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Category: non-wedding

11/09/07 11:31 - 37ºF - ID#42063

the whole marriage thing

and, to clear it up, when i said i didn't know about marriage; i wan not including the big party and diamonds part!


because, i am all about:


huge parties.


diamonds.



fancy dresses.




champagne.




i will have a non-wedding. man- optional!
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Category: work

11/09/07 10:34 - 42ºF - ID#42057

most work ever

so, i love my one job, i really do. i love kids. they a;ways have such a interesting take on everything, and its so great to see them do so many things for the first time and watch their minds grow. plus, they are cute and cuddly, and nothing is better than cute and cuddly!

but, waking up at 5am is no fun. i stayed at the little girl's house whom i work for, because the father is out of town this week, and she can be handful. anyway, its good money, because part of the time, i am sleeping, but my oh my, this all makes me wonder...


1. When if ever will I want kids? I love them, but it is soooo much work, and you have no life outside of them, if you decide to raise a family.


2. When if ever, will I get married? Actually its not a "when", question, because I don't really care right now. But, at the hospital, everyone married with kids, and all they do is bitch! They have no social lives, and they have to work so hard to pay for what their kids wants, and they aren't happy with their husbands. I think you can be happy, but I honestly think it's a ton of work, and few and far between don't end up getting divorced.

I just think many women sell themselves short and are always desperately looking for a man to complete them. I also think, many people don't feel like a "whole" person without someone else. Maybe more so women, and not directed at any women on this site.

Anyway, it could be my bitterness of not being in love, but I no longer look at couples in love and get jealous. I get jealous of people who own Marc Jacobs, and can afford private jets.

I am jealous of people who have drivers, or just don't have a car and can walk everyone. I want to walk everywhere again.

If the asshole British guy calls me again in the middle of the night an wakes me up, I am going to have some words. But, for now, I will just silence his calls. The waiter called me for a date, but I think maybe not.

But I AM thinking, Blo in January! Then maybe NYC, prob both. Ok so, here's what I need to know, since no one ever calls me back! AHEM! (e:paul), do you guys still want to rent a cabin in Alleghany? And, I hate having to communicate through my blog, but sometimes desperate times calls for desperate measures!


I am now going to sleep for two hours before I work a million more hours!




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Category: macbook

10/30/07 02:59 - 47ºF - ID#41880

the new operating system...

who has it, should i get it? is it worth it?


tell me people, tell me!



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10/30/07 02:20 - 47ºF - ID#41879

ive got nothing

to say.


havent blogged in a while, but it could be cause my life is so damn boring these days.


work.



school.



sleep.




i feel like there will be something good soon. or i can rely on my massage, paycheck, and dinner plans this weekend!
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Category: sexy men

10/28/07 02:24 - 43ºF - ID#41844

sigh!

[box]we should get married, indeed. we just need to check the prenuptials, then we are all set. i don't consider myself the tragic hero, more likely a picky, independent, being-passionate-about-his-music spoiled only child who hasn't found his match yet. you might call this an awful personality faw. maybe. not. well. anyway.

how do you keep the boys in line? you exude a refreshing sensuality that is quite unique. plus the design. i think you will be good at it.

besides being a happy viola piper, i write (published a book of poetry), drink espresso, love opera, skinnydip in lake zurich in mild summer nights, travel, work in a film club, teach, sing (my everlasting love), dance ballroom, eat fondueduring mid august heat waves, play soccer and read glauser and marquez.

and yes, i need a good cook!
i will serenade you while cooking, though.

what gets you excited in life?[/box]


if he is for real. and i think he is. if not, its what my dreams are made of... i need me some of this man! basically all around what sarah wants/needs in a guy! plus the hotness, but i wont post photos because that makes me more crazy than i already am.


and i wonder, how public is this blog, going to google myself right now...
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Category: books

10/25/07 11:01 - 48ºF - ID#41805

Freakonomics!

i know, i know, im like three years behind the loop. but, if you are too, and you havent read this, you need too! now!

it blows my mind. and, i of course give credit to (e:hodown), who suggested i use the book the back up my persuasive speech with info from the amazing book.


speech topic: why pro choice is the only choice that makes sense.



and, (e:paul), i am not obsessed with abortion like you might think. ok, maybe a little. but, when i thought about what i am passionate about, this came to mind. i fully believe in the woman's right to choose, and you will too after you read this book.


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Category: sick fucks

10/25/07 01:29 - 46ºF - ID#41788

show your face, coward!

[box]10/24/07 18:44@72.208.66.117 Guest wrote:

Have anybody lately told you that you are disrespectful, inconsiderate, immature, fat selfish whore? [/box]


wow. no, actually, nobody has told me that lately! but thank you.
apparently, i have been walking around not knowing how awful i am.

tomorrow, i will wake up, stop eating. stop talking. get some manners. and stop screwing everything in sight.

i am so glad you let me know. because i was actually thinking, i am an ok person.

wow. thank you!
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10/22/07 01:45 - 69ºF - ID#41742

i got a little crazy in me

i don't know what is wrong with me.


can't focus.

can't sit still.

can't stay awake.

can't sleep.

sleep too much.

definitely eat way too much. stop eating everything. and STOP eating 70% cheese. that is so sick.


i can't take anymore of this not sex all the time. i think that is my problem. and, hope to god my mom doesn't read this shit. or my employers. but i sorta also don't care.

my new plan is definitely europe this summer, all summer. ill be an au pair or something. or something. everyone should go to at some point, and it will like an international partay!

and, oil painting is all sorts of complicated. i think my shit is gonna be shit.


ok, this is funny, this boy came over, and i really don't like him. and he really kinda irritates me. plus smallest penis ever, and i was like, "i hope we don't have to hook up." i love that i am such a slut. ok, jk. but, i didn't want to really hang out with him, but i wanted to trap someone and make them listen to me talk. apparently he wasnt down. so, he said, "we are going into your room to makeout, and we went in there. and i continued to talk, talk, talk. and, i was reading a bunch of different magazines, and enjoying my drink. then he just gets up and decides to leave. and i was laughing, and he is a douche. but, whatever he had to drive all the way out here. didn't get drunk, or stoned, and didn't get any!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha. loser.

i will now attempt school shit, or just get more drunk.....



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Category: life

10/18/07 11:58 - 70ºF - ID#41707

advice needed

so, all of you more experienced (e:strip)pers, give me some help here!

here is my situation:

i have the opportunity to move out. to a nice apartment in a nice area, with two people i know i will get along with.

however, i have a lot of debt right now. a car to pay off, and get fixed now that i have fucked it up. i have school to focus on, and two jobs as well. moving out would add more stress to my full plate.

moving out would also mean a very very tight budget, and i would have to work even more. i wouldn't be able to eat out, go out, etc, very much at all, but when i did, i would have no one to answer to.

the place is reasonably priced and in a very central area for work and school. but, now i have no furniture but a bed and some other things....

my mom wants me to stay here for a while and get on my feet. i want to move out so i can start my life. i don't know what to do. its not bad here, but who wants to say they live with their parents after a certain age? i feel like a huge loser.

basically, i move out and be broke. or stay here, and save mad money and get a sweet place/move somewhere else for school when i am ready.

what do i do?

i think i am stuck here for a while.
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Category: video

10/18/07 03:43 - 56ºF - ID#41699

oh my god! a video us of, by me!

check it out. (e:southernyankee), (e:paul), (e:terry), and i! woot!



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