deafness and bad news

I will not be going to blo next weekend, everything is messed up with school right now...

I swear the one time I do things right... The outcome is unfavorable.

I'm really sad I can't visit but my brother isn't even returning my calls and I don't know if I would be able to see my niece. I'm so tired of stressful family stuff... Its mostly my brother and it just makes me so sad we can't ever have a nice holiday because he's there and we all fight or he's gone and my mom is sad. Now with the baby I just feel like he doesn't want us around her and she's the apple of my eye and I miss her so much.


My health insurance is actually paying for my hearing aids and I'm wondering where the h they are. I can't hear anything in class and I basically sit and don't talk to anyone because I can never hear.


Both of these things combined are making it hard for me not to turn into a pile of mush.



I will be visiting blo and have hearing aids by mid March or else. :o(