I'm over my crush. I realize it is only a few hours later than when i originally wrote about my crush but eh that happens with my flimsy crushes. The more i've been thinking about it, the more i was like wow their not so good and actually kinda bad. Ok
Hmm what else, oh i bought the About A Boy soundtrack, it is great I also bought a Pixies cd. They are my recent addiction at the moment. I think it was only cuz I got that bonus check from eckerd, we all got bonus checks for reducing shrink. Too bad I spent it all already and i only got it two days ago. It was like 120 dollars but whatev i bought some good stuff with it. Since i wasn't expecting it , it's not like i lost anything. Oh and the old guy in front of me in line at american eagel got a gift card for spending a certain amount but said he prollywould never come back and so he gave it to me. That was nice of him. I like gift cards. Ok bye for now

In anthropology the other day my teacher decided to make us chai tea because we were talking about Imperialism and spices are the key to imperialism. Anyway so after he was cooking some spices he sent me out to fill the pan 2/3 full with water. Well i get in the hall and have no idea where to get water so I first try the drinking fountain, but of course the water only comes out like a quarter inch and so that wasn't working, plus at this point I have burned myself because the whole pot was hot but I kept touching it. So then I think I could use the sink in the bathroom, it was perfect cuz the pan fit perfectly in the sink. Alas, though my good idea was ruined becasue I filled the pan too much and I could not get it out without water and spices pouring out all over. So i lost half the water and a lot of the spices. I thought about picking them out of the sink and putting them back in but that sounded too gross, who knows what people do in that sink. So I bring the pot back and my teacher looks in it and looks so dissapointed, like wow noone ever has messed up in getting water before. So he sent another kid out with a bucket or something to get more water. Eh, he should have known better than to trust me with a task as large as filling a hot pot with water.

Oh an update on removing your pictures from my journal. Send me a reason why you want me to take them down to. OK thanks

I don' t know if I have mentioned this earlier, but what the heck is going on with coffee shops closing earlier. We can't always go to coffe & but it is at least open later. Spot, why do you desert us in our time of need?

Hmm what else... I am just putting off more and more work. It is really going to catch up with me soon. Hypothetically speaking, what if you found something online that wasn't meant for you to see but it was online and you knew you weren't supposed to see it but it was online, which is public, would you read it? Just wondering. You can email me your opinions on this topic.

I hear it might snow tonight/tomorrow. That is a crazy world we live in. Today it was like 60 degrees and tonight it might snow. Insanity. I had half a sub left from subway today and I meant to bring it to school for my break between classes and I forgot. Grr, it would have been really good. But I did just eat some I believe fried catfish that Terry made and it was actually pretty good. Maybe I should try more different foods.

I'm glad to see more people are updating their journals. It makes a journal reading addict like me happy. I've started to think about what I am going to do this summer wiht Teres and Jill being gone for the entire summer. Hopefully Jen doesn't get a job where she has to get up early every morning and Yo gets over mono and the such. It will be weirdd not seeing Teres and Jill for the entire summer considering I usually see at least one of them everyday.

I've been in the mood for christmas since we went to see Elf. I am so ready to do christmas shopping and listen to christmas music. It is so fun.

Right now my favorite song is something like Monkey Gone to Heaven or something like that. It is addicting for some reason and is constantly in my head. But it is really good and I recommend you people download it (you people being the three people who read this). That reminds me I wish there was a way to know if people were reading this because it really seems pointless to update it if noone is ever reading it. I wish there was a way for people to like comment on it or something or I don't know I just wish I knew if anyone was reading this. If you read it you can email me, it is one of the links on the right. Ok that's all for now. I'll update again later

So today after being lazy I decided to go running a bit. I haven't went running in like a month and I ran only like to Kenmore Mercy which is maybe 10 or 15 short blocks, not that far at all and I like passed out. I felt dizzy and like I was about to throw up. I seriously did not think I would make it back before I threw up. I have no idea what was wrong, I can't believe it was that I am that out of shape. Maybe I am coming down iwth something becuase I am still coughing even now. After I got back I was still dizzy and sick for like an hour but then I felt better and raked the leaves. We'll see how I feel tomorrow.

An update on the Jen story from the previous journal. She wants me to tell you she held her liquor fine last night and she is back to normal. She drank everyone under the table again and basically beat them to a pulp in asshole. And despite it all she didn't throw up. But she did learn some great computer facts from the computer engineer people she was drinking with. hahah. What's more fun than computer talk? Oh wait just about anything.

What else? Well noone has emailed me to take down their pictures so they can't be that upset. Oh I saw Elf last night, the Will Ferrell movie. It was hilarious. Except it freaked me out a little that the girl saw no problem in dating a grown man who thought he was an Elf and dressed appropriately for it every day. Maybe that's the key, maybe I should wear Elf costumes more often. But hey that's the beauty of movies, isn't it? Jill didn't laugh to uproariously to the point that we got shushed by fellow patrons, which was suprising since it was Will Ferrell after all. Maybe these people were just nicer than usual. The place was packed, it was quite nearly a sell out if it wasn't actually one.

Oh my, that reminds me. We were supposed to meet Teres at Spot on Delaware after the movie b/c she had to babysit. Well it was closed and so we had to stand and wait for her for like a hlaf hour in the cold on the corner of Chippewa and Delaware. What is it with the coffee shops all closing earlier now. What is a coffe house addict to do? There were a lot of Marines and dressed up girls with them. There must have been a Marine ball or something like that. So then we went to Pano's and I had grilled cheese and it was really good. It was quite a steal considering it came with french fries and was only $3.49 and that is on the more expensive nighttime menu none the less. One of Jill's many many suitors was there but she rejected his advances once again.

At Elf there were like 12 previews and one was for the next Lord of the Rings movie. Now I am not a huge fan as much as much of the rest of the population is and I actually didn't really like the first one but I really liked the second one and the third one looks really good so I can't wait to see it. Ok that's all for now. I'll post again later.

I talked to Jen today and as usual she had some funny stories and updates. So she is obsessed with hockey, well she loves it...a lot. She has a friend Gordon who had like never seen a hockey game and knows nothing about it but he said he would go with her. Well on the way there in the car he admits he like went online and studied hockey rules and words and stuff so that he could understand what was going on a little bit and talk about it. Isn't that funny but great?

So later Jen and Gordon and his roomate Brent went back to their apartment and started drinking for like 5 hours but Gordon is like a two drink man, how sad that I could probably drink him under the table. Anyway, Jen drank more than either of them and continued long after they stopped. That's the Jen we know and love, the one who has no problem drinking alone and showing any man up with her drinking prowess. But ah she got sick and has been throwing up all morning. What is wrong with my friends and throwing up lately? Why does everyone have to steal my thunder? Sick stomachs and throwing up is my claim to fame. Just kidding, you guys can have it. OK that's all for now.

I've heard some people don't want the pictures of them that I have put up online. If you want me to take down a picture just e-mail me at mike@elmwoodstrip.com and tell me and I'll consider it (ok i'll most likely do it as soon as I get your email) You can also just e-mail for any reason or question or comment.

Marykate was home last night and we went to Coffee &. It was fun, we talked her love life, sang songs, did dances, didn't get served forever at pano's. It was fun. Woohoo for one night visits.

It's not about what you should do...but what you want to do. Nicole sent me that quote and it is good. Yet it's just not exactly me. It's hard for me to be like I just gotta do what I want to do and not think about everything else. Lately though, that isn't really the problem, the problem is even more I don't even know what I want to do. Eh, we'll see. Ok not much else to say now.

Listen to the dumbness being professed by my oral comm teacher. As if he isn't already the most ridiculous man on the face of the earth with his like going over things like a cabillion times and being a harsh harsh grader and giving the trickiest quizzes. Well now we have 7 classes left and he just decided to cancel one and so we only have 6 classes left. Yet in this time we are supposed to do our Persuassive Speeches (our last round of speeches took six class periods to get through the whole class and they were shorter), 6 rounds of short impromptu speeches (which it takes about a class period for 3 rounds), 2 quizzes and at least one day of him teaching and us watching examples of Persuassive Speeches. So basically I don't know how we are ever going to finish in time yet in class he said we are on schedule and doing great. I think he has no idea when the semester ends. So basically I have a feeling he is going to make us go to class during exam week or something, I totally would not put it past him but we'll see. Dumb, Dumb, Dumb. Oh by the way Halloween candy is cheap at Eckerd well prolly all stores. I bought a huge bag of bags of skittles and starburst for 1.24 each.

I have felt so stressed lately and yet I'm not sure why. I feel like I have so much to do and yet I do nothing. Like I do have tons of huge papers and presentations coming up and that is starting to worry me but it is something bigger. Like I feel so like i need to be doing something or finding something but I am not sure what that is. I go out just to get out of my house as much as possible but it doesn't make me feel any less stressed. I think part of it is I feel like I never have any time alone. Like I can never just sit in my house alone, there is always someone around. Sometiems you just need to be alone with noone bothering you or anything. My parents are always home, i think that is part of what is bothering me. I don't know. I just feel like I have to make so many decisions but I am not even 100% sure what those decisions are and I think it is extra bothering me lately because I don't want other people deciding these things for me as it appears to be happening. I don't know, like I just I feel like I have no direction in anything. School, work, relationships, nothing. I am going nowhere fast. Last night I ended up just walking up and down elmwood at like 10 o'clock by myself. It was refreshing, I needed it. It's not that I am like not happy though, like seriously lately everyhthing seems to be going really good and I have been really lucky but that almost makes me more nervous like it will all come crashing down. I am not sure what brought about this most recent rash of constant worrying and stress but it is no fun. I think part of it is I have noone I feel like I can really tlak to or maybe I have too many people I can talk to? That's weird I never thought of that before. I feel like I need one person who I can just tell everything but I keep some secrets from everyoen or don't feel comfortable tlaking to anyone about eveyrthing, like if I don't think I"ll like their answers. I don't know, I feel like maybe I need someone new just to tlak to, someone with no history with me and knows nothing about me. Who knows? Tomorrow I could feel totally different as often happens with me. I've almost fallen back into the pattern when I just drive past a place over and over thinking I will see a specific someone, and I don't mean that in liek I am searching for one particular person, but some person at different times and that liek I will just see them and they will solve everything and understand everything. But I never do. Ok that didn't make so much sense but I can't really explain it any better in type.

First off, Orange crush is an amazing drink but i haven't had it in a long time. Grape crush, not so amazing. Anyway that was not the original purpose of this entry. Well I haven't had any real crushes in a while except the teacher I wanted to sleep with but I'm pretty sure she is married. But now I do have some crushes and it is fun. I used to be obsessive from one crush to the next, but I haven't really in a while and i'm glad to have one again. It's so eigth grade and this one is just as futile as the rest, I don't really expect anything to come of it, actually I may never even see the person again, it was probably a one time meeting but hey it's fun. Hmm what else. MK was home this weekend and we had fun and saw Romeo and Juliet and some people in it like romeo and juliet and some others were really good and some were not but overall it was goodesque, not that I could do better mind you, I think I have just seen Romeo and Juliet 30 too many times. Ok that's all for now.

Oh and by the way if you email me at mike@elmwoodstrip.com it prolly won't go to me. It is completely messed up and is going to some reandom guy and if i send email it says it is from him, well only sometimes. I hope to get it fixed, well i mean have paul fix it as i do not understand computers at all.