here in buffalo. and its kinda bringing me down.

i think i shall see (e:tina) today, as she always brightens my day. i still need to git her bday gift, and im scared to get anything, because she has the best taste, and i musn't offend her. lol.

just less than two weeks before i head of for a three city adventure. i am stressed out big time, and in huge need of it.

maybe when i am in AZ i will climb back up that big crazy mountain and do some serious thinking.

i am off to class and then 2 12 hr shifts this weekend, and another 8 hr shift mon. by tues, i will be sufficiently shitfaced, and not the drunk kind.

g'day

this woman in the finals of project runway said, "i want women to realize fashion will make you life better." or some shit like that.

ok. i love fashion, but this bitch is delusional. stilettos, or a fancy dress never got me further.

everyone has to work for what they have, fashion or no fashion.

so, if i wear some designer shit tomorrow, i will wake richer and happier.
those modes aren't happy, they are coked up. i would think i was happy too if i was coked up. coke makes you happy, it makes you a rock star.

ok, i just thought my cell phone was mouse, im gonna sign off.

ok, so, anyway. is the world ending or what? it seems like the fucking god damn storm has just turned into this wet dreary awfulness.

FALL, WHERE ARE YOU????

i would like to express my anger at the storm, because i ordered god damn dsl, but can't get it until nov. 1st now. how does this do me any good? i leave for vegas on that day. now i have to work around my schedule, and find time to spend at the god damn library, but alas, they are only open til 8 on weekdays and 4 on sat. not even fucking open on the weekends. bullshit.

at least i have a crockpot and a roast cooking. now all i need is internet....

i did also today purchase a ton of groceries, to replace the stuff i had to get rid off. lots of yummy stuff. as i was walking out of wegmans, a jar of marinara sauce drop out of my cart and shattered on the ground. i just walked in and told them, and they had me grab another one. this was great. i wonder, can i always just say this, and get free stuff? they didn't even look at my receipt. cragee.

now, since nothing is really even open here at school, and it appears most classes were canceled anyway, and i have recieved no word from any of my professors, i declare this a free for all, and will go surf the web.

p.s. having power is a beautiful thing.

it ended up being very a very quiet but pleasant day. (e:thesimeon) and i went out for b-fast and then to spot to study. after figuring we would have no school, we headed to the oh-so crowded smelleria to indulge in the spectacle of retail. we then called about ten restaurants, to finally find that sienne was open. went home to get ready(minus heat or power) and headed out. minus the screaming baby, who bring a fucking baby to a nice restaurant? we enjoyed the meal, watched the pink panther, and i headed home to brave my cold, dark little apartment. i had the best sleep in ages, and was all snug.

thanx everyone for the bday wishes!

im 23, im old>:O(

will combine for a most unfavorite day of mine. i just spent two hours being thuroughtly confused by three different tutors in the math lab. aren't these people supposed to know this stuff.

so, an offer stand that i will feed you , massage you, and bath you on sunday if you promise to help me with my stats. i have an exam on mon, and have to get better than a 65 this time. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!
PLEASE, ANYONE......

and with that, i bid you good day. enjoy the cold windyness and wet snow, i know i will.

waking up to rain, and having unpleasant dreams is not the best.

im missing my mom a lot. and i need a huggle. thats a huddle of hugs.

so much work to do...

anyway. my car is depressed and refuses to pass inspetion. what shall i do. speak softly to it, and hope that it feels better soon.

i ordered netflix and will be receiving my first order on monday. hells yea.

also. my bday celebration. 1000 voelkers, sat night. if you don't i automatically hate you. if you do come, i might show you a nipple. lol.

if you come and buy me drink, ill go home with you.

its win/win.

is everyone having PMS, or a case of PMT? LOL. drama. hey, lets all just drink and be merry. besides, if there is no party. terry can't be my lion, as i am his tamer. people, come on.

apparently i didn't get any of my voicemail this week. i suddenly had 15 new messages today. aobut half were from my mother. i miss her.

the more the holidays near, the more i hope i don't spend them alone, as it is unlikely i get to go away for thanksgiving, and i will definitely be here for christmas. thats really depressing.

i hope (e:hodown) can come and celebrate xmas with me, and that i will be ableto get away to nyc for thanksgiving. otherwise, i will prob intrude on one of your holdiay celebrations, bitches.

on another note, i need to get my damn inspection sticker. I've been without one for a while now, and i tired to go in friday, but they "didn't have time". i was supposed to get my ass up in time to go before work today, but i didn't. my bad. monday will be a very special day.

i keep having these awful dreams, which also include close friends and family, and something very bad happening. like, the time my brother was going to kill me. or the time i was having an illegitimate child, and wouldn't tell the father i was pregnant. freud could have a field day with those.

on another note, i am getting too large. i am going to be on vaca in a month, and don't want to hear it from mother that i shouldn't carry so much weight in my torso, and will be forced to be something about this in the next few weeks. if i can drop 5-10 lbs that will be good. i just need to stop eating only bread, cereal, pasta, and subs, and some fucking vegetables. and do a couples crunches here and there. maybe go to the gym at school, maybe. maybe i can actually work up the courage to wake at 6 and work out before class. if i did that, i would be the shit.

i miss my girlfriends and currently have an opening for a girlfriend who: is smart, has similar style, likes to laughabout stupid stuff, will dance, will party, will listen to my many issues, and who is looking for the same. i do love my gays, but the bf is away, and i don't get to talk to her much. (e:tina) is great too, but we never see eachother anymore. she always has to do art shit. i hate artists. jk. i just miss having someone to talk to.

fall is a lovely season, but somewhat lonely, and winter even more so.

i really think im gonna paint my apartment in the next few weeks...if i ever get that damn loan check...

have a good weekend (e:peeps). i better see ya'll at the bowling alley next sat. :O)