to know whether or not i still work at the hospital.


feel like a bad child who has been placed in time-out.


not cool.

may or may not get fired tomorrow for something i didn't even do...

perception is everything. and my boss i think perceives me to be a threat to her. i am too smart and i see and say too much which gets her in trouble. from now on, when she is out of line i will say nothing.

i will put my head down in the hall and mind my own business. that what my mother said to do. and then she said find another job fast cuz that place is full of psychos and i need to get out fast.

either way, fired or not, i do need to move on. i also need to dumb it down a bit and just play robot at work.

anyway, after all that shiz went down with that man, i knew it would get spun and i would be placed in a position like this...

all that matters is blo is a few days away and i have another p/t job still and connections to help with a new job...

Is rocking a lil bebe to sleep. Melts my heart every single time!

ok, so i'm not really a baller. i am proud of my work ethic these days though. i'm doing super well with work and school, and keeping up with everything.

i have been keep the socialization down to a minimum which gets to be kinda hard. espesh when all of my friends are doing super fun stuff and i am stuck at home or at work, doing work of some sort.

the great part is that i am well on my way, well, really halfway there to having my dream job. i guess two years is really nothing though.

the only things i really need to work on are my finances, saving and building my credit, and the exercise thing which has way fallen to the wayside.

it has been a grueling schedule of get up get ready and out the door. i get so hungry and then reward myself with food... i haven't gained a lot. but i am losing muscle tone...

one of my classes is ending this week, and i plan on stepping up my fitness on tues and thurs when i will finally have some free time!!! woo woo!

can't wait for next week! i still have so much work to do, but this trip will be my reward. and the reward is gonna be so sweet!!!!!

also, i am getting back a nice chunk of change for my tax return which will be pretty sweet as well... life. is. good.

I sent an email to the ceo cco and nurse manager and still nothing.

I never want to see that coworker again. I never want to speak to him again. I am actually disgusted by him. Not hatred but disgust and repulsion.

Not sure anyone at work really cares. Job search has begun.

i was one step from walking out...

after a spat with a coworker, i was told by this person:

i am a stupid immature little brat, they have no time to deal with

this person has no respect for me, they only deal with me because they respect my mother and uncle

i am a little girl, and i act like a little girl, and we both know it

there are several physicians and nurses who want me fired, so i better watch what i say and who i say it to

these comments blew me away, and i was in full out tears. several physicians witnessed this encounter, but i doubt any will come for ward and stand up for me. in fact, the medical director was laughing.

i am good at what i do, and i am smart. this whole situation was so out of line, and i am so upset. honestly, i feel like this man is going to spin this stuff to try and get me fired. i have two other jobs so i am not that worried. and in the end, i know i am not wrong.

it is never ok, to let someone speak to you the way this man did to me. i felt intimidated, and little. i felt threatened. i was scared of him and i stood up for myself. my advice to you, is to always speak up for yourself. it is never acceptable to let someone belittle you, ever.

to have a grown man call me a stupid little girl is such an insult. this comes from someone i taught some advanced algebra to a few months ago. he praised me on being an intelligent young lady. he has told me he thinks im beautiful and witty, and today attacked and threatened me.

there are two sides to every story, and yes i was angry with him as well. but i would never call him a stupid little boy. i would never get right in his face and tell him i have no respect for him. i would not say this to anyone at work. i do not berate people.

i don't know what is going to happen tomorrow, and i feel so awful right now, it is hard to describe. he threatened my job and my character.

on the upside, i have a sweet new/used car and no more car debt. i have two other awesome jobs. i am gonna kick ass in school this semester and i have finally made some stellar friends out here!!!

• and i will see you buffalonians so soooooooooon!****

happy valentine's day to lovers and non-lovers alike!

I can't hear anything my history professor says. I its hard to explain to people who can hear but having someone else take my notes or sitting closer or having him talk louder is not going to help.

Basically I I am going to have to teach myself.

in the leather handbag.

twice this week, which means no more liquids in the handbag.

the bebe party has taken over my life... among other things.

i heart gene wilder. AND hello kitty, and mardi grad beads and glow stick as well. g'night thugz n playaz, WHAT???

i do not like them.

not sure if it is the super intense workout with my trainer, the energy drinks, protein bars, or the 15 hr grueling day i just endured. but i feel so sick to my stomach right now...

i hate throwing up. it is definitely the worst feeling, and i don't know if i should try to go to sleep or just get it over with.

i do not want to get up at 5am, i really really don't...

a coworker and i decided it is so awful working with the one lady, that working with her is like being served, except we replaced served with her name. "you've just been, *&^%$#." i think we work with her tomorrow, dear god.

help. maybe she is why i feel so sick..........