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08/04/04 10:34 - ID#26021

desperately seeking roommate again!

I NEED A ROOMMATE, MUST BE OUT OF HOUSE BY SEP 1ST. ANYONE KNOW ANYONE? PLEASE HELP ME!
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08/04/04 04:54 - ID#26020

updating again?

so, i am writing here again today. just wanted to say that sometimes it is neccessary to do the uneccessary. if you feel like something isn't working, fix it. if it can't be fixed get rid of it. your life will feel so less cluttered.

hmmm, am i being too vague? well, if you don't like your job, lose it. it your friends suck, ditch em and find new ones. ditch the bad feelings and feel good about who you are, there is only one of you. don't stay stuck on the past(which i think i have done a little too much), the future is whatever you make of it. just start by having a great day today!


i am off to enjoy the second half of my already great day. to matthew, paul, terry, rachel, tina(wherever you are), hodown, thesimeon, flacidness, mike, jill, diana... and the rest of you crazy elmwood people, "thank you for being a friend"-part of the jingle from the golden girls!:)



life is so much better being just a little crazy.
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08/04/04 08:40 - ID#26019

no work for me

i decided not to go to work today. partly because i just don't want to work, and partly because i hate them and i got the shaft big time. the girl that i was working with now has another aide, so i fill in for classrooms who need extra help. this sucks. linda's class was great. she is always happy and so kind. the teachers that i have been working with the past three days blow. the kids in the one class are way beyond help, but the other kids are 7-10 and so damn cute. all they want to do is run arouns and play. i feel bad for them because they spend so much time doing boring work with a boring teacher. yesterday, i was put in her room, and she didn't even want me there. ok, was i supposed to just go home and not work? b***h. i have taken matters into my own hands and decided that i will not go in today, for the fear of going on a field trip with a horrible class once again. i choose to not be pinched, slapped, and kicked today. i will stay home and read.

im really exciting for this afternoon. matthew and i are going to some party in canada. i will finally meet the people that he nannies for. i feel like i kinda already know them, that weird. anyway, no work, and beach today, holla.



my justification for not working today, is that i worked extra long yesterday. right after the 8-2 school job i headed to grannies for four hours to be her helper. i was glad to help. you know you love someone when you will clean the poop off their toilet bowl. i think i said too much. good day all.:)
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08/03/04 08:39 - ID#26018

before sleep

beast, i always want to talk to someone right before i go to bed too. someone that will have pleasant conversation and give me kisses or hugs before i go to sleepies. ie, mommy, sister, boy.

i must go get ready for work. i really feel like i might throw up, great.
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08/02/04 04:51 - ID#26017

rain has gone away for more than one day

so, after a pretty rough day, i am gonna sit in the sun and swim. i think being this age is just hard no matter who you are. life is very exciting, and filled with new experiences, but very very uncertain. why are we so afraid of the unknown? have we been trained to fear uncertainites? i am going to untrain myself.

tonight, i will have fun. i will try not to cry. lisa, thanx for the kinda words. why do we never ever see eachother?
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08/02/04 08:39 - ID#26016

homesick and waiting

its been over a month now, the longest i have ever gone without seeing my mom. its quite possibly the hardest thing i have ever had to do. i am ao used to her always being there, leaving me notes every morning, and helping me when i need it. i even miss doing chores. i misss that the notes always said, "love mom", at the end. i feel so homesick that i can't even describe it. it is the worst feeling though. i guess im ok most of the time, but the feeling just gets worse when im around other people's families. it just makes me want to be with my own. i thought by now it would be ok, but i think its getting worse. i cry myself to sleep a lot. i constantly think about what i would be doing if i was in arizona right now. i'm really confused and the most unhappy I've ever been right now.

the worst part of all of this is not knowing what will happen in the next few months. i don't know what is going on with cosmetology school, i havent figured out the financial stuff yet. i don't know if i will stay here, even though there really isn't anyplace else for me to go. school is in west seneca, and i have to have a car to get there, which means all of my money will go towards the car. after this month, i don't have health insurance, which is just really scary.

basically, i just have no clue. its scary. i want my mom. i want to go home, wherever that is.



and that is what i have thought about every signle day since june 29th.
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07/31/04 04:17 - ID#26015

damnit tortoise

i was holding Basra, paul, matt and, terry's tortoise friend. we were bonding, having tortoise, eskimo kisses, and it peed all over me. the tortoise wet my pants and arm and hand. i squeeled, oh well, shit, i mean, pee happens.

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07/31/04 09:57 - ID#26014

sleep and politics

first, i went to bed before 7 last night. i did not go anywhere, i did not talk to anyone; i just sleep. let me tell you, it was the best time i have had in a long time. sleep is great.

after a day of complete and utter torture, sleep was the cure. i can go about my day now with a better view on things. top be short about it, i work with emotionally disturbed children yesterday as my cute little down syndromw student may be getting pulled out of school by her psycho overprotective and paranoid 70-yr old mother who is working the system so she doesn't have to(more on that at another time). lets see here: i was kicked, slapped on the face, had my hair pulled, spent four hours listening to crying, laughing, yelling, and even quite a bit of screaming. one child tried to make out with me and started grabbing my chest. at denny's, they were touvhing other people's food; people at other tables. they were following our server around and grabbing various things from the waiter's station. then they all got up and started to wonder around the restaurant, while the teacher and other aide were cashing out. hmmmmmmm, leaving me with six kids, who wont listen to me; that was no fun.

now, caitlin, please come back to school on monday. i never realized how good the kids in my class really are. always heloing out. following directions. looking for work to do. they are so damn cute. i love them. i really do.

those other children, they are so bad. ofcourse, i am all for helping those who need it, but those other children, they were no fun. by the end of the day, i felt so tortured and used, that i felt like crying. i was crying. i had no idea what i was going into, but oh boy did i know when i got out.

as for all of this politics talk, i will just remain kinda silent. i am certain that the world will continue on its course and that we are just a small portion of the fraction at hand. we wont be around for much longer. the earth wants to be alone with the plastic, and im ok with that. i just want to be happy, and help out a little.


going to help granny by grocery shopping for her and cleaning the apartment!
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07/29/04 08:19 - ID#26013

i like this place

apparently some people on this site have sadi some nice things bout me. that makes me feel all good inside. diana, im still laughing about the squaredancing joke. racheal, of course im still here, and im not going anywhere.

the theme of today is hot. school, hot. tennis, hot. now, hot. at least we got the rum n coke. im burnin up...

square tonight, hope to see ya'll down there.

:O) :O) :O) :O) :O) :O)

p.s. must eat indian food this weekend!oh, and not to worry, the new pic is just tina feeling me up; we're cool like that.
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07/27/04 02:55 - ID#26012

i would make a good housewife too

damnit terry, who sat and dip those little critters forever? three pounds of little chunks of fich and me. i dipped and dipped like it aint been done before. congrats to me.



the 40 always comes back to haunt me.




p.s. im excited about this week.
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