"losing my mind #1" written by Lilho on estrip.org

11/11/09 08:24 - 38ºF - ID#50275

losing my mind #1

I numbered it 1 because there is sure to be at least a 2 and 3.

On top of the illness wait no screw the illness.

I have a completely broken macbook everything erased forever.

Going to apple store fending off tear. My life from the past two years is on there. Everything. So so sad.

Being punished by god or someone really mean. Or both.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/11/09 05:54 - 44ºF - ID#50273

mystery illness

thanks (e:theecarey) and (e:libertad) for the concern!

im not feeling much better. i really have no clue what i have, if it's the stomach flu or food poisoning.

my praying to the porcelain gods has stopped, i guess as long as i only eat crackers and drink just water but my stomach is all in knots and it hurts so much!

i'm so tired of being home, and hoping to be able to leave the house in a few hours since i have done nothing in two days and i am starting to lose my mind here.

there's only so many movies one can watch...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/10/09 12:13 - 52ºF - ID#50266

i've been poisoned

so there were a million things i am supposed to do today but instead i am lying here.

my body is currently rejecting all food and water and i think i have food poisoning.

no one is around and i need some gatorade, but i am not sure i can do a trip to the store and back.

i hope it doesn't get to the point it did fours years ago when i collapsed... because it's seeming to head in that direction.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/09/09 11:42 - 53ºF - ID#50262

barftastic

that is the word to describe how i feel right now. my insides are at war.

i have been in contact with way too many sick people in the past week, and i thought i was invincible but i think it has caught up with me.

well its either flu or food related. god forbid i caught the swine, but i doubt it. but that would be kinda cool, only if i didn't die. but that's creepy because if i did get it and die, then i predicted my own death which means i am psychic and this whole time i should have been making bank with my own psychic hotline.

good thing i picked up a shift at one of my jobs tomorrow... i am hoping it all blows over.

i have to tell my vegas story but not now because i might puke all over my laptop.

goodnight.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/07/09 09:17 - 55ºF - ID#50247

being sick

sometimes things work out way different than you planned.

this time the moral of the story is, you do not leave someone when they are sick. even if they just need to sleep and you are bored. just being there is what they need.

plus bedside water and gatorade helps.

a friend in need is a friend indeed.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/04/09 09:17 - 36ºF - ID#50212

two can play at the vicious game

this man i work with has a mild case of tourette's syndrome. i really think i set it off in him somehow.

he's actually a really handsome guy, and i used to have a slight crush on him, but he is always saying the weirdest stuff to me and now i just feel strange around him.

i know he thinks i am really pretty, so maybe i make him nervous or something???

anyway, yesterday i kinda yelled out a question to him, and i guess maybe i sounded a bit rude, but i wasn't saying anything out of line. i was just asking if an admit was cancelled or not. he freaked out at me and came over and and said a bunch of stuff about how i don't know ho to form conversations, and then used a weird voice and came closer and said,

"two can play at the vicious game sarah."

ok, what does this mean??? i am not vicious. i don't play games at work. i pretty much go there to work and get paid.

(e:hodown) thinks this whole situation is so funny, but i am just confused.

i have to go get ready for work so i can play the vicious game...

leetee writes at 11:17:47 11/05/09 - Comment #52639: (e:lilho), i am glad we could clear this issue up. :o)

metalpeter writes at 05:59:39 11/04/09 - Comment #52626: Maybe he likes you and like Chris Issiac so he is being clever with the song lyrics. Often times at work people do play games and don't even know it, or maybe that is just at my place.

lilho writes at 02:17:11 11/04/09 - Comment #52625: wow, my bad (e:leetee), i thought you were calling me out. i was all like "skhazamm", she got some beef with my and i didn't understand. moral of story, maybe i do have the vicious, and i will be only sweet to the weird coworker.

jason writes at 01:44:33 11/04/09 - Comment #52621: Maybe he is just socially awkward, and this is his way of trying to get into them jeans. BTW the peacock outfit was cool, those poses crack me up.

libertad writes at 01:42:18 11/04/09 - Comment #52620: Peaches!

leetee writes at 01:40:11 11/04/09 - Comment #52619: Holy crap. All i was trying to say is that you were NOT being a bitch. You did not INTEND to be a bitch, but maybe HE THOUGHT you were being a bitch. I was actually on your side. But, i will refrain from commenting, if it will make you feel better.

matthew writes at 01:32:52 11/04/09 - Comment #52618: No one said you were being a bitch. But if you said/did something that he interpreted as bitchy then ,IMO, you should apologize, if not just to smooth things over and make your job more comfortable for you. If it was me I wouldnt apologize for a bitchy remark i didn't make, but I'd apologize for being misunderstood. Especially if this is patient at the hospital and not your coworker.

lilho writes at 01:13:55 11/04/09 - Comment #52617: Ok I was not being a bitch to him. I asked him a question. He yells things out to me all the time its a hospital we get busy. Maybe people shouldn't leave butch comments here to me when I don't make ride comments towards them. Ok thanks.

matthew writes at 12:54:32 11/04/09 - Comment #52614: Maybe if you apologized for (what he thought was) your "rude" comment he would apologize for his? Work drama sucks, especially when's it's drama caused by misunderstandings.

hodown writes at 12:50:42 11/04/09 - Comment #52612: I chalk this up to (e:lilho) having the Mary Heart affect on the dude (Seinfeld anyone). You just set him off. Combine that with the hearing loss and that's a comedy waiting to write it's self.

I also think we should start a gang "Sweet & Vicious".

lilho writes at 12:21:11 11/04/09 - Comment #52610: I wasn't being a bitch I was asking a simple question. Leaving rude comments is bitchy.

leetee writes at 12:17:36 11/04/09 - Comment #52609: Uhm, yeah, you were totally misunderstood. It's not like you KNEW you were being a bitch... someone musta just thought you were being one? Craaaazyyy....

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/02/09 10:57 - 46ºF - ID#50197

some sort of fancy bird

now you can see the whole costume... im sad now that halloween is over. i never liked halloween until this year. i realized it has potential for full on glitter and camp, which is basically what makes life worth living! what to be next year...

hodown writes at 12:48:49 11/04/09 - Comment #52611: I feel like you should send a piocture of this to Liza Minelli.

matthew writes at 10:16:34 11/03/09 - Comment #52579: If you were a bird Sarah, you'd definatley be a peacock.

heidi writes at 10:32:37 11/02/09 - Comment #52574: I want "how to be a girl" lessons from (e:lilho) & (e:hodown).

libertad writes at 09:04:31 11/02/09 - Comment #52571: I want that bird. I love you because you don't wear cheap makeup.

lilho writes at 07:24:13 11/02/09 - Comment #52559: oh, the makeup was really easy to get off. i turned on the shower and sat down and washed my face! i use a loreal cleanser that removes eye makeup as well. the feathers came off easily, i used latex eyelash glue, and it comes off painlessly and easily. i dont use cheap makeup, so it didnt irritate my face, and instead of crappy face paint, i used liquid shadows. i bought really fine glitter at the craft store because it is much cheaper than the sephora stuff and essentially the same thing and the jewels i used the latex glue for as well. i brought eye drops with me the the parties because the glitter was irritating my eyes and that helped to clear them out!

lilho writes at 07:18:32 11/02/09 - Comment #52558: thanks guys! it was actually pretty simple to do the costume, the makeup was the hard part which was actually a lot more intricate in person. for the feathers around my neck and back i pinned a boa to my leotard. i bought a tutu that didn't fit right, so i cut off the waist band and pinned the tutu to fit around my waist and pinned the purple flower broach to the front and i wore black spandex leggings underneath. the feather tail was angel wings turned upside down and worn at the waist and tied around with elastic like a belt. i glued an extra row of feather plumes to the bottom of the back of the wings to elongate the tail and add color and voila! i am thinking of being an ostrich next year, but an elegant one as they are not a very pretty bird!

heidi writes at 04:50:21 11/02/09 - Comment #52556: Wow!!!! I'm so glad you posted full pix! That's a total winner of a costume. Beautiful job!!! How did you do it?

(btw, were the feathers & glitter hard to get off your face?)

businesscheese writes at 12:25:43 11/02/09 - Comment #52547: Love it, Lilho! Espesh the eye makeup. Rawr.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/01/09 01:18 - 48ºF - ID#50179

success

(e:hodown), where my prize at????

there were no peacock feathrs but i made one amzing bird. everyone, including myself agreed i had the coolest costume.

like tim gunn says, "make it work", which i totally did.

a couple was dressed as tim gunn and heidi klum at one of the parties. we made great friends. only true fashionistas can understand the meaning of couture halloween...

more pictures to come later.....

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Location: Buffalo, NY

10/30/09 03:05 - 50ºF - ID#50146

peacock

i am obsessed with being an amazing diy peacock for halloween. its getting expensive and i don't know if i can pull it off.

ALL to prove a point my friends.

i can do this...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

10/22/09 07:38 - 48ºF - ID#50078

a lack of glamour here

my sister life is not very glamourous and this upsets me. she carries her laundry down the street like a common hobo... to the laundromat and back.

i'm hoping to change some of this for her, at least for a day. maybe i will treat her to a an overnight spa day for her xmas gift.

i am on the no spending money plan which includes me. sitting at home when i am not working, thinking about how i should get online and do my french assignments and then watching netflix and eating chocolate and mac n cheese.

by christmas i may not be allowed in the spa, you will need a crane to lift me.

the good news is my clothes still fit which means if i stop this now, i can be back in shape in just a month. must hike 4 miles a day.

anyway, (e:deeglam) is supposed to come soon, and she gets a spa day too. i am so sick of the lack of glamour everywhere. are we doomed to life a plain and sparkleless life?????