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05/06/04 08:59 - ID#25953

i died

there is no end to the allergy season for me. i shall live a live of stuffy nose and tissues. i have so much to look forward to.
i really do have a lot to look forward to. i just have to do lots of work to be able to enjoy this summer. i must paint, and opack, and get rid of lots of things. i have to be frugal and boring, and not stylish, and not spend any money this next month and a half. if you see me spending money, slap my hand and say, "NO!".
my mother is having surgery on the 18th. I am kinda nervous. She has abnormal pap smears, and they need to remove some pre-cancerous stuff. I just hope it all goes well. I love my mommy, no matter how crazy she can be. She is the greatest, and she buys me mexican yummy lunch when i don't feel well.
I have come the conclusion that I am now boring. I used to want to do so much crazy stuff, and now I look forward to be domestic. What happened to crazy party sarah? I think she is tired now. partying is only fun once in a great while, and since i seem to have a huge aversion to any kind of drug, i am going to take the "high" road and be high on life. well, most of the time that is.
i want someone to have a spring party, lets have a srping party, and wear fancy spring clothes and be happy.
my nose is starting to clear up. the doc said it was completely blocked. nasal passages are not meant to swell shut.

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05/03/04 07:24 - ID#25952

having fun with the sketch-a-doodle

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tina and i are amazed with jill's sketching ability. jill, what drugs are you taking to complete your wondeerful sktech masterpieces, can you share with us, we need help!
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05/03/04 01:05 - ID#25951

may showers bring june flowers?

the rain has come ,and shows no signs of stopping. at least we can have two months of nice weather(maybe) before we return to the snow.
i can't update from home anymore. my computer wont load the site, how strange?

do you think you have a problem if you are constantly high? i mean high at work, high at home, and just high in general? i would say yes. some other people say no. pot is fun, in smaller doeses. we must learn to appreciate it, rather than use in large quantities and spend our days in utter supidness.

i have decided to devote more time to crafts, as they are fun, and i am good at them. i have this one really cool project in mind; it involves records, and that is all i will say for now.
if i don't do laundry tomorrow, i will just have to be naked all day, and knowing that i will have to leave the house at some point, i will have to do laundry. this, i am not happy about. i hate doing laundry, lets all move to a nudest colony, or just wearing very little clothing all the time.

the last point i will make is about this weather. dear buffalo weather: please stop being decent only when i am at work. i have many outdoor activities planned that require sun amd warm weather. i am really tired of being inside all the time. thank you
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04/30/04 06:28 - ID#25950

stupid computer

i have been completely devoid of estrip for the past five days, or so. why is my computer so dumb? the answer is easy, its really old, and was never good in the first place. perhaps my recent separation from the strip has caused this horrible mood i am currently in.
i want it to go away, right now. i think this is the normal cycle of moods. i am happy most of the time, and then sad for a while. i think i have just reason. the biggest change of my life thus far is in the process of happening, and it is making me feel not quite together. other emotions include, fear, lonliness, anger, and blah, blah , blah. the most upsetting thing is that i have to let go of this mazing piece of family history i have lived in for over 14 years now. i love you 27 Mang, you will be in my heart forever. i heart you.
the good news. well there is just so much. my friend nicole comes home soon, and we have so much planned for this crazy summer. lots of other people are coming home too. but, nicole has pool and hottub. summer is coming, and there aint nothin bad about that. oh summer, how i have missed you. we will be happy together, when you finally come.
tina leaves thurs or fri...sigh. i am really going to cry very hard. this will not be good. this is no good. tina, if you don't come back to visit this summer, i will hunt you down, in bali, or wherever the hell you are, and bring you back here, and make you stay until i get sick of you. then, you can go stay with flacidness, or estrip peoples.
i wrote too much. i am going to find some pizza. pizza is the new love of my life.
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04/26/04 09:18 - ID#25949

i have a home for the summer

don't want to write much, i am not in a typing mood, or writing mood for that matter. maria stopped by today. matthew terry and i went for a nice long walk. i feel refreshed. met with my aunt today, and i shall live with her for the summer. yay! i have so much stuff to do...shit.
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04/25/04 12:19 - ID#25948

waiting

it seems that life is constantly making us wait. waiting for the phone to ring. waiting to hear to good or bad news. waiting for someone or something, just sitting, or pacing and wanting that monet to come and be over with. well, i do not want to wait anymore. enough of this passiveness.

in other words, if you make me wait, i might not be there when you are ready for me.

note to flacidness: i cannot resist temptation either. or is it that i am looking for something, and when i find it, i no longer have the need to have everything? you will find your thing, and thn you will no longer have so much desire.
did that make sense? am i making sense?
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04/24/04 01:12 - ID#25947

this journal

this journal is fun to keep, but also somewhat frustrating. i guess i know that people read it, or i think they do, so i neverreally say what i would say in a "real" journal. i don't have any other place where i record my thoughts, so it goes here, as least a little bit. tina and i were talking about this today. so, my question is, do i really care? i guess i do, because of the fear of seeming crazy, completely self-abosrbed, stupid, petty, or any number of things people don't want to be. i think that most people are really all of these things and just do an amazinfg job of hiding it. i would rahter just be exactly who i am, and write that way, instead of hiding it all the time. some stuff should remain unsaid, but the rest, i urge you just to let it all out.
here goes: i am way too convincable. i need to just do something when i say i am going to do it. this starts tomorrow. i'm a huge baby, and i'm afraid to do stuff for myself. but, the truth is, that i am the only one who gets hurt in the end. i am gonna find some jobs, and work my ass off, and maybe have a little fun in b/t. if i have to live with a crazy, alcoholic aunt for a few months, i will do it. they say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, so we will give it a go.

i'm going to stop making excuses. i will start to pay back debt. i will excercise. i wil eat more healthy. i will become more politically involved. i will become less involved and concerned with other people's opinions of me. i will try to educate myself and search out truth.

this is a long "i will" list. but things around here are gonna change; for real this time. no more bullshit. and in the end, well, there is no end, but i will start tomorrow, by scoping out the alcoholic's pad, and perhaps some job hunting.

that is what i have been thinking; its not political, or intelligent. its just whats on my mind, and it feels good to get it out in writing, or typing rather.

p.s. have you ever started to laugh when you know you are not supposed to, but it ends up making you laugh even more. like, in class, or during a presentation? i did that today, and it was all tina's fault.
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04/21/04 07:33 - ID#25946

yesterday...

lots of stuff happened yesterday. i am too lazy to write in sentences, so i will list:

  • bush came, i slept. i feel bad. i wish i had been there.
  • 4/20-enough said
  • i recieved flowers for the first time ever, and i am still wearing some in my hair.
  • a day filled with terry, matthew, flacidness, the simeon, and tina can never be dull.
  • we came, we smoked, we laughed, we cried from laughing so hard.
  • who can forget the "milkshake"? if you don't know what that is, just go to www.ebaumsworld.com and check out the videos, look for the one milkshake, and you will never think of the song or the drink the same way again.
  • i have decided that pyhsical humor is the kind that makes me laugh the hardest and longest, is this wrong?

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04/21/04 07:28 - ID#25945

yesterday


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04/19/04 02:31 - ID#25944

boys who suck and weekend o fun

in this past week, i have talked to way too many women who feel they are being mistreated by the man they are involved with. i have not talked to any men who feel this way. something is not right.
it may have something to do with the kind of guy are of these ladies are pursuing. so, let me tell you, it is not worth it to waste your time with someone who doesn't appreciate you. personally, i would rather be alone. being led on, and pushed around, and having your feelings hurt is not worth it. you must keep looking for the diamond in the rough. 'nough said.

on to other topics. parties. parties that happened this weekend. i had a glorious time, until the puke fest. what the hell happened to me? it was all worth is to see tina knock over the screen in emily's room. that will make me laugh for a long time. i was also informed that tina was yelling out to random people, such as the girl who works at new world, who isn't very friendly. she called out, "hey girl in the black shirt who works at new world, you're a bitch." tina is the best thing that ever happened to alcohol.

this weekend was really fun, so thanks to all involved. and don't forget 4/20 is tomorrow!
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