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Category: life

03/08/07 01:15 - 22ºF - ID#38397

finally

i feel totally fine being alone. i don't feel like i need anything or anyone.

ok, maybe i totally need my ipod! and lipgloss of course.


i'm actually so ok, that i've pretty much lost any interest in dating. im more interested in getting good grades, getting ready for my huge move, and going to work. and of course, having great times with friends!






this feels good! :O) have a great day everyone!

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Category: the blues

03/02/07 10:46 - 34ºF - ID#38333

dont bother reading

ok, its almost os ridiculous, so i may just laugh. or sit and paint and listen to emo music...

the 15 hour shift begins...

and only a few aren't going to know what i am talking about. so ju8st ingore this post. i just want to keep a memory of these times so i can look back and laugh, and remember why i moved.

sorry, (e:peeps), im still in high school.
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Category: life

03/02/07 02:54 - 38ºF - ID#38329

the minimalist life

so, living by yourself is a bitch. its expensive, nobody has dinner for you when you get home, and its expensive.


i have decided to cut back in anticipation of said move, and the fact that i NEED a new car. here's what i will be saying goodbye to:

  • netflix

  • internet(ok, maybe)

  • my car, i loved you while it lasted

  • alcohol for the most par

  • any sort of clothes shopping, at all. but i do need to get new sneakers, so that doesn't count

im gonna keep my gym membership a my one luxury. im sure between all of the walking plus the gym i will be in tip-top shape in no time.

also, the fact that i will no longer have a car, means i can really be green party, at least for a short while.

ps. the police will never ever have your best interest at heart. don't let them catch you ridin dirty...

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Category: sickness

03/01/07 01:13 - 29ºF - ID#38318

not feeling well

yesterday. worked my ass off in class. fabric printing is a bitch, and the work load never seems to end.

then, i ran some errands, went home, ate dinner, and then went to the gym. after the gym i decided to enjoy a pipe, and some wine. bad idea. i swear i only had two glasses. well, i woke up throwing up at 5am, got very little and poor sleep.

now i am in between class. going to a three hour class, and feeling like puking again. i hope i make it through.

this is a strange sickness. my whole body hurts, and im just so tired. i actually don't think even think it is illness, its exhaustion. work is so shortstaffed, and i barely have time to think.

anyway, i went to the gym last night, and now my legs feel like they might break off at the knee. i supposed it doesn't help that i am wearing heels, but after five days of jeans and sneakers, i had to return to my girly self. even if that means a little suffering in my part.

good day all. hope you are still enjoying this lovely winter. its my last. ha. ha.
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Category: perez

02/28/07 06:30 - 33ºF - ID#38309

i heart perez hilton

he makes me lol everday day!

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Category: insomnia

02/27/07 01:46 - 28ºF - ID#38295

this is rediculous

i have gotten like zero sleep in about four days. three overnight in a row and two doubles. i feel exhausted and wound up at the same time.

a few questions:

1. how do we all feel about internet dating?

2. how do we all feel about the weird tin-foil thing jennifer hudson wore over her dress to the oscar's?

3. why did that stupid little groundhog lie about an early spring? i think he needs to be killed/starved/sent away.

4. why am i thinking about work, and i left almost two hours ago?

5. why is my mom way better than yours?

6. who wants like all of my stuff when i move? who wants to have a giant (e:strip) yard sale?

7. why does every man ever always check me out, but i never get asked out on a date?

8. why do i spend so much godamn time on this website?

  • i currently love, au revior simone!****


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Category: crush

02/28/07 01:14 - 29ºF - ID#38289

i am officially a loser

i have an online crush. i know, i know. but it's fun, and who knows...


let me have my fun, i haven't had ANY in a long long time.


goodnight!
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Category: moving

02/25/07 05:35 - 31ºF - ID#38278

leaving for good

i have decided that im going to move to Arizona. I've really made up my mind this time, and its not changing. it will be the end of an era, and im really excited to start a whole new life out there.

i feel like i have put so much effort into living here, with little gain, if any. im tired of putting out so much to get so little in return. i don't want to have a broken heart anymore. i don't want to feel betrayed by anyone. i will dearly miss the (e:viscos) , and (e:matt) , and (e:terry) of course. other than that, there is nothing here for me. i have a dwindling supply of friendships, and ties to anyone in buffalo, and find myself becoming more and more lost and depressed here each day. i miss my mother, and the good advice that she gives(yet i never take). i miss feeling happy and being out in the sun, and being around family.

get it while you can, because im not going to be around much longer (e:peeps).

p.s. im so sick of working overnights.
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Category: work

02/22/07 02:14 - 34ºF - ID#38242

im a getting an award

thats right, something to feel good about.

im getting a "lifesaver award" from work for saving a client's life using the heimlich. isn't that swell!

now, if i could only stop coughing and sleeping. my mother has come to the rescuse and is sending anitbiotics stat. im sick of sitting here, but don't really want to venture out and hack up a lung in public, i don't really think that will make me any more popular.

my sister is really sick now too and has missed two days of work. i think it is fair to blame it on me. im really sorry (e:hodown). i think perhaps my new nickname "typhoid mary" might me appropriate.

p.s. i think i have decided to move to az...
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Category: location

02/20/07 11:58 - 38ºF - ID#38219

leaving new york

i got home very late last night. it seems nobody ever wants to drive me to/pick me up from the airport. i do it all the time, but alas, i feel that i always put in way more than i get, from anything or anyone these days.

i took a cab home, which was actually fine, because i was really tired and didn't feel like talking to anyone.

the longer i stay here, the more i feel like i don't have enough friends. or really anybody to be there when i really need it. its ok because i learned to be fine on my own, but it would be so nice to live near my sister, or mother and have a friend/loved one always around. i guess im not the kind of person who likes to be fiercely independant. i like knowing that i can get help if i need it. plus, i want to be there for my family as well. i miss them so fucking much i think it actually hurts.

i know i always say, im not going to stay, but this time i really can't. buffalo is such a small little bubble, and i feel like i owe it to myself to want/have more. its so clliquey, and gossipy. i can't leave the house w/o seeing somebody i know, and half of them i don't want to see.

the problem is, where to go? new york is amazing and has basically everything i love, however, i just don't know if i can handle it there. its so big and busy and crowded, and expensive. arizona is beautiful and so is the weather, but it lacks the feel of an old city, which i love. the jobs there are plenty, and the pay is great. i wouldnt be poor like in ny.

i have a huge decision to make, and not very much time to do it.

p.s. the site looks really nice (e:paul)!
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