Posts from October 2010

still feel like crap. going back to working 11 hr days is too much. i'm not sure what to do...

now i woke up today and my right eye is all red. not utchy, just completely red and i look crazy.

i'm so tired, and my legs hurt and i feel weak, and all i want to do is sleep.

i think i might have to tell my boss or something about this next week, because i'm not sure i can work the full 50 hrs next week, plus another 10 at my other job, plus school. i just feel like crying.

i hate mono, and if one more person tells me how "tired" they are, i swear i will scream...

so, no one wants to be around me....

truth is most people have been exposed to mono without even knowing.

has anyone had it, how long does it last???? at this point fever and aches are gone, im just tired....

ant to go to vegas in two weeks.... not sure if i should????? help!!!!

I have mono and strep. Double whammy.


This sucks. I can't date for a month and I was going to have two dates this week....


Must stay in self-contained bubble of sickness...


Wahhhhhhhhhhhh!

i'm totally obsessed with this baby. she actually makes me want a baby, and i really don't see myself having le child.

a week of baby was total bliss, but now im paranoid i maybe got her sick i'm waiting for labs to come back to see if i have mono. i have been sick for two weeks been on multiple meds and keep getting more sick of different kinds of sick.

i've had a bedtime of 8 or 9 for two plus weeks, this is pathetic. walking up a flight of stairs could send me into cardiac arrest... i mean not really i'm just that sluggish.

anyway, this is my baby love and me wanting to smush her because she's so completely presh.

Saw this license plate yesterday when I was driving home from a lovely lunch with my bro and niece.


We were stopped at a light and my brother says, "a Jho." I was thinking um yea, you are a j. Ho. His first name is Josh.

Then I look at the car in front of me.... So hilar! I want that license plate!!!!

didn't have it in me to clean, and the house needed to be spotless for the arrival of my mother brother and niecey.

i hired a cleaning service, and they made stripes in the micro-fiber.

so awesome... rocks my world!

about a thing...

ok, my nervous breakdown is over. the fam gets here tonight. its pathetic i miss my mom. i need a mom hug and kiss.

i also need a bebe hug and kiss. i can't wait to see that chublet!!!!!!

so, i guess i am feeling better. still tired. but my eyes keep getting more swollen. i refuse to go back to the stupid np i saw last week, because all she did was give me some antibiotics and tell me to take some allergy meds.

ok, allergy meds didn't help the swelling loser. annnnnd my eyes are much more swollen than wednesday when this all started. i look like a freak...

i just need to come home from work and see that baby and none of it matters.

I've been sick on and off for about four days. started with severe back pain then a fever and body aches and chills. I've just been really tired. then i thought i was better...

but the fever came back last night and a bit today. still have the horrible back pain.

now my right eyelid is drooping and i have an awful headache.

i really have to see a dr. tomorrow. kind of scared its something serious.

friends were trying to convince me to fain sickness today at work so i could hang out...

of course i stayed at work. i am not sure i ever faked sick. ok maybe in hs.

anyway, get home and a wave of sicknees came over me. complete body aches. i hurt to touch anything. temp 101. dizzy. cannot eat all my dinner...

this never happens.

supposed to work tomorrow, grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

this pic is scary but thats how i feel. ph and i had the chills so badly that i had on a tee, hoodie w hood on, long velour pants, socks. also took hottest bath possible. chills went away, feel them coming back.

mind you its 90 degrees outside, and 80 in the house.

i'm done talking smack about peeps for a few days...

kinda irritated right now... this guy i've been friends with for about a year, we met through mutual friends.

anyway, i guess he likes me or something like that. i'm not interested in dating right now, and he just isn't my type. i told him that we wren't going to be hooking up and that he should care enough about me to atill want to be my friend.

he went off on me about how i don't like him because he isn't an MD or a professional athlete and he doesn't have tons of money. this is insane, i have dated a few drs and have met a few pro athletes. neither of the situations were anything major and he just seems so insecure and angry for whatever reason that he keeps bringing up these other men.

the fact is, i date who i like and most of the men i've dated are normal people who don't have tons of money. i am a normal person... not looking for a superstar, just someone who is a superstar to me! then he brings up how he isn't hot enough blah blah blah, this guy is a jerk.

i date who i like... and i don't want to date right now because i'm kinda heartbroken over someone and i have too many family things and work and school to deal with.

anyway, there is someone i'd love to date but probably never will. i'd rather have him as a friend then try to convince him he needs to date me... that is how you can tell if someone is genuine.

hey @paul, dancing last night was great!!!!!! tons of fun but so tired today! can't wait to get to blo and have a dancing night with you!!!!