"a potluck of thoughts/things" written by Lilho on estrip.org

01/19/10 02:01 - 30ºF - ID#50858

a potluck of thoughts/things

i tried to do a good thing and help my friend out by buying her a plane ticket home for her uncle's funeral and i bought the ticket the entirely wrong month and days.

this makes me question myself. when i am reincarnated i am sure to reappear as a ditzy gay man, or a blonde.

i have good intentions, but sometimes they get lost in the confusion of my brain.

so, now i have to wait to get my money back. i am also waiting to get paid from my service provider job(where i work with the little girl). i never seem to get paid on time, or even really get paid the right amount.

i will wait until friday, and then see if i have received my direct deposit. maybe it's because of the holiday, and my timesheets were a few days late. this job is ideal for me in many ways, and i love it for the most part. i do not, however like having to fill out my own timesheets. i can never find any blank sheets and then i fill them out and lose them and i must prefer the fingerpad punch in at the hospital, because i punch in and out and get paid; done.

the point of this ramble is that i want to donate some money to the haiti earthquake relief... i suppose they won't run out of money by friday will they? it's only doing a little, but it is something. thanks (e:james) for that comment. paying to feed a child for a few weeks will help.

I can't wait to be a licensed teacher. I will be able to help more then, and I definitely want to travel and see how other people live. A part of me wants to balance out the insanity of my love for all things shiny and expensive by adding meaning in there somewhere. I feel like helping children is a good start.

i just realized that i go back and forth between capitalizing and not. perhaps i feel some sentences are more important than others? my grammar needs major help...

I don't care if my borther hates the pony party and thinks it is too much and zooey wont like it. i know she will like it, she is related to me. And why is there ever too many parties for a baby????- that is a somewhat quote from (e:hodown). Can i call zooey's bday a hodown??????????????????????????

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Location: Buffalo, NY

01/18/10 12:36 - 36ºF - ID#50840

helping through prayer???

do people really think praying is going to save the people in haiti???

i think organization and planning and swift efforts will save more people.

i think about my life, and what i do daily... it's so hard not to feel like a greedy selfish person.

i do honestly wish i could help, but how much will $50 help? how much will a prayer help?

i am not there. if i could just take one child and feed and bathe them and put a smile on their face. even if it was just one smile, it would be worth it.

i can't stand seeing children suffer. it all makes me sad.

sometimes i want to leave america, because i feel like i will never really appreciate my life until i see how others live. i feel like i will fall deeper into a materialistic abyss.

so many people here have money and no true character. they look down upon people who aren't upper middle class. i don't want to be that person.

it seems like all i care about is makeup and clothes, but it can be a front because i don't want everyone to know how truly soft my heart is.

if i had the money i would so adopt a child. i think that is a new life goal of mine...

send me the needy babies!!!!!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

01/17/10 04:14 - 39ºF - ID#50838

censorship what?

Apparently this site is too naughty for work because I am have been blocked from the site through the hospital system.

No Perez at work. Now no estrip.I will not let them break my spirit though!

I have my blackberry and they cannot take it away from me. Or can they?

Things and people here are at an all time high as far as backstabbing and hostility goes.

I am responding to the gate with love. As any good ho would do.

My mom told me I work too much which makes no sense because she taught me how to be a work horse.

Also I have to pay for the pony and petting zoo party and blo and nyc. I'm working hard to play hard peaches!! Woot woot!

Back to work...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

01/12/10 11:33 - 17ºF - ID#50808

flyest kicks eva!

i had to return an ugly gifted pair of sneaks... and found these in return. this makes me perhaps the happiest i have been in a few weeks at least. i have needed some new ones forever and these were exactly what i was looking for an a steal.

holla nordstrom rack!!!

i'll be straight up pimpin at work tomorrow. scrubs included.

baby zooey's bday planned:

check

baby animals and pony at the party:

check

pinata:

check

giant lawn sign that says, "stop! the party starts here!":

check

go me. i must now go back to sleep and back to work because work is all i do.

annnnd, i am buying a blo nyc ticket in the next two weeks.......

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Location: Buffalo, NY

01/10/10 10:04 - 26ºF - ID#50793

this irks me

i went hiking saturday and sunday(today), and this lady coming down the mountain had on a head scarf not just the head scarf though; she was also covered from head to toe. i saw nothing showing but her face and her hands.

she looked so beautiful and fit. no woman should ever have to cover herself this way.

i am so happy i was raised to be proud of my womanliness.

woman should celebrate themselves everyday.

i have also noticed lately many men who fell they can talk and treat women as second class citizens. sorry guys, but this is america and we (i hope) are not willing to accept that treatment.

part of my 2010 plan is give respect to earn respect. i also want to open the eyes of individuals who are ignorant on this matter.

i fear the latter of my task will be much harder. wish me luck.

my blogs are lacking but i am so busy... worky, worky. moving to a new house somewhat soon. packy, throwy away. and then the spring semester.

i am going to go all out warrior style... early bedtimes little socialization. lots of exercise.

6.5 miles hiked this weekend. back to the mountain thurs morning for another 4. woot!

in my country there is problem, and the problem is ...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

01/01/10 02:53 - 25ºF - ID#50712

congratulations me

i managed to stay out of trouble last night and i did not get jacked.

i don't get why people are so into fighting???? i think instead people should have debates and win with words or freestyle and duke it out that way. so much more fun.

pretty sure it was just that the whole proj decided to come out and be ghetto. but i kept it classy for the most part.

now, i have to pull it together and get to work because it's my favorite, like elf's favorite is smiling. my favorite is work.

65 hours this week, 65 hours next week. and i have a third job pending which makes me officially insane, but i need to get out of debt and julie's house at some point and if i don't hustle it won't happen.

my new year's res is to be a hustler, not the shady kind, but the kind who gets things done right!

(e:mike), your card was so cute thank you peach!!!!!!!!!!!

blo trip pending...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

12/30/09 03:59 - 26ºF - ID#50691

a present a day

Keeps the tears far away. I received my xmas card from (e:mike) which started my day off right!

Then a coworker who saw me sad and crying yesterday brought me hello kitty lotion in an amazingly cute hello kitty shaped bottle and hello kitty stickers.

Then another coworker was called and and brought me soy chai and a cheese danish! My fav!

What a good day and how nice you feel when people love you!

I also brought a present for a coworkers daughter who is super girly just like me... A bunch of hair bows! And cookies and chocolate for the staff!

Spreading the xmas cheer for all the boys and girls to hear!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

12/29/09 01:10 - 11ºF - ID#50687

i hate saying goodbye

(E:hodown) just left and I am so sad. Aside from our one showdown fight we had such a nice time and she really is one of my fav people even if she is all bossy and likes to read depressing books.

I am going to be sad for a while now and I just can't stand the fact that most of the people I love are so far away.

America is way too big and I don't like it.

I am trying not to cry and its kinda hard.

I miss the baby she is so cute and I am missing vital parts of her life and it makes no sense that I see the people I could care less about everyday and the people I want to see I only spend time with a few times a year.

Life makes so sense.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

12/21/09 02:30 - 29ºF - ID#50616

mild irritation

i have to plan my schedule at least a week in advance to make sure i am able to manage my time and get everything done. i have been picking up extra hours at the hospital, helping in the business office, and i also took a three session EKG class.

anyway, i was double-booked today, as the mother of the little girl i work with forgot i was coming this morning and then another lady showed up... i said i was going to get things done and come back later.

i don't think i will be going back later... i have a 12 hr day tomorrow and then on wed/thurs. i also have to bake cookies(major task), i am a perfectionist...

clean, shop, wrap, hike, make an xmas music mix, plan out a menu, get ready for sister, and plan out my wardobe.

i feel really guity for not sending out a gift to some people who have been amazing to me, and the stuff is here waiting, but i am so broke from all of the xmas shopping that i need shipping money!!!!!!!!!!

basically the point to this post is, i am kinda going crazy because i tend to take on too much, it's tiring.

i kinda can't wait for school to start again, i aced my math final!!!!! woooooo! i am taking some cool classes, and then for realz to ASU in the fall, to earn the 8 year bachelor degree. and then a master's, but (e:paul) thinks no to the phd...... one day at a time. ;O)

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Location: Buffalo, NY

12/18/09 12:27 - 24ºF - ID#50591

hello kitty says happy bday jessica!

hello kitty just wanted to stop by and say:

happy bday to (e:hodown), a sister, and a friend. of all the ladies i know, she has the best taste, the most bitterness, and the biggest love for tacos. can't wait to give her gifts!!!!!