most of my grades have not been posted yet and they are due tonight. this is really frustrating me... i worked so hard all semester... and all of my work has been submitted for three weeks so this is really ridiculous.

i also looked at the grade for one of my classes, and i will be getting a b despite getting full credit on most assignments. the reason why? i missed a few classes, and if you miss a more than one class, it is impossible to get an a. i think this is bs, because i did so well on all of my papers and projects, and i am being punished for missing a class for being sick, and another for having personal problems. this instructor canceled class because of personal problems, can i lower her grade?

my gpa will still be a 3.5, but i wanted to bump it up to a 3.6. it's frustrating when every semester you have that one teacher who makes its so difficult to get an a... i guess my goal for next semester will be to not miss any class.

i can still graduate with high honors, but i can only get one b over the next two semesters, and i am already stressed out about it so much. i'm not why i care so much... it may be a way of focusing all of my frustrations about the difficulties i've faced in the past year and giving myself something to focus on.

i can still graduate with a 4.0, but it's going to be a lot of hard work and dedication, and i'm ready for the challenge.

now, i want my grades possssted!!!!!

polishing silver.

oh yea!!!!! it's gonna be a shiny, shiny kissmas.

there is a bomb in my sister's building at work...

my brother won't pick up his phone...

my mom gets more stressed by the day.

so, i changed my christmas wish to just having my family and friends safe and healthy, that's it.

i just finished my last and final, final online....

things are looking good for all a's. i have two classes where it's literally going to come down to a few points and i am so nervous.

i think the last time i put so much effort into school was probably the 4th grade...

i want straight a's.... more than anything else.

this is all i want for christmas this year santa, i promise i've been so good this year.

i officially care the most about school... i actually want next semester to start so i can really get all a's....

and also because i now have so much free time and so little stress that i feel more stressed because i have nothing to do and i want to avoid shopping...

i guess i just have to start hiking again every day and that will kill two hours, and i have two weeks left at my job but that is only part time.

i could just "play" school... i used to read so much but now i feel like i only know how to read if it is to find information to write a response or paper or presentation on.

i'll stop now, this is pathetic.

the children i work with... wow they are so spoiled. seriously, their parents wait on them all day long. now they have come to assume i am their personal servant... i love these kids but i am so happy i am moving on and only focusing on school for the next year. taking class, teaching class, and then taking care of children is like full time child rearing.

it will be so interesting where i choose to go next year.... it's going to be nyc, or abroad. the pull of my sister, my friends, and nyc is pretty exciting.... but tropical seems pretty cool too.

i am so excited for blo..... really i miss my little zooey so much, she doesn't even remember me anymore. and then i must meet the new baby...

this whole holiday season may really just be the best ever....i get to see all my fav peeps!!!!!! i need something sparkly for new years!!!! and someone handsome to kiss lol.

ok, currently i have two broken laptops, and a broken ipod... this is so sad. my phone is nearly broken as well... why can't things just work!!!! i kinda wanna go back to the days where we crank things and they work. maybe i need one of those crank up laptops? technology has failed me!!!!!

i never really posted about vegas... it was pretty fun until i pooped out at the end.

maybe i just needed a forever lazy, apparently they are the best for everything. notice the zipper in the back so need to disrobe if you have to use the restroom...



ok, so the highlights were the room, the buffet, and just laughing with my boys. i was kinda stressed about school the whole time because i am lame. the last week or two always gets me like this and it's the culmination of needing the grades, the grants, scholarships and all that. i'd honestly rather just have a job instead... instead of two jobs and school, and then christmas and all that.

i did just find out i received a scholarship... this is a first. i have applied for so many but never gotten one... kinda exciting!

anyway, im super excited for new year's in blo. i'll have zero worries about school or work, because i won't have a job to worry about and i'll just be ready for fun times and 2012!!!!!

here's some pics:

My car is broken down @ school.


I live an hour from asu... Have a final in 3 hrs.

Should have been home by now and may not have ride to get home or back.

Also one instructor hasn't handed back an assignment she promised to a week ago... Which will hugely affect our grades.

Plus another instructor didn't made grading clear which is causing many people's grades to go way down.


I can't wait to not have a car.

need to post about this. apparently i'm pretty boring now...

i chose to sleep rather than party.

at least i managed to look cute while there.... there were so many hot guys but i didn't talk to any.

probably because i was with two guys, and i'm lazy. for the next trip we need way more people... some girls so i'm not the only high maintenance one, and to be there on friday and saturday nights so paul and terry realize the cubs can actually be super fun.

i still had good times and i miss that beautiful suite.

in vegas i go all out with the glam....

starting with the nails....

why is it that employers think they can break the laws at the expense of their employees? the restaurant thing didn't work out, which is fine, but i've been waiting over 2 weeks to get paid.

i was informed my paperwork didn't go through, and given a number to fax my "stuff" to. first of all, what is "stuff". second of all, fail. they are being reported to the az board of labor. i have had many bad jobs, but never one where i just didn't get paid.

this is ridiculous... they don't even owe me that much so they could just pay me cash, but no, so they are being reported.

i also have an excellent case against a former employer where is was fired by discrimination and retaliation. basically my boss screamed at me, a bunch of people heard, including a patient,and then i was fired two weeks later. my boss told hr i made the whole thing up and spread the story to other employees. well, that's a complete lie, because one rn actually quit partially because of what she witnessed. now i have two solid witnesses and lies will be exposed. my hearing loss was also brought up, and i was blamed for a patient fall. i was never clinical staff, i sat and watched a screen. and since when are other people monitoring whether or not i have my hearing aids in? it isn't anyone's business, and furthermore, unless you have a hearing loss, you wouldn't understand the complexities of it and how it affects your hearing with or without hearing aids.

i was never given one cent of unempoyment, of which the state had promised me about $150, which is nothing anyway. all because i am a student, when apparently tons of people collect checks and just sit around all day. it isn't about the money at this point, but just revealing the truth and having my name cleared.

there's probably so many times where people aren't paid what they are supposed to be, or they are fired unjustly. i wonder how many people don't fight back because they lack courage or don't have the resources or know how. maybe i should go to law school...

i feel like i am on some sort of vindication streak... for me it's really about making a clear choice to not allow others to take advantage. i'm tired of people who abuse their power over others because they are selfish, angry, lazy.... and a million other reasons.

when i have my classroom, even in student teaching this spring, i feel like my number one motto will be, "always strive to do what is right". so many people are taken advantage of, or take advantage of others... imagine how different things could be if we all made a conscious effort to make good choices in all aspects of our lives. i've made countless mistakes... ones i am even still paying for, but moving forward i try to at least be aware and strive to be better everyday.

ok, done with this crazy rant about morals and ethics. it's just on my mind a lot lately. must go get nails done!!!!

vegas bebe!