Mine and Terry's party is tonight at 567 Lafayette around 10ish as you all know from the party info banner!! EVERYONE SHOULD COME AND BRING ALL THEIR FRIENDS. I ONLY TURN 21 ONCE (well actually not for liek a week still but we're pretending) and I WANT LOTS AND LOTS OF PEOPLE THERE!!!! I WANT TO SEE YOU ALL THERE!!!!!! I CAN'T WAIT BUT I'M SO NERVOUS!!!! I WANT STRANGERS AND FRIENDS ALIKE SO EVERYONE BE THERE OR BE SQUARE (i love that threat)!!

This is not an attack on anyone. It's just my acknowledgement, that times, they are a-changing. It's not a bad thing I guess, its just growing up. We used to wonder what happened? Where did everyone go? Our once close knit group had dissolved. Noone wanted to go out anymore and they padded themselves with as many perifery people as possible if they did. We used to wonder what could be wrong with us? How could people choose just about anything over being with us? Are we really that boring/ that unfun/that unfriendly? They needed to leave every chance they got to see their new love, their new friends. Didn't they ever just want to hang out with us, the old gang? But now you've joined them. So that makes me wonder, what's wrong with me?

People used to say, I don't want to hang out with just you guys. You're too close, too much together, too much inside jokes, too much the same. I couldn't understand it, if you were our friends why couldn't we all hang out? I thought it was just the lack of others going out that caused them to feel that way, and if they went out more it would change, maybe it is a what came first, chicken or egg, type issue. I don't know. Did they hang out less cuz of that, or did them hanging out less cause that. So maybe now I am backing away, I don't want to be the thrid wheel. Although I said you've joined them, maybe in other ways I've joined them too.

Who knows, maybe I"m just in a crazy, I'm sick of working and am listening to Third Eye Blind which can in some ways be terribly depressing mood. But Friday is my party and it will be fun fun fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It all started because I found out a girl I work with went to her senior with Matt, and so I asked him to see some pictures. Then he whips out these amazing scrap books from his highschool years. If you love other people's memories and memoribilia as much as I do, you have to ask Matt to see his. The second one is so proffesional looking. I love reading letters and notes people wrote that I don't know. I don't know why, it is just the idea of like someone writing it at sometime, id on't know but I like it. This is probably why I also have numerous pictures of teres's family that I wouldn't let her throw out. One day I will have a mansion and one room can be devoted to each of my friend's stuff. Thanks for your memories Matt.

Yesterday was soo the day I really needed of just relaxing and everything. I woke up at like 11 after a good amount of sleep, sat around watched tv and read the paper. Followed by tanning out on the porch and falling asleep on the chair and then getting myuself to get up and go into my room where I fell asleep again. Then watched some of the Soprano's DVD. My night was capped off with chinese food and a thermal spa visit at Maureens which was muy relaxing. Such a relaxing day...except the pain of all the cuts and marks I have all over my upper body right now.

According to some kids away message that I went to college with he has the word CHILLAXIN and he says copyrighted by some of his friends in 2004. Well I don't know about the rest of you but I know that Paul and Jessica (hodown) used that term way back in the day, possibly mid-90's and I have heard it many times since. I'm not even sure Paul and Jessica coined it but for sure they had it before these people. And if Paull and Jessica did coin it, wow congratulations, it has reached Connecticut.

So where is the new thursday hangout? The Pink is definetely done I think but where to meet and drink and mingle? SOrry Teres I would not choose Merlins but we all know that I give in pretty easy so if that is where it was at I would end up there but it definetely is not my first choice. Merlins is definetly always feels like a place you end up and not a place you choose to go if that makes sense.

Maureen...you're grandma dancing is an amazing video. I am so glad after providing entertainment for her through our videos for years now I can enjoy her video.

Happy Birthday Kacey!!! and TK!!! and SQB!!!

Don't forget the Terry/Mike birthday celebration on August 20th. Everyone needs to come and bring everyone they know.

During the thunderstorm last night I seriously thought Kenmore was being bombed. Like I looked out my window to make sure my neighbors houses were still there. Also included in this dream/reality was the Thompson's being attacked by an alien. It was one of those dreams that made me scream and wake up my entire family.

Why are the Golden Girls so great? I seriously laugh for the entire half hour everytime I watch them which is quite often.

Where's the hangout this Thursday, as I heard the Pink is done? And Keith, are me, jill and beast rockin hard with you this Thursday?

That was the slogan on a shirt me and Jill saw in Chinatown in Toronto yesterday. I love bad translations more than anything else in the world!!! We met Yo's boy schlomo (yes that is really what they call him even if the border patrol guard did not believe me). We went to Kosher King which was basically a kosher burger king thus more expensive but still tasty and Yosepha could eat there so that was good because she can never eat out in Buffalo. Then me and Jill went our own way and left them alone and we planned on a wondrous trip to H&M since they still don't have one in Buffalo and we get there and what happens.....THERE IS NO MEN'S DEPT in that one!! How insanely dissapointing that was but then we drove around the city and didn't know waht to do for the four or five hours we had but luckily we just happened across this area where the streets were all closed and it was like street vendors and performers and stuff. It was in Chinatown and Kaiser are I belive it was artsy and then Chinatwony. It was fun despite it raining. I bought a shirt.

I DON"T like seeing hanging dead animals in windows of butcher shops but you get that everywhere in Chinatown. WHy is there always a Little Italy and a Chinatown but not like a Germantown or Little Poland or if it is they are never as well kmnown. Weird. What makes Italians and CHinese so special well besides that I am Italian of course.

Also for some reason in Toronto they don't want you to leavfe and we could not find a way onto the Garden Expressway becuase everywhere said no left turns so it was impossible to get to where we had to get on so eventually we decided to just give ourselves the designation of CIT vehicle and decided to just start turning left wherver we pleased. It worked much better that way. People there also act like they've never seen a UTurn. WHat just cuz I almost plowed down an entire the familyi the rest of the people grab their loved ones and run for their life away from me. no need to be scared, I have yet to hit a person.

If it didn't happen then, when it seemed to have such a chance, then it probably will never happen. But I can deal with that. I can't keep wasting opportunities that come my way though. Gotta stop being scared.

Off to Toronto for a day of debauchery or shopping or both, we'll see. I mean I wouldn't put it past us to kill someone if they were trying to take the last item leftthat was really cheap that we wanted. I'll update when i reenter this land of ours.

So yesterday morning, the worst thing ever happened. I woke up like any other day, walked into the bathroom and then....what do i see....a gray hair sticking straight out of my head. This must be a dream, it can't be real I think as I pinch myself but alas it was the unfortunate reality. I'm not even at my 21 birthday and the gray is starting to come in. My mom went gray really young and I don't want that. I don't want to have a lifetime of having to dye my hair nor do I want the salt and pepper look at 23. Lets hope this was a one time crazy mistake in my hair follicles.