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05/11/11 11:25 - ID#54263

1.33 points

1.33 points away from an a in one of my classes. i hope, and pray there is some way there is an extra 1.33 points in there somewhere by the time my final grades appear....

i have a 91.67..... i need a 93....

are you ready for a miracle?

i am. ready as i can be.
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05/10/11 02:07 - ID#54255

DONE!!!!!!!!!!!

Officially done with the semester!

I feel like I have nothing to do now.... except for work...

I should exercise, or something.

I am going to San Francisco and Northern California this summer, and also to the spa, and maybe to the Caribbean...

Wait a second, I was invited to Vegas too.

Oh, and I am finally officially moving out of my mother's house. In August, closer to school, and work.

I'm also going to the border this weekend, and to Mexico for tacos!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have to make some phone calls about possible jobs... but I must say having time to be lazy at home is soooooo nice!

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05/10/11 02:33 - ID#54254

twice, and not nice

so @ asu the college of education uses this program called tk20. i am not a fan. in fact i really think i completely hate it.

i hand in all of my assignments, and then the important ones have to be handed in again to tk20. none of us really know what it is used for, or why we are using it. not even the professors. it is confusing, and somehow i submitted all of this stuff that is now lost.

i also have 3 laptops where i do my work, because sometimes my work requires a mac, sometimes a pc, sometimes i do work on my mini laptop.

i don't understand the purpose of this dumb giant database. are future employers really going to spend days reading all of my papers and assessing my work? i highly doubt it. i have giant issues with things like this since asu already piles on huge amounts of useless busy work... to have us upload and submit our work a second time to a confusing and useless program we had to purchase for $100.

it's an insult to me, my time, and my money.

2 more exams. then i can be done. finally.

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05/06/11 12:50 - ID#54224

final part 2: take 2

All of my finals are online....

This is a blessing and a curse. If you know blackboard, you know what a gem it can be. I had composed a lovely essay answer for the 2nd part of my classroom management final and then it was lost.

Luckily my professor allowed me to do it again today. I really wanted to have at least one cinco de mayo drink out, but that was not an option.

2 more finals. One video. And about 3 other random assignments and them I am donnnnnnnnnnnnnne!

I think I shall have As and Bs. Hopefully more As than Bs, but no Cs. This is a miracle considering.

Next semester I am no joke putting school first. School before fools....
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05/04/11 01:01 - ID#54208

accomplishment

I'd have to say despite all of the adversity and hardship this semester I am so proud of myself for sticking it out. I think I have done pretty well in my classes, and I'm almost through with all of my work. A few loose ends to tie up and then some finals and I am freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

The last month has been a huge test. Not just with school, but with life. I think sometimes I put all of my eggs into one basket and count on things working out in my favor when that just can't be the case all of the time. I place so much importance on others and I've realized that I really need to dig deeper and start living for me.

One thing I can say I've done is learn to respect myself and stand up for what I feel is right. I did something big the other day, and it felt good to know that I am capable on defending my character.

Life is an adventure.... A friend told me last week that sometimes it is good to sit back and be patient and just wait. I think that is some good advice. I have been able to really focus on school and I think next semester I will be more prepared. I honestly don't think I've ever worked so hard towards a goal before or wanted something so badly.

I just found out today (e:tina) is coming back! She was accepted to Pratt for grad school.... NYC here I come bebe! I better start working harder and more, I want her to visit me and I'll be needing to buy here a plane ticket. Then she can't say no....... It's been at least 2 yrs and I think about her everyday. Sounds creepy but I feel like she is my friend soulmate. When I am around her, I just feel great and I know I can tell her anything. I have been missing her so much lately and I can't wait to see her in August! She can meet the baby(my niece)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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05/02/11 02:24 - ID#54200

longest paper ever

i officially wrote my longest paper to date at about 25 pages.

i am pretty sure i have way way longer papers coming my way.

i wrote a 9 page paper a month ago in about 3 hrs and recieved a 96...

better not get my hopes up too much on this one though. i think it is at least higher b quality.

i still have a video, another paper, 3 finals, and some other random things to tie up. i am going to have way more free time than is healthy soon....

time to get to zumba again, hiking, swimming, jillian micheals, 3 more jobs.....
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04/28/11 09:22 - ID#54169

perspective

there is this girl in my block this semester and she is the sweetest, prettiest, kindest person. i have gotten to know her a bit as we have done a few projects together but it was mostly just superficial type stuff. i kinda spilled my guts to her the other day about some stuff going on with me and she was so nice to listen. today in class, she gave me the saddest face when i told her stuff wasn't going so well. she looked liked she was about to cry.

we started talking about the summer and she is going on this amazing 6 week trip to europe with her family. i think that is so cool. then she told me about her little sister and it really amazed me how strong this girl is. her sister was diagnosed with terminal brain cancer 2 yrs ago and just passed in december. you would never guess how much she is going though because she i always so happy and positive.

i can't even say how much i admire her strength. she makes a huge effort to be a good person and even though she is going through a lot, she still reaches out to others in need. it puts my situation into perspective. what i am going through is nothing like that...

i feel like the earlier part of my 20's was focused so much on silly things... there is a lot i just put away and didn't deal with and now it's haunting me.

anyway, my friend was telling me about how she can't stand to be alone and everyone deals with grief differently. i would say i'm the same as her. i just become a huge mess of tears and emotion and need to be around people that love me.

i feel like it makes me a bad person that the father who i found is alive and living in CO two years ago... i wish he was dead. i know i have to go face him but it scares me. i guess i feel like i can't move on with my life until i at least try. it's like i am mourning the loss of the father who was never there.

anyway, i have this giant paper, a video to make, another paper, a presentation, three finals, and some other make-up work all to finish by tuesday...

and two very important interviews tomorrow, plus my internship.

ummm... start with the resume???
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04/26/11 07:42 - ID#54157 pmobl

perfect stranger

I have been having the worst day. Worst week. Worst month.


Today kinda set me over the edge. To top it all off I was drving around the parking lot @ asu and couldn't find a space. when I finally found a great spot the guy was was parked there gets out of his car and comes up to my car. I opened the door and said "what" in my typical bitch voice and he gives me his parking pass good for all day! What a sweetheart, total cutie too. I need to start being less scary and mean. That boy made my day!

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04/23/11 11:42 - ID#54137

easter basket

i want one so badly, but i don't think i'm going to get one.

you would think my mother would understand what a tough time i'm going though and she'd be thoughtful right? wrong.

where is (e:hodown) when you need her? oh yea, she's off in nyc working my dream job.

i also woke up feeling kind of sick.

i am considering getting my own basket... i also would like to color eggs. i feel like no one cares about holidays when there are no childers around. I am an adult child, who needs to be treated like a child.

where is the baby when you need her?

on another note, i can't believe the semester is almost over. i also can't believe that i have done surprisingly well considering the insane amounts of work i was required to do, while working f/t.

i am currently doing some evaluation of my life, and i think i need to cut back on work and luxury in favor of maintaining my health and sanity. i need to learn how to just relax... i feel like i have the need to fill up every second of the day with something and it's making me crazy...

the things i can't discuss are still going on, but i feel more prepared to cope with them now... plus i'm being very proactive about taking care of myself!

happy easter peeps!
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04/19/11 10:16 - ID#54095

A reason I love Buffalo

I love Buffalo because now that I no longer live there I can go and just be a visitor. Right now, I would love to visit and see my family and friends because I swear I'm about to peace out on AZ for good.

This semester has basically been one giant bundle of stress and confusion and the past two weeks have basically sent me over the edge. I'm dealing with so many things right now, most of which I can't really talk about and the last time I even felt close to this alone was probably before I left Buffalo.

The hardest part is trying to smile and put on a happy face for school and my internship. I guess I always look fine but on the inside I am really hurting. I am currently facing two situations that are bigger than anything I've ever had to deal with and I'm so lost...

I'm supposed to go to the Nicki Minaj concert tonight and I love her, but I honestly don't even want to go. I just want to stay home and have dinner with my family. I just want to be around my mom because she is the only person I can talk to right now.

She is telling me to be a fighter, and she's right but I feel like I don't have the strength.

The really sad part is, while Buffalo is the one thing that would definitely cure my sadness, I don't think I can visit for a while.
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