correct lesson plan

tabulate observation data, complete report

write up background information

prepare for performance assessment, write lesson plan for it

create unit plan

complete inquiry lesson plan

study for math exam

teach 40 hrs this week

......... and my reward is going on a 2 week, somewhat around the world vaca.

they should have just named it asu senior year ridiculousness, not residency. i have found what is claimed to be a top program is really just a piece of crap and confusion disguising itself behind the name of a big school.

i have several classmates who eat, live and breath school, who are failing classes... after spending a whole day writing lesson plans. then they find out the received a 50%.

myself and other have mentor teachers who refinance their houses and make personal phone calls all day, including phone calls about their cat rescue.... and cat adoptions. as if i didn't already hate cats enough.

i also have a documented disability and i work in a classroom where more than one class is taught at time, making having hearing aids completely useless. in addition to this, my mentor constantly makes noise typing loudly and making phone calls while i am teaching. she isn't even watching me, she is stuffing her face and doing god knows what.

well, there is supposed to be a co-teaching model. no. this is purely me= a warm body who will teach and work for free. that's fine just shut up while i am trying to do my job.

also currently failing a pass/fass class, because pretty much my entire cohort cannot seem to reach the unattainable 80% required. this should send out a red flag, because we are all dean's list students...

we also found out we won't be graded on what was the most detailed and hard to write lesson plan ever, because it was decided it doesn't fit the asu format. what? i literally followed the rubric and example given to a t... spent nearly a whole day on it... to find out i wasted my time?

i am teaching 32 hrs, driving 3 hrs a day, taking 9.5 hrs of class, i have 17 credit hrs, plus teaching, plus trying to work to afford gas... and apparently i suck(we all do)... we are trying so hard and just ready to quit.

this should be a sobfest, it is teaching. it should be fun. i wake up every day not wanting to leave my bed... i've never dreaded anything this much.

when i tried to talk to my clinical instructor about receiving off the clock rude texts from my mentor, her not co-teaching, and also being left alone with the students(which i am not allowed to be), he simply brushed it off...

it's a double standard, expect such high quality unattainable work, and then you really don't care what happens in the classroom...um ok.

i have to go teach now...

supposedly they have more fun....

i want fun. i feel like i have a wig on. i have been debating this change for months.. YOLO.

it's a lesson: just do what you want... most things can be changed. and i mean this is moderation... i waste my time thinking too much.

Seriously a pink hut by the beach in a tropical place.... Le sigh!

Just spent nearly 1.5 hrs getting home. Thanks ASU for adhering to those green initiatives.... Also thanks to ASU I get to spent almost 150 a week on gas while I work for free student teaching for an entire year.

What jerks.... I can't wait to graduate, get a job, and live somewhere where I dot have to drive.

This boy I watch is having a bowl of blue pixi stick sugar for dessert.... I can't believe I'm allowing this. I'm leaving soon...=20

It's 80 here.... Buffalo also had no winter.


My PayPal has been hacked twice in he past 4 months.


Things is off yo.

There are a ton of issues with my program this semester and my entire cohort feels that way.... Some say to speak up and others think I should just play the whole messed up game.



What to do?????