"people piss me off" written by Lilho on estrip.org

04/03/07 01:56 - 54ºF - ID#38729

people piss me off

what's new?

i keep running into people i don't want to see. i try to avoid them and then they talk to me. better yet, when i am wasted. whatever.

seriously, i hate when art professors try to tell me my work doesn't make sense. sorry i didn't take the easy way out and create some dumbass paper square bullshit, and my work acutally suggests that i have some talent. sorry im not a dyke who's into georgia o'keefe.

now i have to spend many more hours cutting paper squares, and trying to create something that will please the professor, because it's all about getting the "A" right?

and why are the absolutely no hot men in my life? or decent men at all?

when i say i might go gay, i really mean it this time. but i doubt they are any hot chicks either.

i hate black paper!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: injury

03/29/07 12:39 - 37ºF - ID#38678

my ankle is a kankle!

i fell last night and twisted my left ankle.

was she drunk you ask? was she stoned?

nope, just a huge dumbass. i fell to my knees and rolled over. i lied there for a few minutes. did anyone help me up or see if i was ok? nope.

then i walked home from target.

now, im going to lie on the couch all day. in the hopes that ill be able to walk again tomorrow!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: helping

03/23/07 09:29 - 48ºF - ID#38598

dont just stand there, do something!

when did the world become filled with assholes?

probably a long long time ago. and im probabyl one of them.

but, when an old old man falls on the trasin tracks dowtown in the pouring rain and at least 20 people stand and do nothing; that is unacceptable. this makes me sick.

im glad i was there to help the poor guy up.

being 23 can suck. but im sure being old and rickety, and having nobody to help you get up from the tracks when a train is coming sucks way more. and in the pouring rain. im so sick of all of the dumb-fuck "suits" that think they are too busy to help someone.

i know im girly and into celeb gossip. but i wont ever sell out and think im too good to help someone out.

this makes me soooo mad. i don't understand why people will just watch and not help out. i see it all of the time. people who don't hold open doors, drivers in such a rush that they can't let someone cross the street. where is everyone rushing to? why is everyone suddenly more important than someone else?

being 23 really doesn't suck. but i never want to see myself turn into somebody who is totally selfish and impatient. that would suck.

i think not having a car, and seeing how people who are truly impoverished live, gives me a whole new perspective. i live a totally pampered and self-indulgent life. i want more than that. there are so many people that have so much less than me, and i need to stop wanting more. the only things i want more of, are love, friendship, and compassion. ok, i do want more cute dresses, and some alcohol and lipgloss, but if i truly am able to give back, i think i deserve it.

have a great weekend ya'll. and if you see someone in need, don't just stand there. DO SOMETHING!!!!!!!

mrmike writes at 02:44:40 03/24/07 - Comment #16773: You got soul. Excellent post

james writes at 02:23:18 03/24/07 - Comment #16770: God created man in his image, asshole and all. So we are made to be assholes. But, by our duel spiritual nature, you were able to transcend assholerly and help a fellow human being/asshole machine out. You are to be commended.

jenks writes at 12:10:23 03/24/07 - Comment #16763: Nice post. i'm with you 100%.

metalpeter writes at 11:51:28 03/24/07 - Comment #16758: (e:theecarey) makes a good point. But there are a few other factors that I think play into the entire not helping someone out. First of all there is that well if they needed or wanted help they would ask or say help. Another factor i think might be part of what Carey was talking about that sometimes people think that I should help but don't maybe they assume the person next to them will or just can't act on it. My understanding that mob rule or group think works the same way if you are marching with torches or standing doing nothing. There have been cases where 3 people have been beating on some guy and 30 people just stand around and watch. But if someone walks along and see what is going on them get envolumed can sometimes cause that to change. I also think that there is a generation thing going on. I think that we as Americans are much more issolated as a whole so that sense of community isn't there anymore. So before when someone needed help everyone would rush over. It is kinda like in the "old days" when if a kid was doing something wrong on the street and one of his mothers friends saw him she would scold him severly or smack him or what ever the punishment was then mom would do the same thing. But now if you see some kid rob another kid and you tell the parent its "oh my son would never do that" you hand them a picture of the kid and its like "oh thats not him". But maybe it is just me. I think it is good that you are mad that no one helped. I'm guessing if I saw an old guy fall I would just pass him buy to, even though I shouldn't.

ladycroft writes at 11:43:05 03/24/07 - Comment #16756: behold the power of the group. human beings are pack animals. we don't like to do anything to stand out from the group, including assisting someone. we usually assume, 'someone else will do something' because we're afraid to go against the pack. stupid, but true.

theecarey writes at 12:46:20 03/24/07 - Comment #16755: right on, lilho, right on. You can have it all-- love, friendship, compassion and super shiny lip gloss. Sometimes its not that people dont want to help, but that they dont know how. Takes some creeping out of the comfort zone to lend a hand. But with people such as yourself giving it a go- perhaps someone watching or reading this, will have it on their mind to practice kindness too. thumbs up on the post, chica.

museumchick writes at 10:33:15 03/23/07 - Comment #16754: I know having you reach out made a difference for him:).

chico writes at 09:58:29 03/23/07 - Comment #16752: not that you should necessarily be congratulated for doing the right thing, but good job (e:lilho). it's reassuring to know someone out there is willing to take the time to help a person in need.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: post-party

03/21/07 11:51 - 50ºF - ID#38550

things are what you make of them

thats a really great song by "bishop allen". check em out ya'll thats some good shit for the ipod.

if you missed out, on the parade with me. well, you missed out. i hugged every old man, and even rode in a van with the parade for a bit. (e:brit) , i think you must owe me about $200 bucks for all of the bets you gave me. its the one day of the year i feel completely free. out in the street, drinking the crunk juice. oh yes.

now, im back in work/school mode and thinking i am totally ready for spring break. apparently the assholes at ecc, do not consider midterm a good time for spring break.

I've been celibate for way too long. perhaps i will become crazy born-again, again, and revirginize myself...

ps. i shall post some st patty's day pics soon...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: st mattys day

03/17/07 11:41 - 22ºF - ID#38497

Meet up before the parade!

Hey (e:peeps) , let's continue the celebration, and all meet up at (e:strip) headquarters on Sunday before the parade! To give us time to get downtown and pregame, let's strive for 12:30-1:00.

The parade starts at 2pm and will kick off at Niagara Square and end at North Street. So, if you are Irish, you like the Irish, or just like drinking and want to have a great time... BE THERE!

If you need anymore info, just leave a comment.

P.S. It was great to see everyone at the party. A more tame time than usual, but good times as always. :O)

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/16/07 01:43 - 26ºF - ID#38482

COME TO ST MATTY'S DAY!

umm, ill be there. reason enough!

but really, i rarely get the chance to socialize anymore, and it would be great to see you all! hope to see you!

ps. spring is so close, i can smell it! and who knew i loved walking so much! i loves it. love it. loving it. feeling healthy is so great!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: school

03/14/07 05:37 - 49ºF - ID#38457

my back hurts

whatever dumbass tells you that art classes are an easy "A" is wrong.

i now have to re-do a million projects for tomorrow, because my professor apparently grades my pieces way tougher, since she has discovered im not a complete idiot.

an fabirc printing, makes me feel like im some 1800 era poor woman working at a fabric mill. i shall have some very pretty pieces though!

off to walk my aching back a million miles, and then to the gym!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: life

03/08/07 01:15 - 22ºF - ID#38397

finally

i feel totally fine being alone. i don't feel like i need anything or anyone.

ok, maybe i totally need my ipod! and lipgloss of course.

i'm actually so ok, that i've pretty much lost any interest in dating. im more interested in getting good grades, getting ready for my huge move, and going to work. and of course, having great times with friends!

this feels good! :O) have a great day everyone!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: the blues

03/02/07 10:46 - 34ºF - ID#38333

dont bother reading

ok, its almost os ridiculous, so i may just laugh. or sit and paint and listen to emo music...

the 15 hour shift begins...

and only a few aren't going to know what i am talking about. so ju8st ingore this post. i just want to keep a memory of these times so i can look back and laugh, and remember why i moved.

sorry, (e:peeps), im still in high school.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: life

03/02/07 02:54 - 38ºF - ID#38329

the minimalist life

so, living by yourself is a bitch. its expensive, nobody has dinner for you when you get home, and its expensive.

i have decided to cut back in anticipation of said move, and the fact that i NEED a new car. here's what i will be saying goodbye to:

netflix

internet(ok, maybe)

my car, i loved you while it lasted

alcohol for the most par

any sort of clothes shopping, at all. but i do need to get new sneakers, so that doesn't count

im gonna keep my gym membership a my one luxury. im sure between all of the walking plus the gym i will be in tip-top shape in no time.

also, the fact that i will no longer have a car, means i can really be green party, at least for a short while.

ps. the police will never ever have your best interest at heart. don't let them catch you ridin dirty...