What a fall from fame John Stamos, what a fall!!! I remember the days when he could headline a made for tv cable movie with the best of them. Now to be second best after a boob-showing startup nothing actress, in a lifetime movie no less. Oh senor Stamos, what's happened to you?

Ok one more thing about the book I'm reading mentioned below....there is at one part the girl, Clare is talking about how she got Jonathan to invite his boyfriend over that she had never met because she felt he fragmented his life in too many ways and that is what made him unhappy. I will quote it "In an effort to cheer Jonathan up, I got him to bring Erich home for dinner. He didn't want to. He had to be nagged into it. It took more than a week. I woudln't give in, though, because I believed in what I was doing. My theory of Jonathan's trouble was simple. He had let his life get divded up into too many different compartments. There was his job, and his life with Bobby and me. There were a few friends from college, and a random sexual life with strangers, and an ongoing affair none of us with somoene none of us had ever met. I believed he needed more areas of overlap"

When reading that I totally realized that is how I feel in many ways. I always thought I liked keeping my life fragmented and so everyone knew their own version of me that fit the situation but then I'm starting to think maybe that's not good. Maybe I need more overlap. I always liked keeping my different groups of friends separate and my work people separate from my other friends and I feel like there are a few things I keep from each of my friends so that nothing overlaps and everything is distinct. Maybe that is bad, maybe I would feel better if I was always one person and everyone was more intertwined. Or maybe I would hate it. Who knows? It just made me think about it more than I ever had before really. ..maybe it would be easier if I didn't need to remember how to be in each situation because they were all the same...or maybe that would just be boring..

So I am currently reading A Home at the End of the World by Michael Cunningham and it is seriously one of the best books I have ever read. At the same time I'm not sure it would appeal to all people but very specifically appeals to me. Basically it is about these two guys who are pseudo in love when they are younger, one moves to NY and plans to have a baby with this girl even though he is gay and she is straight but they are in a kind of love and want to have a baby, but then the other guy moves to ny and sorta falls in love with the girl and they start having sex and she gets pregant. And then tehre is a side story about the one kids parents and how is mom was settled but unhappy in her life.

ANyway, seriously I have never read a book where I can honestly relate to every character so well in at least one way and also like see so many of my friends and family in the characters. I was gonna quote some parts and talk about them but the list grew too long and I couldn't decide what to include. But for instance at one point the one kid Jonathan talks about how he wanted his life to be Puckish which is crazy because I always wanted to be liek Puck from MIdsummers NIght Dream and liek he was always one of my favorite play characters of all time. And the way the three characters act when they live together in NY reminds me in so many ways of my friendships. I don't know but i just love the book and recommend it i think but you may not like it but i do.

Remeber when I used to write like complete novels after each party about what happened, this will be more of a quick highlight.

-sarah was the best person/hostess ever, she made mini-BLT's which were so tasty and I'm glad they were made before the majority of people showed up so I could have a lot. Bacon is tasty.

-ok sarah is also the second reason the party was fun, she makes me tasty drinks. Tina does too though!!! So kudos to Sarah and Tina for giving me tasty liquer.

-Hmm i overheard someone offer a threesome to a particular future pharmacist and tasty barmaid and I heard some bathroom misbehaving ensued but I don't think anything actually happened but will have to replay the tape to find out. j/k but wouldn't it have been fun if there were hidden cameras recording everything that happened. Good luck to the three of you and your future conquest.

-I foudn out that the kid in the front half of the house likes cash registers or did when he was little and I love cash registers and he was supposed to be there but never showed up which was sad because I have never had a good chat with someone else who likes cash registers even close to the amount that I like them.

-Chris offered me the cash registers that are in the basement of the Elmwood Pet Store and I want them really bad, though I think my parents will kill me if I brought home three more cash registers to add to my collection so I would have to keep them hidden for now. I can't wait until I have a huge house and i can have a cash register room, or entire floor or maybe even an entire cash register wing of the house.

-my cousins came and I fear they think I am an alcoholic cuz I am always kinda drunk at these parties and that is the only time they see me. But it was fun.

-did i mention tasty BLTs cuz they are tasty!

Ok that's all for now...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAUL!!! I HOPE 28 IS A GOOD YEAR FILLED WITH PLENTY OF GOLDSCHLAGGER (sp?) and COPIOUS AMOUNTS OF HOURS SPENT ALONE WITH YOUR COMPUTER...may you be able to achieve your dream of having computers surrouding you with a spinning seat in the center...if that is still a dream of yours....happy birthday paul!